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Description To all of my deviantART buddies....

Merry Christmas! I hope you all got what you wanted, and had a great holiday... Gawd, that was cheesy as hell, wasn't it? Whatever, I just wanted to give you all this because you guys mean SO much to me. Like you have no idea. You guys make me feel wanted, loved, and cared about. (This is where it kind of get emotinal and sad.)

About 5 or 6 months ago, (In... March I think?) I tried to commit suicide. I was so depressed and just emotinally dranied. I had no hope at all, and nothing to live for. My family didn't matter, I had no friends that cared, and no one wanted to be around me. I was too negative and lashed out. I was shutting people out who have always been there for me. I belived that I was worthless, and all I was to my parents was another mouth to feed and body to clothe. They acted as if I was no one to them, and my feelings didn't matter. Have you ever felt like that? Like no one cared, and you were all alone? I felt like that EVERY DAY, because I didn't have any true friends.
I cryed every night, cried myself to sleep, telling God, "Please, please, let it end... I don't want to hurt anymore..." I wanted to die. I really wanted to die. So, I posted on Facebook (I fucking hate Facebook) that I really didn't care. That I was over it and through with no one listening. I told eveyone goodbye.
Suddenly, everyone was telling me "No! No! Don't do it! I love you and blah blah blah~" I said, "Why the fuck didn't you say this a little earlier? It's too late." So, I sat, in my bathroom, hunched over the sink, tears streaming down my face, 4 bottles of pills beside me. I held in my hand 5 anti-anxiety, about 15 anti-depressants, 12 Tylenol, and 5 ADHD meds. I knew this would kill me. I knew if I took it, I would die tomarrow. So, I checked my newsfeed one last time, and my "best friend" commented, saying, "She's a fucking liar. She's not going to do it." At that instast, I felt a surging anger towards the world. I hate you all. Nobody cares. I don't deserve to live. And, I swallowed every last one of those pills.
The cops showed up about 10 minutes later. I told my sister, "Please tell everyone I love them," And the police took me to a mental hospital. I had told the police I hadn't took anything, that I was PLANNING on doing it, and didn't actually do anything yet. So, as I lay in the white room, my eyes firm on the celing, the air vents started moving... They were drifting away from their spots on the wall, flying to heaven knows where. I stayed up all night, glaring at the wall, waiting for the pills affects to take me. Before I fell asleep, I cried again. I didn't want to wake up tomarrow.

And I did. I was supposed to die, but I woke up. But I couldn't stand. I staggered over to a seat, blue light circling around me. The world was literally a blur, and I couldn't focus on anything with out hurting my eyes. My stomach felt like I had just got punched, and my head felt like it was going to explode. I felt like dying. I was so shocked when I woke up, and I literally said, "WHY AM I NOT DEAD?!" And I freaked out. After I had to travel to the cafateria and back, I purged. I barley made it to the trashcan. The staff was shocked and helped me into the other room. The took my heart rate, which was about 140 beats per minute, when it was only supposed to be 60 or 70. That was because of the ADHD medicine, apparently.
They let me sit in the lounge area the rest of the day, and I don't really remember the rest.

Well, after 3 months of staying in the same room, all day, everyday, they let me go, convinced I was better. I was conviced as well...
But, I still had no friends, and felt like dying every day. Then, I started getting on dA. I was like, "What else better is there to do?" And so, that's how my art started. It says on my deviantART page that I've been a member for a year, but really, I've only been a member several months. Some people are amazed how fast I'm progressing, and I think it's because I have so many awesome influences, you guys.

You guys gave me something to live for. It may sound silly, but it's true. Lately I've been very depressed and wanting to give up... But I think about you guys. What would I tell you? How could I leave you like that? And I also live for my job, and my customers. I'm self-employed, and it's pretty much a part time job, very flexable. (I'm only 14, guys. My family never really had a lot of money, so I try and help out a little.) That probably exlpains why I'm not on a lot, huh? ^^' No, the reason I'm not on a lot is because I live in two diffrent households, my moms and my dads. My dad dosen't have internet, can't scan stuff, but GIMP works. At my mom's house I can get on the internet, scan, ect... But GIMP doesn't work. So, I'm screwed either way. Plus my mom dosen't really let me get on, anyways.

