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new panic reference, cause i was annoyed with using a lineart, haha. but nothing's changed. c:

appearance. when you first see panic, you'll definitely view her as a delicate, fragile figure. she's a medium-sized wolf, though small for her breed, but she's very thin and lithe. she's very graceful and lightweight, making her very silent and fast. her fur can be nearly see-through sometimes, and if you look closely enough you can see her thin frame of ribs poking out from her stomach. she has long, thin legs and delicate, feminine paws, but she only stands at 18 inches tall, and weighs about 30 pounds. her paw-pads are soft and pink, used to softer terrain rather than rocks and rougher territories. she's smaller than most wolves because she was the runt of the litter, born small and weak... and with only three legs. she's used to it, though, and gets around just fine - in fact, she was the fastest of her siblings, even if they were much stronger than her. she was clearly built for speed and agility rather than strength - which is definitely a good thing, since she's constantly running and hiding.

as you peer closer, it's easy to notice her striking white fur. panic is a very rare breed of wolf - she's albino, making her pure white with red eyes. her fur is long and straggly, but not very thick, and shorter in the summer. her tail is an especially noticeable feature, because it is very unusual for wolves - it is short and bobbed, a cute little thing, like that of a soft white rabbit. in many ways, she's quite like a rabbit - many rabbits are white furred, red eyed creatures... she tends to avoid them, as they remind her constantly of what she is, and what happened because of it. her tail is a constant reminder of her past, because it's not a natural thing - it was ripped in half as a cruel punishment. beneath her beautiful, elegant white fur... lies her secrets, her past. scars slash all across her body, leaving her permanent reminders of her history. only a few of them are easy to see, mostly those marking her pretty face, but they still sting now and then. all have different tales behind them, waiting to be revealed.

the very details of her face are very... interesting, to put it simply. the most striking thing about her in the first place, of course, are her ruby red eyes. her eyes are almond-shaped but often wide with fright - a common thing for her. they are blood red in colour, with no eye-whites whatsoever - filled with broken blood vessels, making her eyes pure crimson other than her pupils, black as night. her gaze surely is a haunting one for most - certainly not something you'll easily forget. across her left eye is her most noticed scar; a laceration that cuts across her eyelid, making her very lucky her eye was closed when it was given to her. her short, thin muzzle also has a scar to reveal; slashing across it are three exact claw marks from a single paw-swipe, dead center across her muzzle. in front of the scars is her black nose, and lolling from her mouth on hot summer days is a light pink tongue, the same soft colour as her paw pads. her ears are small, soft and triangular in shape - white in colour, of course. the only colour on her is white... black... and a bloody scarlet.

personality. panic's name definitely speaks the truth - she is bound to be the most skittish wolf out there. she is easily spooked and will jump at every little thing. she's like a rabbit - they don't fight much, and their first option is to run. panic is extremely sensitive and takes almost everything to heart, even if she knows you're joking around. she's self-conscious and very modest, something you'll notice before you ever even speak to her. she definitely doesn't hold herself like a queen and doesn't act like one, either. this girl is very paranoid and is very cautious with everything she does. she never takes any risks or chances, and it's rare you'll see her doing something of the sort.

despite the fact she grew up around violence, panic is one of the sweetest wolves you will ever meet. she is very peaceful - though not particularly calm - and hates fighting in any way. she knows that she is weak, and for this and many other reasons she hates to get into fights. she loves helping others and always tries to keep the peace. when another wolf is being wronged, she feels terrible for them, and yet she will not speak out for them. she doesn't speak for herself or for others out of pure fear - she doesn't want to end up being the one getting hurt, so she will stay absolutely silent. she's a coward in this way and even if she likes to help others as much as she can, she will not step out and speak for them because she is too afraid to end up in their position. she is very loyal and trustworthy, however, until it comes down to these kind of situations. if she sees even her best friend getting killed - she will not do anything about it. usually she would simply flee from the scene, not wanting to get hurt herself. she always feels terrible about it, self-loathing herself for not helping them out, but every time her instincts take over and she won't stand and fight for them. she won't fight for what she believes in, either, and will pretty much just follow what everyone else is doing rather than doing what she thinks is right.

panic is very submissive and obedient, and she knows that she'll never, ever be a leader of any sort. the only reason she is like this is because she is afraid that if she doesn't do what others say, they'll hurt her. she's obviously a pessimist and never thinks very highly of herself - she treats herself like the lowliest of the low, and she's full of self-loathing and hatred despite her peaceful, kind attitude. she can't handle pressure and doesn't like to be put under a lot of stress - it will really freak her out. she hates to be in big crowds and will really panic if she's being ganged up on. she tends to stay away from others in general, though she doesn't mind having friends. however, she won't trust even the closest of friends because she can't depend on anyone - even herself. she doesn't believe in second chances and once someone has lost the little trust she gives others, that's it. she truly believes in first impressions and if you don't make a good one, she'll stay away from you to whatever extent she can.

