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Description SURPRISE!
Look familiar?
It's Spleenk's people!!
The female is nude just as a general body example :>

I had thought them up last year -- more devoted old IZ watchers/readers of mine may recognize the name "Croosh."
Sadly i never got to complete them, which actually always bothered me.
So i'm going to write about them now.
Enjoy!

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~~Croosh~~

Crooshians are a four-armed bipedal species, and notorious to the universe.
Rather than just being a single planet with a select few of its people out and about, Croosh is identified as a universe-wide medically advanced super species with tabs on several planets, and hundreds of thousands of stations around the galaxies.
Their greatest asset is medicine, and with so many other species all over, they're exceptionally versatile and have medical knowledge of all known sentient species.
Except, of course, humans and other potential unknown peoples.
Theirs is a very demanding cause, but over the millennia they have adapted and evolved to be one of the most populous species there is, considering they dominate four super planets with a mighty focus on hospitals.

Of course, not all Crooshians go on to be doctors or work in the medical field; there are plenty of other things needed to be done, but medicine is the most demanding, and Croosh people have what it takes to dominate in that field.

Because they're such a critical people who benefit all others simply by doing what they know how to do, they were spared on almost all regards by the Irkens during the movement of Operation Impending Doom.
Of course, should any person or group of people try to harm the Irkens or interfere with them, there would be retribution for that, but not carnage on the whole race.
However, being spared also meant the Croosh people had say-so whenever they would end up getting their hands on a person from an invaded species, because they were neutral.
People such as Vortians, cat people, etc.
Rather than turn them in, Croosh people would just release them.
This way they weren't harboring "prisoners" from the Irkens, but also not ruining their patient's life by turning them in to be imprisoned due to Irken selfishness.

Crooshian technology and transportation vehicles are unique and easily identified, as they're always pure white with chrome features, and have structures on top that look similar to their horns.
Croosh medical pods are small and very round, looking somewhat like flying eggs with curved horns on the top of them that come upward rather than jut back.
They can vary in size, and larger vehicles are also rounded, though the horns are often on the side or the back and the shapes are different.
All Croosh medical vehicles come with alarms.

There are sectors and classes and even buildings for different species, and Crooshians are often hooked up with intense teleportation technology to help get patients from one place to another quickly.
Many species work with Croosh to help them rid of waste, maintain their business and fund research.
Without the Crooshian people, there would be far more grief in the universe than present already.

~~Physiology~~

Crooshians are mammals, and do not have a waste-voiding process, just like Vortians, Irkens and other species.
However, Crooshian male genitals are external like ours, and males also have nipples, just like us.
This is due to nipples developing before gender is selected in the womb.

Croosh people can come in skin shades varying from tan to mute green, to light grey.
They all have a spot pattern on their heads with shade and size varying from person to person.
The purpose of this feature is yet undecided.

~~Spleenk~~

Spleenk is something of a special case, being rather incompetent, mentally, it seems.
However, before joining the Resisty, Spleenk was a nurse alongside countless others of his kind.
He wasn't too bad at it, either, though his jobs were very menial.
He worked in a sector that catered to Vortians and Irkens, and was assigned checkups to Lard Nar, who had been taken to Croosh soon after Vort fell, when he was found drifting through space in his disabled vehicle, unconscious.
When Lard Nar was more alert and nearly healed, he had immediately began to plot a resistance of sorts.
Though Spleenk didn't exactly have a real need to or personal reason to want to rebel, he was interested in what Lard Nar had to say, and boldly turned in a resignation.
Of course, to Spleenk and his less-than-average mind, it wasn't such a big deal.
What did he have to lose?
It was possible he underestimated the new job, but soon proved to be somewhat helpful to Lard Nar.
Together, they started their movement, traveling temporarily in a Croosh vehicle until Lard Nar began quick work on their ship.
Shloonktapooxis was the next one to be recruited.

        Spleenk actually has a disability, as he struggles with breathing.
For this reason, he wears an air tank everywhere he goes.
Though Lard Nar may be a little tough on him, he considers him a friend, and Spleenk himself is very adored by Pepps (prisoner 777).

