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JenniferCocoaFulk [2016-02-17 04:35:08 +0000 UTC]

My friend has depression. She has "friends" who tell her it's all in her head, that she's just being over-dramatic, tries to draw attention to herself, and that she just feels sorry for herself, but she's more than that. She's a human being who deserves better people to be at her side, people who appreciate her for who she is. There are few genuine people in this world, and I think that's why so many are depressed.
Because they know it.
Because they realize it... while they look around and see and feel that the rest of the world is completely oblivious. It hurts. Because people don't know how much the world has changed, and even when they do know about it, they deny it because it's outside their comfort zone or expertise to do anything about it.
Depressed people often see and feel so much, they crumble or feel very empty inside. Or they feel very empty because they felt so much at one point, got overwhelmed by it all, and shut the whole world out because they despised it.
I was once depressed, too. I was a teenager going through abuse and forced isolation for months at a time. My depression got so bad, I felt like I was going crazy at 7 months. I started to panic. I had dreams. I had a story to tell the world, but in order to save it, I had to save myself. It took me a few weeks to go through rigorous self-training, but my method was this: Force myself to empty my feelings and thoughts. When I'd cry, I'd gasp and force myself to stop crying. No thought, no emotion. I forced myself to smile. Soon, I forced myself to smile and think of what happiness feels like and fill it in, like surprise icing inside cake. I don't know how bad your depression is, but don't give up. Your art is beautiful, and, because you feel so much, so is your heart.

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