And I've been doing really bad in school, and my mom and dad are going to take those two things away! My job, and you guys... I really don't know what I'm going to do...


Also! I'm sorry the lines are kind of shakey-looking, but my mouse wasn't moving quite right, and it kept getting stuck to something that jutted up on the wood. Heheh... Hopefully, I'll be getting a tablet for christmas so I don't have to USE the stupid mouse. The art might be weird-looking afterwards, just cuz I'm getting used to it, but yeah. (If I even get one...)

And maybe even a better art program then GIMP. ;-;

So! Here are the individual notes...
Note: All of the chars are in lion form! So they will NOT have the original design... I just kind of made up a bunch of stuff and stuck them on there.

Ex: If they are a cheetah, then they wont have spots: but there will be the base design. Same goes for tigers, or other species.


I'll go left to right. c:
~xXTikiTikiXx ~

So, I'll start out when we first met... Which was how long ago? When I first asked you to admin my group, but then I kicked you out cuz... Gah, I don't even remember. But I totally didn't like you, lol. But now I do, of course! Your freaking amazing! Your artwork is so inspiring... Every time I look at it, I'm all like, "Someday I'll be that good. Lol just kidding." When we reunited, we became very good friends. Because of Aglaia and Koda, am I right? I drew Aglaia because I could not find any real fursona of yours. I'm sure it was there somewhere, but I'm such a derp, it was probably right in front of me. xD

Anyways, you are so fun to rp with. Your very literate and have a sort of delicate style. I don't know if that makes sense, but... Heh. Well, I wish you the best of luck, always. Your going to go far, with skills like yours. I'm pretty sure your only 13 or 14, right? Gah, I was such a fail at 13... Wait... that was only like a few months ago. Pffffttt, ignore me.

I love you. <3

*Felis-Draconis ~

Oh my gosh, I can NOT get over how hilarious you are. I freaking love visiting your page, because there is ALWAYS some dumbass commenting on your page, and you do NOT tolerate it. Your just like, "Shut the fuck up." And I find it so funny. xD

I have no idea why you didn't think I considered you a friend. xD I don't even remember when I first put you on my friends list. I have always admired your skill and resiliance. I still do, of course. You remind me of myself in real life. On dA, I'm super nice, but in real life, I'm so mean and don't really give a shit. You also remind me of *NinjaKato .... Anyways, you need to get a character in Air Empire, if you already haven't... So we can roleplay.

Well, I love you to peices. <3

~striped-wolf ~

Ahhhhh hey you! Gawd, Asteus is SO adorable. You need to draw a JazminxAsteus pic. I am planning on doing one with Naghar, Asteus, and Jazmin soon.

I'm so in love with their relationship. Love, hate, you know. Jazmin is crazy, and she has no idea how to feel about Asteus. She loves him, of course... But she hates him at the same time. I have no idea. Annyways, I looove this character you have! I sort of made him in teen form, with a smaller mane then he should have. Bah, but that's okay, right? I'm really proud of the shading.

Please keep up your so unique style and amazing lines.

Thank you for being so awsome, Stripey. <3

~XxSoaringHeartxX ~

Hey, Soaring. So, I'm going to start out like this: You were once my idol and I thought I'd never be as good as you. So, when we became friends, I was so stoked. I was like Lol, but seriously. Now I guess we're sort of on the same level, but your a little better then me. xD I love your style so much, and I think your strongest point is lynxs or lynx-like cats.

We have our ups and downs, but I know we'll be friends for a long while... I have a feeling we'll become like :devMwozokii: and =KaiserTiger . And Monster, too. I like to pretend you, me, and Monster are like the Three Musketeers. I have no idea if that's what you guys think, but yeah. xD

I love how you speak your mind, even if it gets on my nerves sometimes, you usually say something to make me change my mind. (I get offended easily, persay.)

Anyways, keep up the good work, and M.C. Loove you
(M.C. means "Merry Christmas", Lol.)

