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“I know it’s hard to tell how mixed up you feel,
Hoping what you need is behind every door.
Each time you get hurt, I don’t want you to change,
‘Cause everyone has hopes – you’re human, after all.
The feeling – sometimes wishing you were someone else,
Feeling as though you never belong –
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy.
I truly understand. Please, don’t cry now.

Please don’t go, I want you to stay.
I’m begging you, please. Please, don’t leave here.
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel.
The world is just illusion, trying to change you.

Being like you are, well, this is something else.
Who would comprehend but some that do lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them?
That’s not what I believe, and it doesn’t matter anyway.
A part of your soul ties you to the next world,
Or maybe to the last, but I’m still not sure.
But what I do know is to us the world is different
As we are to the world, but I guess you would know that.

Please don’t go, I want you to stay.
I’m begging you, please. Please, don’t leave here.
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel.
The world is just illusion, trying to change you.
Please don’t go, I want you to stay.
I’m begging you, please. Oh, please, don’t leave here.
I don’t want you to change for all the hurt that you feel.
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you.”

[ Illusion – VNV Nation ]

I’d like to dedicate this photo, along with the song it’s inspired by, to someone very special and important in my life. Fun fact: this is probably the first photo in almost five or six years that this person does not see before publication, as they’re my most trustes critic and advisor and I run my photos through their eyes before submitting; but did not want to spoil whatever my motor mouth hadn’t already spoiled.

I’ve been conceptualising this photo for over a week, but didn’t get the right idea about what to do concretely until I stumbled across this editorial by Bryan Huynh called Kintsugi : I wasn’t inspired by the visuals as much as the concept of kintsugi itself – the Japanese art of repairing pottery with gilded resin to embrace the damage as part of an object’s history rather than pretend it never happened. You know, that’s just illusion, and being damaged and getting repaired does not make any of us lesser than, as hard as it is to believe when the cracks are still sharp.

That’s it, really. Oh, and I basically used up a whole golden kajal for the make up because the little sucker kept breaking as I was drawing.

Not ot be confused with Illusions , which is inspired by Theatre of Tragedy instead.

Photo, concept, editing, model, styling, grooming: GothicNarcissus Photography

Assistant: DamaInNero

Description

“I know it’s hard to tell how mixed up you feel,
Hoping what you need is behind every door.
Each time you get hurt, I don’t want you to change,
‘Cause everyone has hopes – you’re human, after all.
The feeling – sometimes wishing you were someone else,
Feeling as though you never belong –
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy.
I truly understand. Please, don’t cry now.

Please don’t go, I want you to stay.
I’m begging you, please. Please, don’t leave here.
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel.
The world is just illusion, trying to change you.

Being like you are, well, this is something else.
Who would comprehend but some that do lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them?
That’s not what I believe, and it doesn’t matter anyway.
A part of your soul ties you to the next world,
Or maybe to the last, but I’m still not sure.
But what I do know is to us the world is different
As we are to the world, but I guess you would know that.

Please don’t go, I want you to stay.
I’m begging you, please. Please, don’t leave here.
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel.
The world is just illusion, trying to change you.
Please don’t go, I want you to stay.
I’m begging you, please. Oh, please, don’t leave here.
I don’t want you to change for all the hurt that you feel.
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you.”

[ Illusion – VNV Nation ]

I’d like to dedicate this photo, along with the song it’s inspired by, to someone very special and important in my life. Fun fact: this is probably the first photo in almost five or six years that this person does not see before publication, as they’re my most trustes critic and advisor and I run my photos through their eyes before submitting; but did not want to spoil whatever my motor mouth hadn’t already spoiled.

I’ve been conceptualising this photo for over a week, but didn’t get the right idea about what to do concretely until I stumbled across this editorial by Bryan Huynh called Kintsugi : I wasn’t inspired by the visuals as much as the concept of kintsugi itself – the Japanese art of repairing pottery with gilded resin to embrace the damage as part of an object’s history rather than pretend it never happened. You know, that’s just illusion, and being damaged and getting repaired does not make any of us lesser than, as hard as it is to believe when the cracks are still sharp.

That’s it, really. Oh, and I basically used up a whole golden kajal for the make up because the little sucker kept breaking as I was drawing.

Not ot be confused with Illusions , which is inspired by Theatre of Tragedy instead.

Photo, concept, editing, model, styling, grooming: GothicNarcissus Photography

Assistant: DamaInNero