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Sleep is like a much-needed medicine
One I just can’t keep down
Never becoming well
Never becoming well-rested

I don’t sleep at night
I’m kept up by my anxious mind
And I’m drawn to the water
And to the night sky

Jasmine and wisteria
You can only smell them at this time
Under Pleiades
In a bright clear night

And I pace
Thinking
And speaking to myself
Sometimes I can’t make it stop.

And the moon
Shimmers… glitters
Whispers
Across the surface of the pool

It speaks
And it plants seeds
Of evil.
Evil things.

And sometimes
I’m drawn to stare
It’s drawing me
Drawing

And I feel myself falling
Falling face first
Into the broken-up moon
All over the pool

And I slowly begin sinking
Letting air out of my lungs
Like thoughts before sleep
I can never stop thinking…

I curl my fingers around the drain
And hold my breath
Until I just can’t
And then I inhale

My thoughts sometimes
Tell me I can breathe under water
That the water will help
To make the thoughts stop

But my lungs disagree
I choke and choke
And I panic
But I refuse to let go

But this time
My body’s will to survive
Is greater than my mind’s
My mind’s malignant control…

And my body breaks free
And I force myself to swim.
I cough and cough
All the way to the top

I wipe my eyes
As I empty my lungs
And she is angry
And the screaming begins

I change my clothes
And lie back down in bed
Still choking
And I try to sleep again

And she is so angry
And she screams
The thoughts never end…
I am my own worst enemy.

Description
Sleep is like a much-needed medicine
One I just can’t keep down
Never becoming well
Never becoming well-rested

I don’t sleep at night
I’m kept up by my anxious mind
And I’m drawn to the water
And to the night sky

Jasmine and wisteria
You can only smell them at this time
Under Pleiades
In a bright clear night

And I pace
Thinking
And speaking to myself
Sometimes I can’t make it stop.

And the moon
Shimmers… glitters
Whispers
Across the surface of the pool

It speaks
And it plants seeds
Of evil.
Evil things.

And sometimes
I’m drawn to stare
It’s drawing me
Drawing

And I feel myself falling
Falling face first
Into the broken-up moon
All over the pool

And I slowly begin sinking
Letting air out of my lungs
Like thoughts before sleep
I can never stop thinking…

I curl my fingers around the drain
And hold my breath
Until I just can’t
And then I inhale

My thoughts sometimes
Tell me I can breathe under water
That the water will help
To make the thoughts stop

But my lungs disagree
I choke and choke
And I panic
But I refuse to let go

But this time
My body’s will to survive
Is greater than my mind’s
My mind’s malignant control…

And my body breaks free
And I force myself to swim.
I cough and cough
All the way to the top

I wipe my eyes
As I empty my lungs
And she is angry
And the screaming begins

I change my clothes
And lie back down in bed
Still choking
And I try to sleep again

And she is so angry
And she screams
The thoughts never end…
I am my own worst enemy.