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Kaoyote — I want to CUT NOW
Published: 2012-02-13 18:04:50 +0000 UTC; Views: 1056; Favourites: 20; Downloads: 13
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I want to cut so badly right now.I long for that fiery energy that fuels my cutting.
I want to feel the blade rip open my skin.
I want to hear the blade as it slices open my arm.
I want to see the red blood drip down my arm.
I want to see that scarlet liquid soak into my clothes.
I want to feel the cool air as it caresses my blood soaked skin.
I need it to cool my inner fires.
I need my blood and pain to put out the painful coals inside.
I need it.
I want it.
Let me have it.
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hang in there...I know how you feel..i'm edgy and angry and depressed...I just want to FEEL.
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This is beautifully accurate... if that makes any sense. The urge is overpowering when it comes around... but eventually the urge will subside. Stay strong and maybe a few weeks will turn into months, then to years without the urge to cut.
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To be honest It's been 5 months since I last cut, I definitely can't say it's easy. The urges are still there for me but I try to find a way to occupy myself and take my mind off it. Just like how you voiced you want to cut through a poem like this, continue, trust me It helps.
Stay strong And hold on
I know you can carry on
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Thanks. Writing poetry definitely helps, especially if I try to put my exact feelings into words.
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You're welcome 
If you ever need to talk or vent, my inbox is always open
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Thanks, I'll keep that in mind.
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I feel I have to say this right now, so I will. I have gone more than a year without cutting. And I have found other ways to let everything out of me. Like, art and singing, for example. You shouldn't have to have that longing for it, because it's not a natural thing for a human to be doing to itself. I understand completely how you feel, because I felt the same for more than FIVE years of my life. But, I still found a way to control those urges, and let out my emotion in other ways than harming myself. And it hurts to see other people going through what I went through, and I just feel it's necessary to explain this to them whenever I come across someone like us. TRY and find other things that make you feel ALIVE, and more importantly, HAPPY.
On another note, this poem is very well written.
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Thanks a lot for your support.
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ANYtime! I'm always glad to support people
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wow this is deep but i actually like this nice imagery the narrative voice is very personal which adds to the effectivness good job
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its okay
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I feel the same. It will be a week tomorrow without cutting for me.
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