Spleenk now works on the Massive, helping with Lard Nar in engineering, though he is always on standby as a medic.
Should someone need advice, he is there to give it...even if it's delivered in a less than intelligent manner.


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AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH FINALLLYYYYYYY!!!
I NEVER THOUGHT I'D GET TO THIS!
AHH!!
I'm too distracted to say anything else, ENJOY PLEASE!!


---DO NOT STEAL MY CONCEPTS, ART OR IDEAS!!! I DO NOT OWN INVADER ZIM BUT I DO OWN THIS ART!!!---
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Z--I--M [2017-02-01 23:11:02 +0000 UTC]

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Z--I--M [2017-02-02 05:51:25 +0000 UTC]

NO PLEASE, SPAM!!
I love getting comment/fav bombed
Some people really hate fav bombing, but like...why?
Someone likes your stuff, be grateful. :"L

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Z--I--M [2017-02-04 19:35:50 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!!

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Tijopi11 [2017-01-27 05:28:19 +0000 UTC]

Took me a minute to figure out why they looked so familiar... it's, uh, that guy! (Spleenk...? I'm on my phone so I can't figure out his actual name. Forgive my related typos) I was not expecting their race from you xD they don't really strike me as your style. BUT, the history you have for them does and now I'm totally behind this idea! I love how this explains the Resisty a lot more and gives them some more legitimacy. I'm talking about how, rather than just a bunch of misfit random protestors, I like the idea of the ship being more organized with trained pilots, lard nar who I would assume has a lot of inside info, and making Spleenk(?) the onboard medical doctor makes a ton of sense! There's a little place in my heart that wants to believe Lard Nar is much smarter than he was portrayed in canon and actually has some leadership abilities, but maybe doesn't do so well under pressure? xD he might be an amazing threat under certain conditions (though I'm also hella guilty of loving how the irkens are so powerful that they don't even care about a rebel ship at first)

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-01-27 13:59:16 +0000 UTC]

Thank you SO much!
And with Lard Nar i agree, i actually do see him as very VERY intelligent.
To my mind he DEFINITELY cracks under pressure to some extent, but i mean... they were taking on the MASSIVE, too XD
i wonder if maybe he was extra pressured because he put so much responsibility on his shoulders :/
But in my head cannon where he busts Pepps out, he actually does an outstanding job leading and taking control of the situation and yes that is Spleenk XD

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Tijopi11 In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-01-27 19:34:44 +0000 UTC]

I don't know what they were thinking with taking on the Massive, but I guess maybe they were just eager and in an infantile stage of development with their Resistance team? I don't think they underestimated the power of the Massive since I THINK Lard Nar mentioned either he or his people built it, and they all felt they were screwed before they even announced their arrival. I do like the idea of the Resisty coming off as totally incapable and incompetent during their first attempt, but later coming out as one of the strongest Resistance's against the Irken Armada at the time. My brain is always on the edge of creating a battle scene between them, with multiple Species joining the Resisty, including Dib (MAYBE Gaz and I would like the idea of some further human resistance, such as some of the Swollen Eyeball Network.), and some rebellious Irkens.   That'd be so neat

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-01-27 22:29:23 +0000 UTC]

OH YES, people LOVE the idea of Dib and Gaz, and Irkens like Tak or Tenn or even Skoodge resisting!
Weren't they gonna make a movie or something about that, or something close?
Idr X''D
And yes, haha awww man i just love those guys, and i truly do think Lard Nar felt super responsible for his kind in that episode, even though he honestly chose that.
Which i admire, because he's just one little Vort against an armada and -- i'm tearing up!!
THINKING IN HIS MIND MAKES MY HEART HURT
TITS MAGHEDDON, WHY?!
UGH i love Irkens, but man there are so many crazy wild mixed feelings with ALL of them
Anyway, yes!
I myself am actually debating showing Lard being found by Crooshians, or even him guiding the Resisty into a stealthy break-out of Pepps
I would LOVE if you did some kind of battle with them all
SO MUCH TO LOVE/TALK ABOUT!!!

