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Published: 2014-03-27 02:35:41 +0000 UTC; Views: 7207; Favourites: 205; Downloads: 37
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Denial. He just needs some time to recover. He will be all right. He just needs some time.Anger. You fucking clotpole! Wake the fuck up! What the hell you were thinking?! I swear to God, if you won't wake right now-!
Bargaining. Please, please just- Just wake up... Wake up and I'll never let you out of my sight again. If not for me, then for Mordred. He needs you. Please, Merlin, just one more magic trick... Please.
Depression. I cannot do this without you. I feel like I can't breath seeing you like that. I don't know what to tell him, how to explain... He's asking about you all the time and I can't-
Acceptance. I love you.
For Merlin Reverse Big Bang 2014.
First and foremost, I would like to thank the lovely Dante for choosing my art and writing a lovely story to it, which you can read here , and sharing this great experience with me. Don't worry guys, the only cruel person in the room is me, therefore the story does have a happy ending, so shoo, go and read it, if you haven't already.
I would also like to thank the chosenfire28 for running Merlin Reverse Big Bang, guidance and not loosing patience with me, when I was still figuring things out.
And lastly many thanks (and hugs and ice creams and cats) go to Diabhalta for being my art beta, co-writing stages with me and being there when I needed help the most.
The experience wouldn't be the same without any of you.
I would like to dedicate this art to every Merlin fan out there, who thought (like I did) that we need more hurt!Merlin around. We all have sick minds and I'm proud to call myself a member of this group.
Also here on tumblr: (x ) and here on AO3: (x )
EDIT: All of the links are working now!
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Comments: 56
I promised my self that I wouldn't get back into the Merlin fandom... to addictive. But, how can I do that when your beautiful art makes me want to read billions of fics until I can't stay awake anymore... Amazing artwork!
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You know? I really can't be sorry about that, I'm too selfish in my way of thinking that the more people in merlin fandom the better, as I'm so deep in it I can no longer see the light. So come, enjoy, and we shall try not to allow your escape ever again >
Also on the less creepy vibe: thanks for commenting!
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So I know that about a year ago you told me you couldn't be sorry about hooking me back on Merlin fics. Well, in all honesty I didn't get hooked. Until last week. So uh, this is kinda weird and out of the blue and I don't even really know you but do you have any suggestions for Merlin fics? I've been away for a very long time and I'm not sure where to begin anymore.
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I'm really not the one you should compliment on the story, but when it comes to art - thank you
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Wow, this is absolutely beautiful! The drawings are lifelike with an amazing likeness and so much emotion. (And I definitely agree that we can always use more hurt!Merlin [but as long as he gets better after!])
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Well.. to tell the truth I am also had of sad endings, but glad you liked it!
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This kills me both with feelings and with beauty. I am in awe.
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*resurrects* Thanks
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Absolutely gorgeous. Your work is astounding. The realism is near perfect. I can only guess how many hours you spent on even the tiniest places! Thank you so much for posting your work on this website so that us Merthur fans are able to bask in the joy and amazingness of your art!!
I love this so much. Just really great job, I don't have any words. Hahaha.
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Oh my gods, thank you so much for the lovely words! It actually took a while, but I'm happy with the results (well mostly), so I guess it was worth it.
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Fantastic!! The likenesses are spot on! I also love the bird pattern in the hospital gown - nice touch! The cold monochrome really works with Arthur's feels too.Β
*group hug from the members of the hurt!Merlin pile!*Β
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Also can I just add that I just loved your art seeing it at the claims? Need some time to read the fic already up (and literally can't wait for the next one) and probably then I will get to any commenting, but I just wanted you to know you did marvellous job there.
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Oh my god, I really don't like MerlinxArthur, but this is simply beautiful and stunning!! D:
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Wow This is really Gorgeous Freja! Well done.
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There, there. *pats the back*
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NO! NO! *Rolls away*
I had a glass of wine before I saw this beautiful work! And I was already upset that Merlin was over. HOW DARE YOU?!
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Btw, how do you draw your artwork? I mean it is so lifelike.
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Wait is that a rhetorical question? I really can never tell. In case it wasn't:
The first thing is the idea. Sound ridiculous, but it's the hardest step. You just need to see what you are going to draw in your head. What comes next for me is research: I tend to end up with ton of reference pictures. More often then not the elements you wanna use will not come from one photo so the option "cut" in photoshop ends up as your new best friend, not to mention that studying faces of your characters balances at the verge of obsession and being creepy. Me and Colin's face? We go waaaay back and we still have issues with each other. Few anatomy problems later I get line art that I'm going to fill later on.
