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Published: 2019-06-26 16:40:06 +0000 UTC; Views: 12143; Favourites: 176; Downloads: 7
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This page was admittedly difficult for me to do. I believe I've mentioned in the past that City of Trees acts as a sort of therapy for me, where I try to explore my own issues. And this has become an increasingly common thing: Something in my brain just switches. Could be something big, or could be something mundane. Either way, all of a sudden bad thoughts start to overwhelm. They don't stop. Hyperventilating and the desire to just run start up.
I don't say this to seek pity, because honestly if there's one thing that angers me it's pity. If anyone tells me in the comments, "I'm here for you, you can message me any time!" then I am going to get angry. XD; But more just want to say, if you struggle with these sorts of issues, get help. Go to a therapist. Something. And also, as this comic starts to get a bit deeper into this sort of stuff, to keep in mind this is all being written from the perspective of someone who is in the process of fighting with these sorts of issues. It is an active battle and I have, unfortunately, not gone and gotten help yet (I'm a hypocrite, I know). So please keep that in mind. This comic is me trying to work through my issues and is my stress reliever.
That said, still trying to make an at least semi-good story and I definitely don't want to unintentionally spread any bad messages. So if you notice something weird or off, please say something.
And with all that out of the way, have some cute shipping art to lighten the mood!
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I love how during Sanatani's mental break the draw looks ''''''worse'''' (it doesn't look like that) Like the own comic is suffering that anxiety. Love that art decision
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I really do love the way you do the panels when Sanatani is struggling.
She's running away from her messing family to the only friend and person she can count on to care and be a comfort. I can relate to that. There were many times I've wanted to run from certain parts of my family. To just get away. I really do like you are using this comic to explore your own feelings, but also in a way that is a story. Makes me want to try my hand making a comic to explore some of my own emotions.
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I'm new to the Story! Is there a family tree of the dholes somewhere? I alway get confused who is child of who
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There is no family tree as there are only four dholes you need to worry about. All the background dholes may have relations to one another but they're irrelevant and really just there to take up space. 
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Oh thank you! I didn't notice that picture!
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can we make a petition where the tiger is a decent person and she adopts Sanatani?
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After Reding your comic almost from the first page until th e Current one I am commenting on: Max I ask you one question? Could it be that Sanatani is a representation of yourself in the story universe of your comic? Maybe I am wrong? I am just guessing that from what you said in the description that you have written under this page. I am currently very excited about your story maybe ist's because myself is currently on an inner journey too. I can encourage you go do what seems to cheer you up the most and I guess from your description that this is your desire to draw. Go with that!! Just a message from a like minded fan oder your comic living in germany. I guess my english is'nt very bad for someone who is not a native speaker. Have a nice night and sleep well Sanjanalindica. Sonnenkatze346
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In some ways she is? Each of my characters I tend to put a small piece of myself in them, and Sanatani happened to get saddled with a part that I'm struggling with a lot lately. That just being the bad self talk paired with the panic attacks. But each of the characters are meant to manifest a certain part of me. I'd go into detail about what each character is representing but that'd be spoilery. XD
But naw, none of the characters are meant to actually represent me as a whole. That would be uncomfortable for me on many levels. XD
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Going to get help saved my life. My only regret is putting it off for so long. I was way too proud/stubborn to admit I had a problem, couldn't talk about it to anyone. I kept convincing myself that it would be easier/quicker to figure it out on my own in secret. Which definitely did not even remotely happen.
Nothing got better until I found a therapist I could cry in front of, as I'm not someone that can cry in public. It was super weird to acknowledge that, and very difficult. But it helped me out of my bad thought spiral.
I wish for the best for you. And I've been through enough appointments and classes that I definitely feel comfortable letting you know if I spot any bad messages within the story.
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I wholly agree with you that, even if it is hard, getting help from a professional therapist is the best way to go about things when you struggle. Unfortunately many seem to assume that it's fine to simply go to friends, but friends are typically no certified professional therapists and can only do so much for a person. While personally I have not had these struggles (in that regard I got very lucky), I have many close friends who suffer from serious depression and/or anxiety and I tell them often; "I'm here, I'm going to offer you solace, but I can only do so much for you as a friend. If you truly need the help you seek, go to a therapist, they're going to be able to provide that to you."
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ive got tears its the feels need a medic and poor sanatani adi go to her rescue like a good friend
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Many people can relate to Sanatani's situation here, and it can help to provide therapy for yourself through art, amongst other things. In general of course. I know getting creative helps me.
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Whatever works for you! In all honesty-I have to say I admire those who create art to relieve pain. I’m finding the story interesting so far too!
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Aww. Tomorrow is my B-day. I wanted this page for June 27.
But this could be an early b-day present.
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*Comes out of bushes*
WELL HAI THERE FREN MY BIRTHDAy Is ToMorrOw As WeLL XD
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Looks like Sanatani has some serious self-esteem issues going on. I can't relate at all, so this is hard for me to understand because if I were in her place Ashoka's words wouldn't have gotten to me half as much; in fact, I'd figure HE was the one with the problem for failing to understand that our species needed to eat meat in order to survive and just complaining rather than offering ideas. But everyone's different.
Have to say, I wonder what's going to happen now. I have the feeling she is going to capture Adi's attention and he is going to come talk to her ( or try to ) even if she might just want to be alone.
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I'm similar, the thoughts of inferiority and uselessness are sometimes suffocating when I'm alone, and I often draw out my issues when it gets bad. I But I'm glad I have my best friends to help me back up when I'm down
But man she's gonna spook the heck out of all the chital if she just runs in like that
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ooooooo poor little dhole (i keep forgetting how to spell her name, sorry)
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Sa na ta ni sanatani
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I honestly love how you took a more sketchy approach to when our favorite dhole was running as it gives the image of "unstable" with her current mindset.
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Thank you for adding my art in the description, I hope you're going to get tye help you need.
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Ugh, this page hit hard. I've experienced that anxiety before and the urge to just run away from everything, and those ugly thoughts that can come with such stress. Poor Tani OTL
I think you're awfully brave for exploring this kind of issue so directly in your comic. Thanks for sharing this story with us in spite of the difficult themes ;o;
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Sounds like you are struggling with anxiety and possibly a form of depression! Please do not ignore it or try to suppress it. <3 Sendijng positive vibes your way!
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I'm hyped for the next page omg ;v;
Btw, I'm glad this is helping you and all, I send all the support possible ^^!!
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I think its also great how chaotic the coloring is in the first few panels. it really brings the emotions home in such a subtle way.
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You illustrate these inner demons so well. Like, too well xD Gets a tear from me each time, which isn't a bad thing. Getting help is good advice. Love your comics.
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