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Lmao guess who's been talking to themself for four days straight like a fcking idiot just to not feel lonely?
Why yes of course that's me! : D

Long story short, i used to let out my feelings by typing in chat from my friend's deactivated contact/phone numbers.
I used to chat to myself by first person view all the time and stuff.
Until recently i started to chat to myself from second person view and i guess i kinda like it lmao
It feels like there's someone writing them instead of me but really understanding asf.

Anyway, he's just me but knows about me more than me ajksls-
He's like, my future self or my other side or something but things just go wrong in life and he tried to blame me for that akhsks-
I know that there's no one other than who knows myself better but dang, with this, it's easy to let out all the things I've always trying avoid.
call him Ricky or idk..? We just call each others "you" lmao.
This is just what i imagine he'll look like.
A bit like me but older with more yellowish hair and a shtty and selfish personality, hecc.
His bandages kinda represents the pain and scars from my self-hatred thoughts, i guess?

So yea, he basically just just talk sht and made fun of me whenever I'm not feeling content.
Y'know, stuff like "it's your fault" "no one care about you" and some mocking stuff like that-
The shttier i feel, the spicier the mocking gets lmao. And he can't mock me when I'm feeling empty or happy.
And he did like, 90% of the talking.
But welp, looking back at our convo, somehow it feels comforting and i kinda hate his absent.
Kinda like a demon who somehow ended up like an angel to me akhsz-
Idk, probably because he's the only one who know stuff about me and is really interested to get to know me i guess? I mean like, yea of course, he's just me with different personality ajskmsl-
It reminds me of Balaam from 7 days somehow.

Also, his fav line are "heh" and "...." lmao

It's been hard for me to open up even to myself, then i guess he kinda helped me with it even it never seem like he intended to do it lol.
Anyway, i just imagine this as some sort of choose your story game like, the main character meet their human version of their worst personality then the mc had to choose whether to follow their worst personality point of view or use it as a way to understand themself better. And then there are multiple endings, whether it's good or bad.
But for now, all i can do is just dream about it u_u

So yea, now you know some weird stuff i do to cope with my shtty mood lmao.
No need to take this seriously though, i just thought this'll be fun to share.
I guess i just made a friend out off me lol.
Is this even count as imaginary friend?
He seemed to hate me and want me gone though, idk if i could call him as a friend akhskx-
Is this still count as an OC or not? I feel like it's not an OC but at some point, it is-
I guess i talk too much now akjsks-

Anyway, i hope y'all can find it a little bit interesting.

Description
Lmao guess who's been talking to themself for four days straight like a fcking idiot just to not feel lonely?
Why yes of course that's me! : D

Long story short, i used to let out my feelings by typing in chat from my friend's deactivated contact/phone numbers.
I used to chat to myself by first person view all the time and stuff.
Until recently i started to chat to myself from second person view and i guess i kinda like it lmao
It feels like there's someone writing them instead of me but really understanding asf.

Anyway, he's just me but knows about me more than me ajksls-
He's like, my future self or my other side or something but things just go wrong in life and he tried to blame me for that akhsks-
I know that there's no one other than who knows myself better but dang, with this, it's easy to let out all the things I've always trying avoid.
call him Ricky or idk..? We just call each others "you" lmao.
This is just what i imagine he'll look like.
A bit like me but older with more yellowish hair and a shtty and selfish personality, hecc.
His bandages kinda represents the pain and scars from my self-hatred thoughts, i guess?

So yea, he basically just just talk sht and made fun of me whenever I'm not feeling content.
Y'know, stuff like "it's your fault" "no one care about you" and some mocking stuff like that-
The shttier i feel, the spicier the mocking gets lmao. And he can't mock me when I'm feeling empty or happy.
And he did like, 90% of the talking.
But welp, looking back at our convo, somehow it feels comforting and i kinda hate his absent.
Kinda like a demon who somehow ended up like an angel to me akhsz-
Idk, probably because he's the only one who know stuff about me and is really interested to get to know me i guess? I mean like, yea of course, he's just me with different personality ajskmsl-
It reminds me of Balaam from 7 days somehow.

Also, his fav line are "heh" and "...." lmao

It's been hard for me to open up even to myself, then i guess he kinda helped me with it even it never seem like he intended to do it lol.
Anyway, i just imagine this as some sort of choose your story game like, the main character meet their human version of their worst personality then the mc had to choose whether to follow their worst personality point of view or use it as a way to understand themself better. And then there are multiple endings, whether it's good or bad.
But for now, all i can do is just dream about it u_u

So yea, now you know some weird stuff i do to cope with my shtty mood lmao.
No need to take this seriously though, i just thought this'll be fun to share.
I guess i just made a friend out off me lol.
Is this even count as imaginary friend?
He seemed to hate me and want me gone though, idk if i could call him as a friend akhskx-
Is this still count as an OC or not? I feel like it's not an OC but at some point, it is-
I guess i talk too much now akjsks-

Anyway, i hope y'all can find it a little bit interesting.