panic is such a hypocrite, it's not even funny. she constantly seems to know what to do in any situations, yet she can never bring herself to follow her own advice. if she wasn't so afraid to do things, she would be a very wise, smart wolf. she is very clever and can almost always find a way around tricky situations. she is definitely the go-to girl if you want advice, or simply someone to talk to. she is usually pretty understanding - or at least tries to be - unless she gets pissed at you. she is the champion at holding grudges, so don't ever make her mad, or you'll probably never talk to her again. she doesn't get into fights when she's angry - instead, she'll leave the scene and avoid you from then on rather than causing more drama.

after all that she has been through she can hardly say she believes in love. panic does really believe in it deep down, and like any other girl her age she wishes that she could fall in love, and have some fairy tale life together. but she has already accepted that love hurts, and usually, guys aren't out there for the mushy lovey doveyness or the trust. she's been used and abused too many times, so she isn't depending on ever falling in love. she knows she can handle herself on her own and doesn't need someone else to be there with her. however, the loneliness does bother her sometimes, and it's upsetting to see other cute couples together. she is very easily jealous, and yet when she sees a couple, she feels bad for the female, thinking that all males are terrible and cruel. but in all honesty she is scared to face reality that not all wolves are sick and mean, and afraid to fall in love with someone because she's insecure that anyone would ever love her. besides, she wouldn't know if she could even trust them or not, and what kind of relationship could she end up in if the two couldn't trust each other?

history. in every situation, there is always a bystander. someone who watches and waits, but does nothing.

panic was one of those.

she was born into a litter of five, the youngest, the smallest, and the weakest of them all. to add to it, she was albino, an oddity that everyone looked down on her for. panic never really knew her parents or many of her siblings. she and her sister, rave, were given over to a friend of his father's family. his friend was named joey, and to everyone, he was the guy to look up on. while his actions and ways of dealing with things have never been the kindest, he was one of the most respected wolves that the family knew of. but most respected him out of sheer fear. he was absolutely cruel and brutal, terrible to anyone that looked at him the wrong way. he got all of the females he wanted, and could get everyone to do anything he wanted for him. fuck, they would kill for his respect, and in many instances they had. the pack was like some kind of screwed up family - while they weren't all related, they were all very close, all very tightly knit together. secrets never existed, and everyone knew about everything going on.

for the longest time, panic was perfectly okay with all of this. she grew up with it, and so it became so perfectly normal to her that it didn't really cross her mind how cruel they were to other wolves - it was just the way things were around there, and she came to accept it. as she grew to be one year old, she was quickly exposed to things that she definitely should not have. joey played around with her mind and her heart, forcing her into things that she winces upon memory. but she loved him, as did everyone else around her - she longed for his acceptance and his touch as much as anyone else around her. to him she seemed special - she wasn't forced to participate in many of the murders or torture sessions that rave and the other girls were. all she did was watched... watch in horror as they did such terrible things to these wolves. their reasons behind these murders were nothing more than something simple, seemingly insignificant to another - a rude comment, a glare. that was all it took to get on joey's bad side, and that's it. with him there are no second chances, no do-overs and no "little mistakes". he would not tolerate liars or secrets, and rumours weren't had to figure out who had started them. even though the pack was so close together, they would all abandon each other out of fear that they'd get in trouble with joey - so if you did something wrong and joey came looking for you, your so called friends would become the tattletales.

and there is nothing worse than getting tattled on.

but she couldn't stand their sickened minds after all of this. soon she started coming with them on more of their murder outings, and while she watched in utter fear, she knew in her heart that this couldn't be right. she could see the blood lust in their eyes, and it was horrid, the things they did to innocent wolves. they found it fun, killed slowly and dauntingly... amusing themselves with the blood that spewed over them, with the shrieks that filled their ears. but one night, they went too far. a wolf with four young pups and a litter on the way was killed. they ripped her to shreds and tore the small, unborn puppies from her womb - laughing and joking all the while. the pups were killed, mercilessly... the looks in their eyes were more than she could bare. and she was through with it, she really was.

the next few days, she planned her escape. her escape from... everything. from joey, from rave. from all of her so called "friends and family" that she'd been forced to live with since she'd been born. back then she'd been so sweet, so innocent - now her heart is lashed with fear every time she crosses paths with someone. she was finally able to run away at just the right time, and she hasn't been caught... so far. but her worst fear is to meet face to face with joey again - she'd be killed in the worst of ways.

