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Published: 2014-09-18 14:31:29 +0000 UTC; Views: 76441; Favourites: 5827; Downloads: 0
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yesterday I traveled by bus to my bf. it's a long way, about 40min ride. I don't like it but what can I do?but yesterday, bacause of some demonstrations, my bus had to take a detour road. that's how I stocked in the traffic. my road was 30minutes longer than it used to be. the bus jerked all the way, driven 10 meters and then stop. the traffic was huge. I started to feel sick, my head nearly exploded and I felt like I could vomit my stomach and brain at the same time.
I wanted to scream. shout. yell.
I wanted to shout at all people around, at all ppl in cars, at ppl in the bus, at ppl on the street. at everyone.
without a reason. just because I was angry.
but even if inside I was so angry, outside I stayed calm and impassive.
because I knew that it's not proper to stand up and scream. even if I barely could hold my rage. it wasn't proper.
maybe it's the border between being normal or insane. when you're not acting proper people could think you're crazy. how many people in that bus holded their emotions? how many people at the street don't do what they feel because it's not proper. how many times you acted proper but you didn't felt like that?
just a random thought that came up to my head. sorry, I don't want it to sounds like a pseudo-philosophical bullshit. hope it doesn't :I (I know it does..)
idk. in fact I can't even scream. but I wish I could. scream and throw out all my rage.
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This happens to me all the time, like I just want to release all of my actual thoughts and feelings, but I just end up "acting proper".
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a very touching and beautiful picture. I love it!
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This drawing of yours reminds me of Max Caulfield from Life is Strange and how her clothing style would be if she had the mindset of both Chloe Price and Victoria Chase. Freaking in love with it.
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I have never had issues with the bus, but, I commend you for keeping all that rage in.
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I feel like that sometimes too
great pic! Very well drawn
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Tja...skΔ
d ja to znam..
I teΕΌ nie umiem krzyczeΔ...
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I don't often see furry artwork that I like. But this is absolutely stunning.
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I LOVE this, and your motivation for drawing it. I think all the time about how often we supress what we truly feel to our own detriment simply for the convenience of others
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I really like your art. I completely understand that one must do what is 'proper' and what is 'expected'. Otherwise, you break social customs. I find it all frustrating.
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Hits hard. Nicely done. I love the blankness in her stare.
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I think that's one of the hardest things to do in life: display only the socially acceptable behavior. And we're raised to perfect this near-impossible, soul-eating endeavor...Β
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This is one of the most compelling pieces I've seen in DeviantART. Β I love the juxtaposition of the relaxed, casual pose of the rider, and the roaring, shrieking reflections in the window. Β I've been there, I know what it feels like.
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There are times when I myself have to hide my emotions. In class, around my family, around my friends. It's emotionally draining and depressing. It takes away a sweet part of life. The more I find myself holding in, the sleepier I become.
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Very strong piece of artwork. Followed by a very good description. I know that feeling very well. Probably all humans do, the only difference is how often someone feels it. Let me do some pseudo-philosophical bs for a bit 
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I know what you mean about not being able to scream, but wishing you could.... ;_;
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I enjoy the form and the expression 
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this was me today
along with all of my other bad days
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i love this picture so much. I feel like it expresses everything perfectly...
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I know what you mean. I couldn't make myself scream if I tried! And society's expectations of how you should act and what is "normal"... is normal really right?
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Whatthefuk,
who gets this worked up over a bus ride? even worse still, all these emos in the comments agreeing with this.
"aww yeah man, an hour and 15 minutes in the bus that's totally a good reason to get angry and want to shout at all those people that ALSO have to sit in the bus"
It's got nothing to do with being proper it's about not being an asshole to everyone else in the bus for a really stupid reason.
what's wrong with you all?
your art is pretty decent though.
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You know, just writing this comment is being "an asshole to everyone else". You could just have gone on living your life, not bothering yourself and others with the woes of someone you don't know and obviously don't care about. And being compassionate, even for a stupid reason, is not the same as being emo.
p.s. Please don't reply, I don't want to start a hate war. -_-
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Don't tell me what to do,
you could have just not replied if you didn't want my reaction, you could have gone on living your life without having to secure your moral superiority in front of a bunch of strangers, but you didn't.