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Tijopi11 In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-01-28 06:45:44 +0000 UTC]

I'm going to sneak on here because I have an unholy amount of work to do (why am I here) but, 

YES I more or less stopped writing novel-esque stories, few as they may be, featuring all my headcanon/AU ideas, but I stopped just short of how I wanted Skoodge to join the Resisty. He had his reasons but irkens in general joining the resistance fills my heart with joy (they are kind of in a secret tyranny after all which I'm assuming gets largely glossed over because their treatment of other civilizations is so much worse and more pressing...also I like to think irken society bangs 'loyalty to the empire' into them from the moment of conception, even at a subconscious/PAK level....irkens are just so damn cool!) And since Skoodge is highly ranked despite his skittish personality/stature, I think he would be at the level of Lard Nar with adding more entail to the Resisty, if not more so. ALSO, I think it would help defuse some of Lard Nar's all encompassing animosity toward the irken race in general. Before I would imagine Lard Nar would have ambitions on the Irken race in general, believing their entire race to be incapable of feeling other than total loyalty to their cruel system. After having agreeable Irkens on board, it would help Lard Nar who has first hand suffered from the seemingly emotionless oppression of the irkens to see that Irkens are individuals (it would be hard for ANY other race to see that since in my head, a big part of Irken culture is stressing themselves always as a unit rather than an individual. Their culture is basically ant culture ) That might lead to Lard Nar trying to break up the oppressive IDEALS of Irkens and thus freeing the Irkens more fro themselves rather than attacking their race as a whole.

Of course my perspective of their future may or may not clash largely with yours, especially since I know you have a peaceful ruler in mind later on. I do like the moments where we sync in our ideas though    

They were going to have a movie indeed, but, if I'm remembering correctly, it wasn't necessarily going to feature the Resisty? It was early in development after all All that really got to me was the mention of an "irken battle" of some form or fashion and I was and still am JUST SO GOSH DARN READY FOR THAT.   I mean I would love to envision it myself too though even though I could never put it into the glory of animation. I miiight do that...some day...when I'm not trying to type a reply while I'm suppose to be writing an essay I haven't started yet even though I gotta wake up in 6 hours because college is rough.

But on that note, the reason I'm typing this comment- YES PLEASE I'VE LOWKEY BEEN WANTING TO SEE LARD NAR AND THE CROOSHIANS MEET SINCE YOU MENTIONED IT BUT I HAVEN'T FORMALLY ASKED FOR IT YET. Also the break-out of Pepps sounds rad af and I'm a sucker for all things that are rad af.   If it's already on your mind, I highly support!! 

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-01-28 22:10:54 +0000 UTC]

GOD your analyzations of the Irkens are outsanding, you truly introduced me to the "hive mentality" thing i think, and it's so perfect!
That makes sense with Lardie, AHH i love it all!!
LOL yes i revert them to peace, but i suppose yours maintains chaos X3
Which is awesome!
I like the syncs, too

AHA awww shit that does sound cool, IZ'S BATTLES ARE ALWAYS COOL AF!

AND AWWW I'M GLAD YOU THINK THAT SOUNDS RAD AF!
THANK YOU, I AM CONSIDERING IT!!! 8''U

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Tijopi11 In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-01-29 01:17:17 +0000 UTC]