=TheMonsterCat ~

Monster Monster Monster Monsterrr!! Your like my best friend. Your always there for me, and I love you sososososo soooo much. <33 Your my longest friend in the whole dA. Like I said to Soaring... "... I have a feeling we'll become like :devMwozokii: and =KaiserTiger . And Monster, too. I like to pretend you, me, and Monster are like the Three Musketeers. I have no idea if that's what you guys think, but yeah. xD" That's what I said, cuz I think It's true. You and her will always be my biggest friends and I'll be ya'lls biggest fans forever. I hope we can meet IRL one day!

If we do, I'm really mean, so don't take anything I say personally. x'D And my family is crazy. You need to give me your adress so I can mail you a bunch of shit next Christmas, or your birthday, or I don't know.

But you need to stop worrying about how bad you are, because your not. Your amazing. I think you might need some more artistic influences, though. Go around and find some more people with unique styles and take little tricks and tips from each, okay? You'll get so much better. Also, listen to a lot of music. I know you have trouble with inspiration, so that's why I'm telling you this. Anyways, I can't even begin to tell you how much you mean, so, I love you and Merry Christmas. <3

~WingsandFeathers ~

What's happeninnn? Haha, Wingy, you are so amazing. I can't get over how amazing of an artist you are. Your stlye is so original and you draw like a flawless artist... Plus, your super nice to anyone! You're so approchable, I was shocked when we first met... And gawd, that one drawing of Lincoln ("Let It Rain") was awesome. I have pretty much no inspiration with that boring guy, so that helped a little. xD

But I know for a fact you'll go far. You'll get somewhere with your art. The only advice I have is to not be so generous, because your getting to that level where you can't, or you'll be overwhelmed with art trades with people you don't really want to do an art trade with, and a bunch of requests. Do you know what I mean? Your too good to be giving out free art. That's what I think, but If you want to keep doing it, then go ahead!

Anyways, I totally adore every drawing you post. <3 You're definately one of the artists I look up to. Keep up the good work, Wingy. I love you. <3


~Arroq ~

Pshh, I don't even need to write you a note to tell you how much you mean to me. I tell you alot. I'm so grateful to have you as an admin, and a friend as well. Your one of my closest friends, and also an idol! Your art is so beautiful, I can't even..

Rowan's shoulder tatto was kinda weird looking, but I can't really fix it. So I'm sorry. xD
But.
I love you.
So much.
I hope you like him in lion form. I do, sorta. xD Well, I wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! *starts singing and dancing*

~Dovesplash ~

Dovey! How've you been? You never talk to me anymore. :C That should change~ And we need to roleplay Ash and Jaz soon.(I know you sent me a note awhile ago, but I totally lost it. Dx)

Anyways, I love how you have a set stlye. It sort of reminds me of Korrilla's user. I know it's like Kerishall or something like that, but I'm not sure. (I don't have any internet right now, & I'm not gonna go and look it up xD) But I loove love love your stlye.

Oh, hey! Also, give me your adress so I can mail you something. It's a surprise. <3

I drew Ash in this picture because I love Ash, for one, and I couldn't really find a set fursona on you. (I'm so lazy, I didn't really look. ;- But I'm so so so sorry, her swirls look all weird! And ugh... I don't know. Ash was my least favorite out of this picture. :c Next Christmas, or your birthday or something, I'll re-deaw her... lol, but I love you, and hold on. Keep drawing! I know your having family problems, and I understand.

If you ever need anyone to talk to, just note me. I'm on every other week, sometimes a little during the week I'm not on. This holiday, though, I'll be all mixed up, but I'll still be on quite a bit~ Trust me, though. I know just how hard it is to deal with family, unfourtunetly. It's stressful... I even have a story I'll tell you if you ever want to talk. (It happened 2 days ago. x___x)
But, yeah. I'm here for you.
I love youuuu<333

=KaiserTiger ~

Kasa, I put you in this picture, not because you my biggest idol or have amazing artwork or anything like that... I reserved this picture for friends, and friends alone. Do you know what I'm getting at? I'm saying, I don't consider you JUST someone with amazing artwork, or JUST someone that's one million times better then me, but a FRIEND. And actual friend. I hope you don't just think this as fan art, but gift art also. And I also hope I actually AM one of your friends, but I'm easily misleaded, so It wouldn't be hard for me to think something completely oppostie. '^^

When I first saw your artwork, I thought Disney had an account on here or something. xD (I'm not talking about Valon or Kasa or any other original characters, but Kovu, Simba, or Zira. ("Take It By Force" is one of my favorite pictures you've done~ You do Zira very well.))