I for one think nobody should ever get this worked up about a busride and everyone who thinks that you should or that a prolonged busride is really THAT bad that you would want to scream and shout at a bunch of strangers, who have nothing to do with the situation and also have to sit longer in the bus are really stupid.
It's not about feeling compassion it's about finding trivial things to whine about (much like I'm doing right now. I'm very well aware of the irony, thank you) and feeling sorry for yourself because "you had to sit on a bus for just over an hour".in other words emo.
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Listen, I'm sorry. I really should've just shut up and gone on living my life, and IΒ understand with your point of view. So.. don't take it personally, okay? I blame myself. I was wrong. Just forget I ever said anything, I know now it's not worth it to argue with a stranger.
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It's ok man, don't feel bad.
this is the internet, people spend days here arguing with eachother over trivial things, it's just what happens. Β
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Sounds like me, everytime Im in public. Right down to the shadows of ferocious beasts wishing to tear things apart, seen only by me (figuratively speaking.)
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This piece is fantastic, and I really loved to read your thoughts on it!!
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Β I do that all the time. I almost always feel incredibly angry or scared and anxious and upset, sometimes at home I don't hold myself back though, hence broken mirrors, doors, walls, and bruises on myself. ;-;
Idk if your experience was same but ya it sucks feeling so enraged like that, especially for no reason.
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Don't be afraid to share "random thoughts" with us! We're all here for you and we won't judge you! And as usual, your work is amazing and does a good job of capturing the mood.Β
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Same feeling. But I do get frustrated, and sometimes it does get the better of me. And nothing good comes out of it in the end.
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I think most people are like. There is a standard to how we can behave. We cant always give into our more primal instincts, so while its lake placid outside. Its inner turmoil inside.
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You're not alone, this is a constant struggleΒ
So many thoughts about what is normal behavior and what is just expected in our society...Β
You're so honest with your art, which is why you fukari are my favorite artist out there.Β
Keep sharing your art and keep inspiring other artists. Β
Hope you had a good time with your boyfriend, I'm sure it was worth the painful waitΒ
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I love it, it's a good demonstration of how you were feeling. Β I'm glad self control exists cause if it didn't a lot of bad things would happen XD Β They already do but...at least not as much as there would be if were all unselfcontrolled. Β It's better to express yourself like you did-in the form of a drawing. Β Or in your room where no one can hear you. Β Or however people like to express themselves that turn their emotions into beautiful things. Thank you for sharing with us.
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I understand how you feel completely its like half the time i feel like this.Β
Beautiful piece Fukari.
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I'm not sure why, but this description you have left annoys me. Chill out it's a bus ride, it's not supposed to resemble cruise line. A 40 minute bus ride isn't really that long, sit back listen to music and relax.
The way you describe the reason for keeping your cool during this HORRIFYING ordeal is that it wouldn't be 'proper' to stand up and express your rage. It's not that it wouldn't be proper it's that it wouldn't be smart, more effort for 0 gain. It would be bitchy, annoying, and pointless for you to have done anything else but sit down and shut up and it would make the experience much worse for you and everyone else. It'd be like yelling at an approaching hurricane. Stupid. These are the situations that in which people keep their cool because there's nothing they can do, they happen every day I don't think there's anything philosophical about it.
What I'm getting at is that I don't think this scenerio you have described (being stuck in traffic and angry at the world) warrants the topic of why people act and don't act proper.
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I dont think the main reason of her anger was just the travel beeing longuer, you know. She was probably already tired and had other problems in mind, life isnt always easy and nice. Also, many other factors may influence someone's reactions when facing a situation, some people take somethings easlily while other dont and vice-versa. To be honest, i think her though was worth, maybe it doesnt explain why people act or dont act proper, i dont think it was her intention either but it expose one of our society's problems (in case you havent notice, other people feel the same or have feel the same).
Besides, i would like to add that, as you talk about "more effort for 0 gain", please try to use a better vocabulary when expressin a critic, try to be more objective and focus on facts. I mean, avoid words like "studip, horrifying, pointless, etc." They are opinion words, dont mix them with your critic. And last, i get your point, yes, it is just a ride and theres nothing we can do about it, but please, have a little more empathy, not because you never feel exasperated by some little things it means it doesnt happen to other/ its stupid and make no sense.
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