Ooh, did I? I got it somewhere else, possibly even the commentary with the episodes? And then also a bunch of little factoids through fanon that I LOVED paired with my own stuff! I've thought on it a little more on it actually (I am always thinking of it ) and I realized a lot of what I love about IZ isn't JUST the dark-humor that I'm head-over-heels for, but also a couple other things that I attached to it...mainly I thought of Irkens and other races being pretty dystopian without it being at all obvious. It's like a sort of subtle thing if you apply real-world emotions to the IZ world (which seems so free from all those emotional entanglements.) I freaking LOVE dystopian worlds and self-harming civilizations for some reason...I think it speaks something about consciousness, since so many directions we could go and are currently going end in self-destructiveness. Just today I learned about two sides of ancient Egypt fighting each other essentially because they were so isolated that they had no one else to fight... we're funny like that And also...ANTS. I love ants and I LOVE hive-mind species, another thing which I don't know why! Ants and frogs are my two insect/animal/living things that fall into my "SUPER COOL" radar. And the way ant life fits so perfectly with Irkens is amazing, I keep thinking of more ways on how it just works.
Unsolicited observation on what I like about IZ (again) but,...here you go

aaand....well I go back and forth on chaos or peace. Like I said, I'm a big fan of dark-humor, or I guess just like...I don't know, maybe not HUMOR specifically? Dark themes, but not to the extent of true horror or gore. I like, maybe, systematic horror that isn't there for the SAKE of horror but more adds to the atmosphere, or horror that doesn't take itself too seriously? I don't even know but a more chaotic afterstory for Irkens would fit this narrative that I so enjoy. Again, not terribly bloody or emotional (THAT is actually a good one- horror that isn't really supposed to be emotional, but just chilling or vaguely uncomfortable), but more something like "welp, the Irken way of life just blew up on itself and their home planet has won the "Vork's Top Ten Ironic Situations" gold metal by being converted into a charity & funland planet, but let's focus more on all these other aliens escaping imprisonment/slavery woo"  
Heh heh although, I am DEFINITELY open to a happier ending... (Albeit with mixed results, mass identity confusion even for irkens who supported the change, peaceful protests and not-so-peaceful revolts from those hardcore military guys who previously had their kill-count framed in their living room... I gotta make it true to my vision of their species or my brain rejects it xD) 

YES, YES THEY ARE COOL AF. My favorite HAS to be the one from 'Plague of Babies' if only because that was probably the biggest "Zim is a badass" moment. I mean he's made  alot of daring escapes and such through the show, but that was the only time I can really think of that he was in a dire situation and he was so ridiculously cool and confident through it. He pretty much just held on to this expression of "bring it on" and then came up with an intelligent plan to save himself, which is a huge contrast from other Zim moments where he's either terrified or dim-witted...it made me look at him differently. 
...but the battle that caught my attention the most was from "Dib's wonderful life of doom" where he supposedly took down the Massive. It was relatively quick and a little anticlimactic in hindsight but I just remember watching adult badass-level Dib Membrane performing parkour across the outside of the Massive itself out in the cold embrace of space while lasers missed inches from his vital organs resulting in the giant ship nose-diving into the ground and it was quite possibly the most epic thing that could happen in the show ever. Just... "Dib fighting the Massive single-handedly" is the sort of best-case-scenario action scene you would expect after having seen the previous episodes and understanding the story a bit more, not to mention it would've been the PERFECT COMPLIMENTARY PIECE to what we know of "Invader Dib." Imagine this seemingly random and irrelevant moment in a random episode of a super quick action scene that in the end was just supposed to be funny and taken lightly, and took place in a simulation. Compare that to an expensive lengthy final/movie which makes this scene into a prophet for the future, which would make an already epic scene and concept into it's purest form of processing: involving more time focused on it, an amazing climax, story elements leading up to it, a much more serious tone, etc. etc. etc. etc. etccccc. 

IM SORRY THIS IS SO LONG I JUST HAVE SO MANY FEELS ABOUT EVERYTHING   

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-01-29 20:04:22 +0000 UTC]

OMFG SO MUCH TO READ
Here's what imma reoterate since you kind of mentioned it; there isn't EVER going to be perfect peace, i do see many Irkens and even other species actually resisting Zelle because it's all super confusing and like you said, there will be identity crisis and stuff, so yeah it's not going to be utopia
I LIKE SOME CHAOS TOO, THAT'S WHAT INVADER ZIM IS

I just love that you're so passionate though!!
GO ON, EXPRESS YO FEELS XDDD

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Tijopi11 In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-01-29 21:11:34 +0000 UTC]

IM SORRY XD

True, you like to give everyone softer endings though heheh. I'm not so kind. 