You just do everyhting good, haha. I love your style and your ideas, and literacy. (Some really good artists couldn't, for the death of them, write out a well-spelled paragraph xD) But I hope one day I'll be as good as you. Psh, If I was ever as good as you, I'd die. No joke. xD

<3


Aglaia (c) ~xXTikiTikiXx
Valens (c) ~felisdraconis
Karattu (c) ~striped-wolf
Rune (c) ~XxSoaringHeartxX
Gray Cheetah (c) =TheMonsterCat
Rook (c) ~WingsandFeathers
Rowan (c) ~Arroq
Ash (c) ~Dovesplash
Kasa (c) =KaiserTiger

Art (c) *Kiatox
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Comments: 47

XXStigerstar [2013-03-17 02:23:53 +0000 UTC]

Wow, this story really touched my heart. I two have felt alone and sad, i never had REAL friends. From the beging of my parents divorse(Age 7) I was messed up. I would cry and scream at my mom for divorsing my dad. He had to live in a crummy apartment. He had to go to the hospital for almost having a heart attack because he was so stressed out. I was beging to rebel, cutting off my hair so short, putting in streaks, and wearing boy clothes and black. People said,"Its just a phase." My aunt would want me to change. No. I was like this before the divorse and im tired of people telling me to change.I had to go to consuling at the age of 11 because of my anger issues. My life is a complete mess and sometimes im so angry at the world. My mom always says,"Why do you mess up our family?YOU are the problem." She always said this to me and never paid attention to me now that she is getting married to her boyfriend. She never understands me. I sit in my room crying and thinking about cutting or just leaving but then i log on to deviantart- friends accept me for who i am and like me. They dont judge, and im lucky to have them. The sad part is when i get in trouble they take the one thing that matters- deviantart. I try sneeking my kindle to my grandma's or asking for the computer for homework. Yes im not perfect but im glad i have friends on here. My relationship with my mom is still strugling but we both are trying hard. Just rember you arent alone. Btw I love the lions

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Kiatox In reply to XXStigerstar [2013-03-17 14:45:45 +0000 UTC]

That happens to me, and I feel exactly the same when my parents take away deviantart. I think you and I are the same. I dont say that to just anyone, because they dont really understand what I mean. But I have a feeling that you do, and I appreciate that. Thank you for sharing this story with me.
And thank you. c:

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XXStigerstar In reply to Kiatox [2013-03-17 15:40:12 +0000 UTC]

No problem! I love your pride of lions and I think its awesome to have friends online- My mom thinks its unsafe and I should make more RL friends but they dont understand because they never done it. Plus im really grateful for my Da friends.

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Kiatox In reply to XXStigerstar [2013-03-17 16:02:38 +0000 UTC]

I couldn't agree more. <3

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XXStigerstar In reply to Kiatox [2013-03-17 16:09:34 +0000 UTC]

Yupp So you have a lion OC? I have a snow leopard. But i love all big cats

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Kiatox In reply to XXStigerstar [2013-03-17 16:11:39 +0000 UTC]

I actually have a bunch of OC's -[link]

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XXStigerstar In reply to Kiatox [2013-03-17 16:16:44 +0000 UTC]

Cool! I have a few Warrior cat ones. But I have one I really like to use, his name is leonardo and he is a snow leopard. He was born in a leopard tribe. But his mother was killed by something i dont know yet. and he is being raised by a diffrent animal...i just cant fiqure those parts out . Your OC's look awesome

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Kiatox In reply to XXStigerstar [2013-03-18 03:33:13 +0000 UTC]

Thank you! c:

And a leopard tribe sounds epic.