hehee if you read all of that, kudos to you c:
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Description
new panic reference, cause i was annoyed with using a lineart, haha. but nothing's changed. c:

appearance. when you first see panic, you'll definitely view her as a delicate, fragile figure. she's a medium-sized wolf, though small for her breed, but she's very thin and lithe. she's very graceful and lightweight, making her very silent and fast. her fur can be nearly see-through sometimes, and if you look closely enough you can see her thin frame of ribs poking out from her stomach. she has long, thin legs and delicate, feminine paws, but she only stands at 18 inches tall, and weighs about 30 pounds. her paw-pads are soft and pink, used to softer terrain rather than rocks and rougher territories. she's smaller than most wolves because she was the runt of the litter, born small and weak... and with only three legs. she's used to it, though, and gets around just fine - in fact, she was the fastest of her siblings, even if they were much stronger than her. she was clearly built for speed and agility rather than strength - which is definitely a good thing, since she's constantly running and hiding.

as you peer closer, it's easy to notice her striking white fur. panic is a very rare breed of wolf - she's albino, making her pure white with red eyes. her fur is long and straggly, but not very thick, and shorter in the summer. her tail is an especially noticeable feature, because it is very unusual for wolves - it is short and bobbed, a cute little thing, like that of a soft white rabbit. in many ways, she's quite like a rabbit - many rabbits are white furred, red eyed creatures... she tends to avoid them, as they remind her constantly of what she is, and what happened because of it. her tail is a constant reminder of her past, because it's not a natural thing - it was ripped in half as a cruel punishment. beneath her beautiful, elegant white fur... lies her secrets, her past. scars slash all across her body, leaving her permanent reminders of her history. only a few of them are easy to see, mostly those marking her pretty face, but they still sting now and then. all have different tales behind them, waiting to be revealed.

the very details of her face are very... interesting, to put it simply. the most striking thing about her in the first place, of course, are her ruby red eyes. her eyes are almond-shaped but often wide with fright - a common thing for her. they are blood red in colour, with no eye-whites whatsoever - filled with broken blood vessels, making her eyes pure crimson other than her pupils, black as night. her gaze surely is a haunting one for most - certainly not something you'll easily forget. across her left eye is her most noticed scar; a laceration that cuts across her eyelid, making her very lucky her eye was closed when it was given to her. her short, thin muzzle also has a scar to reveal; slashing across it are three exact claw marks from a single paw-swipe, dead center across her muzzle. in front of the scars is her black nose, and lolling from her mouth on hot summer days is a light pink tongue, the same soft colour as her paw pads. her ears are small, soft and triangular in shape - white in colour, of course. the only colour on her is white... black... and a bloody scarlet.

personality. panic's name definitely speaks the truth - she is bound to be the most skittish wolf out there. she is easily spooked and will jump at every little thing. she's like a rabbit - they don't fight much, and their first option is to run. panic is extremely sensitive and takes almost everything to heart, even if she knows you're joking around. she's self-conscious and very modest, something you'll notice before you ever even speak to her. she definitely doesn't hold herself like a queen and doesn't act like one, either. this girl is very paranoid and is very cautious with everything she does. she never takes any risks or chances, and it's rare you'll see her doing something of the sort.

despite the fact she grew up around violence, panic is one of the sweetest wolves you will ever meet. she is very peaceful - though not particularly calm - and hates fighting in any way. she knows that she is weak, and for this and many other reasons she hates to get into fights. she loves helping others and always tries to keep the peace. when another wolf is being wronged, she feels terrible for them, and yet she will not speak out for them. she doesn't speak for herself or for others out of pure fear - she doesn't want to end up being the one getting hurt, so she will stay absolutely silent. she's a coward in this way and even if she likes to help others as much as she can, she will not step out and speak for them because she is too afraid to end up in their position. she is very loyal and trustworthy, however, until it comes down to these kind of situations. if she sees even her best friend getting killed - she will not do anything about it. usually she would simply flee from the scene, not wanting to get hurt herself. she always feels terrible about it, self-loathing herself for not helping them out, but every time her instincts take over and she won't stand and fight for them. she won't fight for what she believes in, either, and will pretty much just follow what everyone else is doing rather than doing what she thinks is right.

panic is very submissive and obedient, and she knows that she'll never, ever be a leader of any sort. the only reason she is like this is because she is afraid that if she doesn't do what others say, they'll hurt her. she's obviously a pessimist and never thinks very highly of herself - she treats herself like the lowliest of the low, and she's full of self-loathing and hatred despite her peaceful, kind attitude. she can't handle pressure and doesn't like to be put under a lot of stress - it will really freak her out. she hates to be in big crowds and will really panic if she's being ganged up on. she tends to stay away from others in general, though she doesn't mind having friends. however, she won't trust even the closest of friends because she can't depend on anyone - even herself. she doesn't believe in second chances and once someone has lost the little trust she gives others, that's it. she truly believes in first impressions and if you don't make a good one, she'll stay away from you to whatever extent she can.