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-01-30 04:46:29 +0000 UTC]

Most people aren't tbh.
I've recently realized that i have a pathological need for closure
Might have to do with my tragic past life?
My mate died, i was killed looking for her, it was a mess with a rough ending, though i'm strangely proud of it...
Wow this got deep

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Tijopi11 In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-01-30 05:40:56 +0000 UTC]

Well, hm, I would say there are people who definitely prefer happy endings. I've seen people get pretty riled up when a story ends badly, and to them it isn't 'proper' for some reason. And then there's others who are like "MWAHAHA IM SO GLAD MY FAVORITE CHARACTER DIED IN THE ARMS OF HIS LOVE-RIVAL!  "

I have said before that I like a mix of both, but my feelings skew towards the evil side because my love of canon outweighs it, and I just wouldn't feel right if all the characters escaped scot-free. Though it's important that this is only canon-wise... for instance, one ending to the show suggested Dib gets left stranded on some random planet (I think they wanted to use Saturn or Jupiter which doesn't sound right since those are gas planets xD) and I LOVED that ending for the show even though Dib is one of my all time favorite characters (I watched a Jhonen podcast thing today and he explained it really well for me actually- he said he likes entertainment where the creator's intent is to make you feel uneasy/uncomfortable, and achieving that would be the success.) But it also made me really sad and against it, because Dib doesn't deserve that ending. On the other hand, there was also a suggested ending where Zim learns to love Earth. When I first read that I had to reread it a couple more times and spend a while internally screaming because it was just so GLORIOUS! The one thing that's bothered me in IZ is that the characters are so one-dimensional (perhaps that's not the word for it, but they're difficult to relate to and react to the rules of the show instead of how us real humans act.) There is an incredibly minuscule amount of character development. The only character that really grows is Dib (and I appreciate this because it credits his character as the most normal and 'human' in the show.) But the way he grows is backwards, like he tended to lose more hope, take Zim less seriously, and even take himself less seriously in a negative way. So I was happy that Zim, a character who pretty much learns nothing throughout the show, might have actually learned something while us viewers weren't looking. Plus it fulfilled a hidden desire in our hearts that wanted Zim to appreciate Earth and appreciate Dib and finally see how he would be happier this way instead of trying to prove himself to his own people who don't care about him. BUT....I also know that it just wouldn't fit the atmosphere of the show and I wouldn't know how they could possibly pull this off in a SERIOUS way. If anything, they would have to make it into a sort of joke where Zim's like "*goes on sentimental rant about the beauty of Earth* Well I learned that today....HUH. I still want to destroy it though." That sort of ending would diverge from the "make viewers feel a vague uneasiness while being entertained" motive. 

....I'm sorry I've been writing so much, I'VE BEEN SO EXHAUSTING LATELY

Yes I remember that story! Interesting how that has affected you. Would you say you're emotionally attached to it? I had a psychic tell me some of my past lives, but since I couldn't experience or 'feel' for them, I've taken those stories with a grain of salt  

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-01-30 20:18:56 +0000 UTC]

YOU'RE FIIINE
I like that there are different and unique views between us, and the way we each analyze and see things are a part of who we are, and we need difference in the world -- healthy differences XD
So yeah, i love it all!
The show is funny and addicting because that's the way it is!
Everyone takes it into their own hands differently, so no problem there


It's affected me in many ways.
I actually realized not long ago that whenever a female fox loses a mate, she will eventually find a new one.
But when male foxes lose a vixen, he will never mate again.
In my past life i lost my vixen, and now that i'm here, sometimes i wonder if this is why i don't want any romantic companions.
I HATE being in a relationship.
I have one WONDERFUL friend who i wouldn't trade for anything, and tons of other close friends (like you), but for some reason dating never works out.
I hate how i feel when i have a partner, i feel like i can't be myself, and the only thing i really wanna devote my time to is fiction, stories and my best friend.
I don't want children.
I don't want to ever have sex.
There's a lot that i think has to do with that past life.
Also, the car that killed me was blue.
Ever since i was a child, i've hated cars.
The color blue is one of my favorites, but i HATE it on vehicles passionately.
Always did.
The only time i think a car is interesting is what i play Grand Theft Auto.
There are a lot of things that i think happened in my past life that influence me today, and yeah, i am very emotionally attached to it.
And like i said, proud. ^^