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XXStigerstar In reply to Kiatox [2013-03-18 22:47:38 +0000 UTC]

Thanks

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SimplySilent [2013-01-06 03:09:05 +0000 UTC]

Hi there~! Your wonderful artwork has been featured in Friday Favorites here: [link]

Great work, and we hope to see more of your art in the future!

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Kiatox In reply to SimplySilent [2013-01-06 03:48:50 +0000 UTC]



Thank you! <3

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SimplySilent In reply to Kiatox [2013-01-07 00:27:25 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome~!

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Neroiox [2012-12-27 00:49:59 +0000 UTC]

I just love how you never remembers my fursonas name! You so cute<3
Kiattttt!<3 You know I love you! When I first joined da I never imagined to get a friend like you! <3 Da is a new part of my life where I can be together with other people, who likes drawing like me! IRL I feel that no one understands my passion for art!
Reading your story again makes me die a little inside... Knowing what you have been trough... I know how it is to be depressed, and feeling like you dont have any friends. Bah, I felt that a lot around late sumer/start autumn this year... But its over now! <3 I am as positive as I used to be before
You, soaring and me are really like the 3 musketters!<3 You two mean the world to me! My mother is really sceptic on the online friends thing -.- But I ignore that! I believe that online friends are as good as friends irl. Sometimes even so much better! And I would love to met you irl one day
I will remember to belive a little more in myself! Haha! I am improving a lot lately! <3
I just have no words for this! You are so amazing! And I love you!
Merry christmas!
And sorry im not good with words

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Kiatox In reply to Neroiox [2012-12-27 06:21:43 +0000 UTC]

I actually never knew your fursona's name from the beginning. x'D

And omg we should meet, totally. And online friends are MUCH better then irl friends, I think. Just cause there is no one within 15 miles of me that is decent and kind.

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Neroiox In reply to Kiatox [2013-01-11 11:34:44 +0000 UTC]

Lol xD
I think you would be surprised to see how hyper I am irl

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Dovesplash [2012-12-26 17:39:43 +0000 UTC]

Reading over this….I think I cried a little. This….I don’t know what to say. I’m a bit speechless. Reading what you wrote to me left me stunned.
Wait…I’m coming back….
I LOVE YOU. I love you so much. I’m so glad you’ve touched my life , ahhh ;3; your story almost had me bawling. I can’t imagine what that was like…my issues are so petty compared to what you went through. Things with my family and things just relevant to me are better here, I’ve made peace with my subconscious Sorry I haven’t been able to talk to you recently! It’s just been so crazy around here , holidays and everything.;3;
I’m always here for you and I know you’ll always be there for me. The Ash you drew is beautiful. I love the shoulder swirls and everything <3 Oh, <3 I just noticed the medallion.<3

Also, It’s true that I don’t have an official set fursona. Although my warrior character for which my username is so named after (Dovesplash) is ment to be a lot like me.
When I sit down and think about it though, Ash and I are A LOT alike. I’m pretty realistic and serious, I would like to say I’m smart ( well. I’m a nerd at least. Academic team, Robotics and Chess club. Haha) and we both know a lot of plants. (horticulture is a passion of mine. You should have seen my face when I opened that landscaping book yesterday.) ^^ So I’m glad you used Ash here.

This means so much to me. Thank you *so* much.

You have something you want to mail me? Let me send you a note <3

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Kiatox In reply to Dovesplash [2012-12-26 20:41:51 +0000 UTC]

Alright, thank you Dove<33

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VertigoCrime [2012-12-26 03:02:07 +0000 UTC]

Oh my god. This is the nicest most surprisingly greatest gift anyone of my friends gave to me ever! I must give you a drawing back just to how how much I appreciate this. I honestly feel really sad about everything that happened to you, I can't imagine trying to commit suicide because i've never tried, but I can tell you how many times I've thought about it. I've been drawing my entire life, I let my emotions flow into my artwork so I don't have the same feelings over and over.