panic is such a hypocrite, it's not even funny. she constantly seems to know what to do in any situations, yet she can never bring herself to follow her own advice. if she wasn't so afraid to do things, she would be a very wise, smart wolf. she is very clever and can almost always find a way around tricky situations. she is definitely the go-to girl if you want advice, or simply someone to talk to. she is usually pretty understanding - or at least tries to be - unless she gets pissed at you. she is the champion at holding grudges, so don't ever make her mad, or you'll probably never talk to her again. she doesn't get into fights when she's angry - instead, she'll leave the scene and avoid you from then on rather than causing more drama.

after all that she has been through she can hardly say she believes in love. panic does really believe in it deep down, and like any other girl her age she wishes that she could fall in love, and have some fairy tale life together. but she has already accepted that love hurts, and usually, guys aren't out there for the mushy lovey doveyness or the trust. she's been used and abused too many times, so she isn't depending on ever falling in love. she knows she can handle herself on her own and doesn't need someone else to be there with her. however, the loneliness does bother her sometimes, and it's upsetting to see other cute couples together. she is very easily jealous, and yet when she sees a couple, she feels bad for the female, thinking that all males are terrible and cruel. but in all honesty she is scared to face reality that not all wolves are sick and mean, and afraid to fall in love with someone because she's insecure that anyone would ever love her. besides, she wouldn't know if she could even trust them or not, and what kind of relationship could she end up in if the two couldn't trust each other?

history. in every situation, there is always a bystander. someone who watches and waits, but does nothing.

panic was one of those.

she was born into a litter of five, the youngest, the smallest, and the weakest of them all. to add to it, she was albino, an oddity that everyone looked down on her for. panic never really knew her parents or many of her siblings. she and her sister, rave, were given over to a friend of his father's family. his friend was named joey, and to everyone, he was the guy to look up on. while his actions and ways of dealing with things have never been the kindest, he was one of the most respected wolves that the family knew of. but most respected him out of sheer fear. he was absolutely cruel and brutal, terrible to anyone that looked at him the wrong way. he got all of the females he wanted, and could get everyone to do anything he wanted for him. fuck, they would kill for his respect, and in many instances they had. the pack was like some kind of screwed up family - while they weren't all related, they were all very close, all very tightly knit together. secrets never existed, and everyone knew about everything going on.

for the longest time, panic was perfectly okay with all of this. she grew up with it, and so it became so perfectly normal to her that it didn't really cross her mind how cruel they were to other wolves - it was just the way things were around there, and she came to accept it. as she grew to be one year old, she was quickly exposed to things that she definitely should not have. joey played around with her mind and her heart, forcing her into things that she winces upon memory. but she loved him, as did everyone else around her - she longed for his acceptance and his touch as much as anyone else around her. to him she seemed special - she wasn't forced to participate in many of the murders or torture sessions that rave and the other girls were. all she did was watched... watch in horror as they did such terrible things to these wolves. their reasons behind these murders were nothing more than something simple, seemingly insignificant to another - a rude comment, a glare. that was all it took to get on joey's bad side, and that's it. with him there are no second chances, no do-overs and no "little mistakes". he would not tolerate liars or secrets, and rumours weren't had to figure out who had started them. even though the pack was so close together, they would all abandon each other out of fear that they'd get in trouble with joey - so if you did something wrong and joey came looking for you, your so called friends would become the tattletales.

and there is nothing worse than getting tattled on.

but she couldn't stand their sickened minds after all of this. soon she started coming with them on more of their murder outings, and while she watched in utter fear, she knew in her heart that this couldn't be right. she could see the blood lust in their eyes, and it was horrid, the things they did to innocent wolves. they found it fun, killed slowly and dauntingly... amusing themselves with the blood that spewed over them, with the shrieks that filled their ears. but one night, they went too far. a wolf with four young pups and a litter on the way was killed. they ripped her to shreds and tore the small, unborn puppies from her womb - laughing and joking all the while. the pups were killed, mercilessly... the looks in their eyes were more than she could bare. and she was through with it, she really was.

the next few days, she planned her escape. her escape from... everything. from joey, from rave. from all of her so called "friends and family" that she'd been forced to live with since she'd been born. back then she'd been so sweet, so innocent - now her heart is lashed with fear every time she crosses paths with someone. she was finally able to run away at just the right time, and she hasn't been caught... so far. but her worst fear is to meet face to face with joey again - she'd be killed in the worst of ways.

hehee if you read all of that, kudos to you c:
iliketowritehugelongbioskthnx

everything (character, art, bio info, etc.) (c) me
DO NOT STEAL!