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Tijopi11 In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-01-30 22:09:51 +0000 UTC]

Well, sometimes I wish we had the same views on these things...but yes, it can be a good thing as well! Especially since I'm a HUGE fan of both our headcanons and I would be horrified if either of them were lost at this point. 

Hm, that's interesting... I myself don't have any attachment to past lives (I don't know them), but I can sympathize at least in the way of trouble with relationships. This line is especially close to me: "I hate how i feel when i have a partner, i feel like i can't be myself, and the only thing i really wanna devote my time to is fiction, stories and my best friend." I've been in, er, situations that to me greatly mimicked an intimate romantic relationship and I was emotionally attached to them as such (actually I saw them as beyond romance), but these were relationships I was ONLY able to forge because they somehow surpassed that "I hate how I feel with a partner" feeling. I don't know if we're thinking of the same feeling exactly, but this goes back to our discussion about me occasionally being flakey. One thing that I know FOR SURE about myself is my relationships absolutely HAVE to be intimate, or else I'm instantly bored. There has to be a sort of spark, I have to immediately like someone, we absolutely MUST mesh well with each other or else it just isn't going to happen. In other relationships I feel stifled and stuffed up, I've had to give up potential friendships because even if we got along well enough and I liked them, I had a feeling like I wasn't being myself with them. Hopefully that makes sense...? But anyway, yes, these relationships may not have been sexual but they were certainly romantic for me, and that really comes down to how comfortable I can GIVING myself to someone. 
I find it interesting that you mention not wanting these things from a lover since, if I'm remembering correctly, you've expressed interest in it before (having a boyfriend specifically.) I may have been reading it wrong but er....gosh, this is striking some personal cords of mine   I've identified as asexual pretty much my whole life and I know I've never felt *anything* towards a guy before. I don't want children, or sex, or any of that, and it makes me wonder why not. Lately I've been questioning my sexual orientation though but er, I don't know where you stand on that topic so I try not to bring it up in unrelated environments such as DA What I'm wondering about you though, is if you actually want these things, but don't have any feelings towards it? (Sorry to analyze you here but to be more specific: you don't want a boyfriend, but perhaps, possibly due to influence by the media and such, this gives you some anxiety on the issue and it makes you wonder why you don't want these seemingly normal desires.) That doesn't really sound like you, but I'm just trying to relate what you've written here to myself. 
Another thing about that though is perhaps you simply haven't found anyone that makes you feel comfortable? Sorry to use the "maybe you haven't found the right one" cliche but it holds some truth for me, and I'm assuming you would only consider a guy. If that's the case, I don't know how many of your close friends are men, but perhaps you just haven't gotten close enough to someone who you would consider to be a potential partner? That's just a suggestion though and I'm definitely not saying you should get in a relationship if you don't want to, I'm just trying to think of reasons for that (especially since I've been considering it myself after being single all my life)
In any case, I think focusing on the people you love and the things you love to do are definitely top priority If you're happy this way, then there's really no reason to fret over it. 

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-02-04 20:05:29 +0000 UTC]

HAHA idm to talk about this out here, as long as our convos are i doubt anyone will pay attention anyway
To be honest, i secretly dated someone online here for two years.
Someone from dA too, actually, but only Kitten knew that because i just didn't want ANY attention drawn to it at all.
Not even my mom knew.
And even over the internet, i HATED being in the relationship.
He's a great guy and now the best guy friend i have EVER had, but i told myself that if he and i didn't work out, i was done.
Not out of sadness, but because i don't see a future for myself that involves a man, or kids, or anything of the like.
We broke up a few months ago actually, and like i said, he's my best guy friend now.
I don't have many guys friends (could be a male fox thing, i prefer to be surrounded by and protect females ).
But yeah, i mean i've mentioned to you that anything other than um...what i do in my "alone time" causes me pain, so much so that i want to throw up, so i don't want sex.
I don't want anything of the sort, i'm happy the way i am and want to look good and feel good for MY DAMN SELF!