Though i'd rather let the past go past me case that's what the past is about, but really, whatever is what you see right now, it is always the past, just think about it. I should let you know that i'm basically like a ventilation center, so whenever you need to vent (be mad at something er whatever xD) come to me, I like to help people through things, even though I have been through them myself.

Keep up the good work

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Kiatox In reply to VertigoCrime [2012-12-26 20:37:48 +0000 UTC]

When I did that, I really didn't have anything to vent out my feelings. ;-; I tried to talk about it, but it didn't work. So, I'm so lucky to have drawing and inspirations like you guys to vent out on.

Thank you. <3

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VertigoCrime In reply to Kiatox [2012-12-26 20:42:26 +0000 UTC]

c: <3

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KaiserTiger [2012-12-25 07:30:31 +0000 UTC]

;A; Omg, this is one of the few times where I have absolutely NO idea what to say~

I can't quite say I've ever been in the same situation as you (everything you've went through must've been hell, literally. <3 I look up to you for staying strong through something like that) but I do know the power of the online artist community. I've been uploading my artwork for almost 6 years now and just being able to finally reach out to people who shared the same love for artistic expression was a real motivation booster. c: I didn't feel quite so outcasted irl because I finally found friends who enjoyed the same stuff as I did; who understood me. Of course, my reasons for loving the people here seem so insignificant compared to yours. ~<3 I'm just glad we give you a reason to keep on keeping on and to be honest, I'm actually more than flattered that I made it in this picture after hearing your story.

Your comment to me is just the sweetest though~<3 To be honest, I don't enjoy writing. xD I think that's the one thing holding me back from starting up my comics...I don't have the patience to sit down and write out a complete story. The story I have going for Valon now though is the lonly thing I've managed to get past a couple chapters! Even with that said, it irks me when people can't type out a good, well written paragraph. D|

And of course I consider you a friend! Everyone who's taken the time to note me and who've I've gotten to know better than just a passerby is considered a friend in my book. If you ever need someone to note just to talk, you know I'm right here. I might take a bit getting back because I tend to let my inbox get over cluttered sometime but I'll eventually get back. xD

xDD I went from saying I had no idea what to say from a complete book. The picture is the sweetest though and I can't get over the thought behind it. <3 I'm really glad I'm considered part of your "pride". It honestly means the world. <33

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Kiatox In reply to KaiserTiger [2012-12-26 20:55:36 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, Kasa. This makes me so happy, as well as everyone else's comments. I hope we can grow and bond more. You'll be part of my pride, always. <3

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KaiserTiger In reply to KaiserTiger [2012-12-25 07:31:02 +0000 UTC]

*to a complete book! xDD

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WingsandFeathers [2012-12-25 03:07:46 +0000 UTC]

This is one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me! Thank you so much! I hope you always feel loved especially by your friends here on deviantart. Thank you for the compliments, but I'm far from flawless and I hope to never be. (half the fun as an artist for me is improving ^^) I love doing art trades especially when I get to draw art for people like you. Truthfully when I started on deviantart I didn't have that much fun, I wasn't that good and couldn't do backgrounds ( or anything really at all!!) and of course i always had those obnoxious critics who were all like 'his tails too fluffy' and 'his heads too small' and I was afraid to approach people who could draw well, So I decided if I even if I never got to the point where I could draw decently I would be as nice as possible to everyone ^^ Hopefully I kept that goal. People like you make the world brighter and I hope that if you ever have a bad day you'll be able to come talk to us, your friends here on DA ^^ Love you sweetheart,<33 and merry Christmas.

p.s. your art is much better then I was at 13 ^^ And i love it all the same ^^
Merry Christmas!!

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Kiatox In reply to WingsandFeathers [2012-12-26 20:43:50 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, Wing<3 Love you

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Rain-Strive [2012-12-25 02:56:46 +0000 UTC]

owhh..this looks awesome...pfftt..happy holidays..

Goof luck in using the tablet...I'm getting one to soon...<333

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Kiatox In reply to Rain-Strive [2012-12-26 20:43:32 +0000 UTC]

Thanks<33

I have no idea if I'm getting a tablet. It's looking like I'm not, but I'll keep my fingers crossed. :'D

And wow, that's amazing that you don't use a tablet!

