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Published: 2014-03-07 18:49:54 +0000 UTC; Views: 438; Favourites: 37; Downloads: 1
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Description i've always tried to live my life making others happy
because i know life is a struggle for all of us
and i figure anything i can do to help someone and make their life a little bit easier
is awesome
but lately that's all i've been doing
i haven't done anything for myself
i'm not doing things i used to enjoy
i'm not doing anything but working for others

and to top it all off the people i'm helping don't appreciate me
let alone respect me
no they criticize and demand more
they accusing me of not giving a damn when i'm going out my way and
trying my hardest to help them out

i guess i'm just lost
i'm living my life for other people
that makes "me" as good as dead
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Comments: 6

vveak [2014-03-15 18:53:28 +0000 UTC]

i love u

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engross In reply to vveak [2014-03-17 16:45:24 +0000 UTC]

love u 2

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xRuffian [2014-03-07 20:32:17 +0000 UTC]

I have had / still occasionally struggle with similar issues. I always want to make people happy and help them out any way I can, but often times that can leave you drained in return. When I finally hit the point where I discovered it was not at all healthy for me, and quite frankly I had had enough that I slowly started to push people away that did not do anything for me. You have to realize that you cannot have people in your life that just use you, you don't need people who constantly take and never give. In all honesty, no friends is better then the wrong friends. It may be hard but at some point you really have to put your foot down and demand respect, people treat you the way you allow them to treat you. And don't let them make you think that you are being over dramatic or that your feelings are wrong, you have every right to feel the way you do. You really don't need people in your life who only drag down and don't help you grow as a person. Start putting yourself first and you will be much happier.

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engross In reply to xRuffian [2014-03-09 21:43:30 +0000 UTC]

asdfghj i'm sorry you have the same struggle... i intermittently change between being a pushover and being assertive... it really just depends on who I'm dealing with... the more power they have (over me or otherwise) the more i give in... I know it's bad but I also know that some of these people I am dealing with right now won't be in my life for much longer and I guess that's one of the reasons I've given up trying to assert myself. I guess right now I'm just in one of my "weak" phases.. ):
But thank you so much, and I really appreciate it.

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xRuffian In reply to engross [2014-03-10 23:43:03 +0000 UTC]

I feel you on this level so much! I hope things get better for you, you truely deserve people in your life who will put you first! Try to keep positive about it, we attract the energy that we give out

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engross In reply to xRuffian [2014-03-11 04:38:26 +0000 UTC]

I know... I really need to focus on thinking more positively. Thank you.

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