The media used to influence me and make me feel bad, like i SHOULD want those things but for me, at least right now, it no longer affects me.
I'm happy for those who find love, who find what they wanted and i love to see that!
But for me?
I'm happy just like this.

Oh and i am very straight, but if i wouldn't question my ability to fall in love with a woman.
I put love before all things, so say a woman and i fell in love, and we had some sort of life together, i'm sure it was be great
BUT the likelihood is low, because i just don't want anyone.
I just want to do me. ^^

Also you're fine for trying to analyze and make comparisons, you hit the nail on the head with the media on how i USED to feel, but recently i truly have come to just accept being me, and accept my limitations
I AM SEVERELY ENJOYING THIS TALK XD
Also sorry i hid the bf thing from you, i know that's kind of a gigantic secret ;/

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Tijopi11 In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-02-04 22:11:12 +0000 UTC]

Well I mean we could bring it up on gmail if there's ever a public problemo, if you're chill with that  
That sucks that it didn't work out :/ I guess I can understand that though. I don't particularly see a future with a man or kids either, but I'm open to changing my mind on it should I magically meet a guy who I feel comfortable with (I honestly think I have some androphobia issues, though I'm not totally sure why.) You know I've framed almost ALL my relationships online though (all but one, back in third grade) so I've never had a way to relate those relationships to personal one-on-one relationships outside of the internet. So in this case I've been wondering if my previous perception of online relationships being far superior isn't something more based off of ignorance on the subject, and that relationships, PARTICULARLY romantic ones, are better off in person. I don't know if you've had a romantic relationship in person as opposed to entirely online but that might play a crucial role in how it made you feel, especially since you're obviously much more vocal and social than I am. I'm not you so I don't know, but you could always try something like that down the road when/if you feel the need

Funny that you come to this conclusion right around when I've started going in the opposite direction. I've always proudly identified myself as asexual, totally detached from romantic relationships and having absolutely no interest or pressure to do otherwise. I've always resisted 'main stream' ideas of romance forcefully and wanted to defy the cookie cutter way that you supposedly MUST date and live your life. Now I'm at an awkward stage of that journey where circumstances have changed and, I don't like to get too much into detail on this side of me, but I've often felt lacking and overall dissatisfied with myself. I'm wondered that perhaps I've looked at romance in the wrong way. I've always separated sexual affection and a friendship bond pretty well, and to this day I put all my interest into the latter, but I've begun to wonder if taking my first steps into the romantic/dating world wouldn't give me that greater sense of self and belonging that I've always looked for. I know I really need to feel needed and appreciated in order to be happy, and so far I've only been truly happy with myself when I had one person to channel all of that love and energy towards. I can identify with "I want to be surrounded by and protect females" because i know i NEED that too I NEED to protect someone, to be their main source of protection and love, to feel whole. And right now I'm in college full time so I can't even focus on this, my own happiness, at the moment, but it's something I've been incredibly fixated on as of late. I've never considered a relationship to be the answer, but now I realize cliche cheesy mainstream was probably what I should've been listening to all along (only as far as identifying relationships as important to happiness anyway.) 