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Rain-Strive In reply to Kiatox [2012-12-26 20:44:58 +0000 UTC]

no problem...

I see...lol..you'll get it sooner or later..

Pfftt..nah,it's not that good actually..^^|||

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Kiatox In reply to Rain-Strive [2012-12-26 20:53:15 +0000 UTC]

Uh, yes. your amazing. <3

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Rain-Strive In reply to Kiatox [2012-12-26 20:54:00 +0000 UTC]

lol..thanks...<333

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xXTikiTikiXx [2012-12-25 00:44:04 +0000 UTC]

Oh my gosh... I'm crying right now. I have no idea what it'd feel like to feel so unloved that I'd want to kill myself. It's a miracle that you survived, and I'm so glad. You're one of my best friends, and you've brang joy to me countless times, this time included. This is one of the most touching gifts I've ever been given. <3
And I had no idea that you kicked me out of a group! Lol I don't remember seeing you other than when Koda and you joined EBC. xD That's kinda embarrassing.
Aglaia looks gorgeous in your style. ;u; She looks beautiful. c: And I love you too. I will draw you something as soon as I can~

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Kiatox In reply to xXTikiTikiXx [2012-12-26 20:55:48 +0000 UTC]

<3

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Arroq [2012-12-24 20:27:17 +0000 UTC]

Awww Kia! I can't even-- thank you so much! <3333 Words cannot even describe how much I love this! You're one of the best people I've ever known. <3333 I'm in the process of making gifts too. C: I just need my computer, because I currently don't have it at the moment. >.>

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Kiatox In reply to Arroq [2012-12-24 20:32:00 +0000 UTC]

Aww, your welcome. <3

you really don't have to...

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Arroq In reply to Kiatox [2012-12-24 20:38:55 +0000 UTC]

Yes I do! >v>
Hey Kia, we should get those winter events posted. As well as the mentors and apprentices, and then the monthly assignments so we can keep members active. c: Again I would do it myself, but I don't have my computer. :c

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Kiatox In reply to Arroq [2012-12-24 20:40:34 +0000 UTC]

(Look on the admin board. I'm going to try and get them posted today, but I'm not 100 % sure I can. I'll try, though. And I think what we'll do for mentors and apprentices is put the apprentices name in < sup > underneath the Talons name in the gallery.

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Arroq In reply to Kiatox [2012-12-24 21:07:31 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, and/or post a journal of who is with who, and which tribe.

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Kiatox In reply to Arroq [2012-12-24 21:17:06 +0000 UTC]

Alright, I'll think about it. xD

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Arroq In reply to Kiatox [2012-12-24 22:33:37 +0000 UTC]

xD k.

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Tunquen [2012-12-24 20:21:17 +0000 UTC]

So far... The most soulful, beautiful, sad and emotive Christmas gift that IΒ΄ve ever had.
Honestly... I donΒ΄t know what to say, Kiatox. IΒ΄m crying right now, before reading what you wrote.

I didnΒ΄t know anything about that...!
But... I canΒ΄t say anything... Words donΒ΄t come. Just, have a merry Christmas, my dear, dear friend.

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Kiatox In reply to Tunquen [2012-12-24 20:27:33 +0000 UTC]

<3 Thank you, stripey. You have a Merry Christmas as well. <3

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Tunquen In reply to Kiatox [2012-12-24 20:30:19 +0000 UTC]


Promise me you wonΒ΄t do it, will you?

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Kiatox In reply to Tunquen [2012-12-24 20:31:28 +0000 UTC]

Of course not! You guys are eveything to me. I would never leave you. <3

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Tunquen In reply to Kiatox [2012-12-24 20:37:59 +0000 UTC]

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Leaffall-Novelist [2012-12-24 20:06:03 +0000 UTC]

owww cute! How many cats!!!

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Kiatox In reply to Leaffall-Novelist [2012-12-24 20:15:18 +0000 UTC]

I know, it was a lot. D':

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Leaffall-Novelist In reply to Kiatox [2012-12-24 20:28:26 +0000 UTC]

i know how it is e.e

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