The next part is choosing your colour scheme - I'm one of this weird people who can't make fully coloured art after drawing in back and white, so this step I need to decide what I want to end up with. Only then I start filling out the blank places, and, this part is even weirder, I mostly use basic photoshop's brushes as I still need to get my shit together and learn how to use other kinds. I like to start with the details, because only then I see any progress, so I go with the faces first (and here from eyes and mouth to nose to skin), hair and body parts next. After that I usually do clothes, things on the first plan. The background is the last. Many hours and tears later I kinda have an art. At this point, if I want them, I add textures.
You would think that's the end, but no it's not. Here I go with all kinds of adjustments with light and shadow, contrast, brightness, sometimes adding a colour like blue here. Really, all kind of stuff and not only for art as a whole but for parts of it as well (example: Arthur's shirt probably have about 4-5 different adjustments).
Of course while drawing you don't want to forget to flip horizontal your art from time to time and take breaks from looking at it. It will allow you to see the most obvious mistakes. You would think that you will get them all? Others? Probably. Me? Nope. So I keep bugging my friend to check the art at random points and she offers me a lot of advice. If you want to bug someone, it's the best to take someone not afraid to call you on your shit - the more critical the person is the better. Unfortunately you mostly learn by seeing what you do wrong, not by getting congratulated on drawing a straight line.
The process is never quick for me, so that's why I update my page so veeery often, and well, I have a small compulsion, so not making any details or leaving line art alone is kinda hard for me.
Hope that explains "how do you art" a bit
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It wasn't a rhetorical question.
wow that's a lot, but in the end it is great! Especially for fans of the show and your art.
this is one of my new favourites
Question: Why do you flip it horizontal? and how does that able you to see the mistakes?Β
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Oh, I'm glad, otherwise this would be awkward.
As for answer to you question: I honestly do not know. This is something I picked up quite early when I started learning how to draw and I think it has probably something to do with changing your perspective. I tend to do this when I get the feeling something is wrong and can't quite tell what. For e.g. I tend to lean to one side and I really don't see it before I flip the art, and then the whole picture looks quite horribly. What you want to see doing the whole 'flip horizontal' option is that your picture looks exactly the same after turning around and if it doesn't, it's easier to see why this way and change it. I think the secret is to do this until it really does not look better one way or the other.
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This is beautiful!
I love your artwork, hope to see more merthur stuff soon from you!
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Thank you. And you can count on pretty soon as my next art for Reverse Bang is due on 07.04
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ohhh, can't wait!!! 
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OMG I didn't need more Merthur feels >.< But this is really well-done.
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We are not worthy of you or your magnificenceΒ Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β This is the most heart-wrenching Merthur fanart I have ever seenΒ Β I love works like this (usually the more bloodier and hopeless the scene seems the better 
And once again just so you don't forget... AWESOME work dear!!!! 
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No, no, it is I who is not worthy of such lovely comments. You guys are truly one of the best people in the world. Yeah, me too, so that's way I have never enough of them 
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AWESOME!!! *goes and reads story* OOOH I hope you like it (plus if all things go as planned I will have my first ever attempt at digital painting uploaded on sunday 
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I'm sure I will
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I dont have words for this. This is brilliant. How can you draw something so beautiful. I'm running out of words, I would praise you forever, if only english would be my first language. This is absolutly perfect, the colours, the whole thing. its absolutly stunning like all of your works. And it makes me sad, oh so sad.
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Oh, thank you very much for commenting and lovely words, especially given that English is not your fist language, that's really kind of you. (And your English is great, not that I have any authority to say this as it's not my first language either, but it's far better then mine anyway.)
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This is so incredibly gorgeous!! Wow, just wow.
*sobs*
May I ask - is there a story to this wonderful art? You mention it above but the link doesn't go to any story
Splendid work, thank you so much for sharing!!
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The link is now working
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Thank you so much!! Will read it as soon as possible.
Awwww your artwork really is so wonderfully magnificent! I coudl stare at this for hours
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Thank you for the comment! And yes there is but something went wrong for my writer and me with agreeing upon a time, so I'm still waiting for the link to the story. As soon as I get it I will update the link and let you know, ok?
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This is really, really amazing.... *.*
Congrats!!
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Freya, your art is always wonderful. My God, this work is indescribable!
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Thank you, elyxyz, for as always the kindest of words. (I just still don't know if I deserve them, to be honest.)
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Seriously, your art is not just skill, it's pure talent! I admire you so much *_*
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Please don't make me blush! *blushes anyway*
No but really: thanks for commenting and nice words
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