THAT was a lot of rant but...yeah. That would be my perspective on what love is to me at this current stage of my life (and my perspectives are constantly in a state of change! )

Heheh and it makes me happy that you put love above all else  On that subject I've met many people who were outstanding people but happened to have some sort of vendetta against my interests, this particular topic being one of them, and that experience has taught me my own idea of 'good or bad morals' isn't a good way to distinguish a 'good or bad' person. That's something I've had a hard time trying to accept in myself, since I used to know a bunch of fella's who shared the same moral ground while I struggled to understand myself as a GOOD person when I couldn't agree with those things. I figured I must be lacking in moral character after that and I still suffer some insecurities about it. But based on that learning experience, not agreeing with that sort of thing would be fine to me, but I like to make sure a potentially controversial topic is clear  

HAHA GOOD, I was worried I'd get to personal or start asking personal questions on accident (I think I do this at times due to lack of experience with others ) so I wanna make sure we cool always   Also yeah nah don't apologize, your personal life isn't any of my business! If you feel comfortable telling me stuff then I'm honored to hear it, but I respect privacy ^.^ 

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-02-07 03:35:30 +0000 UTC]

OMG THIS WALL OF TEXT, I SKIMMED I'M SO SORRY SHIT'S BEEN BUSY AND MY DAD'S IN THE HOSPITAL, I LOVE when we have these convos, i hope you get your happiness back and can find time to focus on that!
And LOL no your questions are never too personal
IF YOU ONLY HEARD THE CONVOS ME AND KIT HAVE, GOODNESS!

Thank you
I DO LOVE TO SHARE THOUGH XD

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Tijopi11 In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-02-07 04:45:43 +0000 UTC]

LMAO I'M SORRY I'N AN OUT OF CONTROL MANIAC I just looked up at all my replies and they're just like "    " It kind of cracked me up tbh   mah bad, I hope your dad is okay though??.  

Kay good good, same I'm pretty open...too often many will say But hey, people are interesting and I think I'm pretty interesting too! 

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-02-11 18:45:02 +0000 UTC]

You are DEFINITELY interesting and i love your spams X3

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Tijopi11 In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-02-12 18:00:31 +0000 UTC]

Good, good, because there are many many spams in me XD 

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-02-13 07:39:06 +0000 UTC]

*opens wide* MY BODY IS READY...
...

My -- my mouth.
My mouth is open, just...clarifying... ;v;

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Tijopi11 In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-02-13 18:54:16 +0000 UTC]

ohmygosh. I go to such far extents to keep my mind innocent and clean and then I'm forced to read responses like that and it ruins my streak THANKS A LOT FOX.

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-02-14 06:12:34 +0000 UTC]

YOU IS WELCOME!
I was sent to this world to make the world a dirtier place >:3

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Tijopi11 In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-02-14 06:28:24 +0000 UTC]

Aye I actually like that as a sweet quote out of context >:3

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Tijopi11 [2017-02-18 04:01:57 +0000 UTC]

AHAHA XD

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ParanormalEncounter [2017-01-27 03:07:45 +0000 UTC]

Ahh, how cute!! I want one! If you ever do adopts I'd totes jump on that

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to ParanormalEncounter [2017-01-27 04:59:18 +0000 UTC]

AWW thank you!!
You can make one for yourself if you want!
Just credit me for the species name and mediciny stuff ^v^
And of course, JV for creating this alien type in the first place XD

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IcyBirdPenguin [2017-01-27 02:34:47 +0000 UTC]

It's very amazing that you decided to touch upon other alien species than irkens further in the Invader Zim Universe. ^^

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to IcyBirdPenguin [2017-01-27 02:42:38 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!
I just love to go beyond the main stuff, and Vortians are especially a HUGE focus of mine XD
I'm even designing Vortian animals and possible other stuff, like reasons as to why some Vorts have horns on the tops of their heads and why others are forward facing

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IcyBirdPenguin In reply to Fae-CaptainofDreams [2017-01-27 02:45:33 +0000 UTC]

Hehe well I hope you do more of these things. ^^

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to IcyBirdPenguin [2017-01-27 04:59:51 +0000 UTC]

ME TOO

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Fifekun [2017-01-27 02:02:54 +0000 UTC]

Interesting! Isn't he the freak-out guy in the Resisty?

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Fae-CaptainofDreams In reply to Fifekun [2017-01-27 02:42:52 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much!!
Yes!
He also apparently named the Resisty XDD

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