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Doc's training today had been a very brief one, after the fight she had with Damon her mind was all over the place. In a rush she got his tack off once she got back to the stables. Dear god she hoped Damon wouldn't be there as well. What had just happened ? Who heard it ? Even she herself wasn't fully aware of what she just said. Hell it was even impossible to think at this moment. She just kept going back to the thoughts that were so..unlike her. Right ? Surely she knew she wasn't quite reasonable at times, but it hasn't been this bad for so long.

Quickly she stepped outside the stable with the stallion by her side to return him to the pasture, her footsteps not dragging like usual but fast and swift. Her eyes were focused on the ground, naturally she wanted to avade everyone's eyes at this point. She felt like the whole world just witnessed her outburst.

" Raise your head you idiot.. You look like a fucking joke right now. "

Not again... Kaira's head shot up, where was it coming from this time ? in the corner of her eye she spotted a figure, something rather familiar. And once she realized who that was she gasped loudly, spooking herself and poor Doc too. What on earth ?? Of course she recognized what she saw but.. for the longest time she had no idea how she used to look like. Was this real. Or was she finally going crazy ? Was this some weird effect amnesia could have on you ? By the looks of it Doc certainly didn't see it as well.

" Hello there Kaira, mm.. Kaira.. Y'know I always wished my name was Kaira. Glad I did something right. "

How hard did Tjerk smash her head back then ? She shook it for a moment before continuing to walk. Ignore.. Ignore. It was just a..weird ass day dream, did she accidentally mistake her morning smoke for weed ? She was pretty sure she didn't bring any..and even then much more was needed for this kinda madness.

" Not very nice of you to forget about ...well.. yourself. What on earth has happened to me ? why are you around these shitty creatures ?? Seriously ? Also..WHAT is that hair ?? It looks horrible, I fucking hate blonde. And are those boys clothes ? Are you kidding me ? And what happened to my FACE ? UGH. Did you get a nose job ?? Where is my gorgeous face..and..eye ? Why are you trying to be exactly what we didn't want to become ? Look at you.. slaving for these four legged sausages. So..sad..

Go away.. No one liked me like that, I am just trying to be myself.

" Woah there, that ain't very nice to say to yourself.. hehehee.. also.. honestly I think you are confused. Because this colour puke is nothing like yourself. This is you.. "

The figure said with a wicked grin on her face, pointing to herself. The proudest way of walking and presenting herself, yep..that was her. It used to be her. Or..was it how she was supposed to be ? Did she lose herself in an act ? Was she trying to be something she is not ? To be more liked ? To try and change...

" How well did it do you anyway ? This new you ? How many friends have you got ? "

Kaira's eyes turned sad at that thought, the answer was not gonna give her a strong argument.

" Right, just one. Why does he like you Kaira ? Because you are dressed this way ? And acting niceee ? Or because he likes the actual you side.. aka..thissss. "

Again the figure pointed to itself, god damnit.. Why was it right.. Kvark did probably just like her because she could be so..ruthless, it entertained him more than anything. When it came to Connor he made clear in the hospital he was purely interested in a relationship..He refused her friendship offer back then, after all. So..it did leave her with just one friend. All the others ? She wasn't sure what to make of those people just yet..

" Sooo does it help ? Nooo..So stop being this sad fake sack of rainbow shit and go back to being your awesome self ! I mean..can't fix that face for ya sadly.. but..HEY you will be fineeee ! NOW first of all..you need to fix this mess. If that old dude fires you there is no way you could prevend him from taking away your only friend. Wouldn't want that now would we ? "

No.. She sighed, releasing Doc back to his freedom in the pasture. It made sense.. It had to be fixed, she had to be fixed. But firstly, a peace offering maybe ? She didn't feel like she was without reason but..it would be a shame if she couldn't keep an eye on that meeting between Damon and Simon. She could still play the innocent girl..even if she was finally starting to see what she was supposed to be.

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Art, kaira and.. kimberly ? belong to me
Doc and bg pic belong to abosz007
no ref used

Description
previously :

Someone is going..mad ? :')

_______________________________________________________________________________________________________

Doc's training today had been a very brief one, after the fight she had with Damon her mind was all over the place. In a rush she got his tack off once she got back to the stables. Dear god she hoped Damon wouldn't be there as well. What had just happened ? Who heard it ? Even she herself wasn't fully aware of what she just said. Hell it was even impossible to think at this moment. She just kept going back to the thoughts that were so..unlike her. Right ? Surely she knew she wasn't quite reasonable at times, but it hasn't been this bad for so long.

Quickly she stepped outside the stable with the stallion by her side to return him to the pasture, her footsteps not dragging like usual but fast and swift. Her eyes were focused on the ground, naturally she wanted to avade everyone's eyes at this point. She felt like the whole world just witnessed her outburst.

" Raise your head you idiot.. You look like a fucking joke right now. "

Not again... Kaira's head shot up, where was it coming from this time ? in the corner of her eye she spotted a figure, something rather familiar. And once she realized who that was she gasped loudly, spooking herself and poor Doc too. What on earth ?? Of course she recognized what she saw but.. for the longest time she had no idea how she used to look like. Was this real. Or was she finally going crazy ? Was this some weird effect amnesia could have on you ? By the looks of it Doc certainly didn't see it as well.

" Hello there Kaira, mm.. Kaira.. Y'know I always wished my name was Kaira. Glad I did something right. "

How hard did Tjerk smash her head back then ? She shook it for a moment before continuing to walk. Ignore.. Ignore. It was just a..weird ass day dream, did she accidentally mistake her morning smoke for weed ? She was pretty sure she didn't bring any..and even then much more was needed for this kinda madness.

" Not very nice of you to forget about ...well.. yourself. What on earth has happened to me ? why are you around these shitty creatures ?? Seriously ? Also..WHAT is that hair ?? It looks horrible, I fucking hate blonde. And are those boys clothes ? Are you kidding me ? And what happened to my FACE ? UGH. Did you get a nose job ?? Where is my gorgeous face..and..eye ? Why are you trying to be exactly what we didn't want to become ? Look at you.. slaving for these four legged sausages. So..sad..

Go away.. No one liked me like that, I am just trying to be myself.

" Woah there, that ain't very nice to say to yourself.. hehehee.. also.. honestly I think you are confused. Because this colour puke is nothing like yourself. This is you.. "

The figure said with a wicked grin on her face, pointing to herself. The proudest way of walking and presenting herself, yep..that was her. It used to be her. Or..was it how she was supposed to be ? Did she lose herself in an act ? Was she trying to be something she is not ? To be more liked ? To try and change...

" How well did it do you anyway ? This new you ? How many friends have you got ? "

Kaira's eyes turned sad at that thought, the answer was not gonna give her a strong argument.

" Right, just one. Why does he like you Kaira ? Because you are dressed this way ? And acting niceee ? Or because he likes the actual you side.. aka..thissss. "

Again the figure pointed to itself, god damnit.. Why was it right.. Kvark did probably just like her because she could be so..ruthless, it entertained him more than anything. When it came to Connor he made clear in the hospital he was purely interested in a relationship..He refused her friendship offer back then, after all. So..it did leave her with just one friend. All the others ? She wasn't sure what to make of those people just yet..

" Sooo does it help ? Nooo..So stop being this sad fake sack of rainbow shit and go back to being your awesome self ! I mean..can't fix that face for ya sadly.. but..HEY you will be fineeee ! NOW first of all..you need to fix this mess. If that old dude fires you there is no way you could prevend him from taking away your only friend. Wouldn't want that now would we ? "

No.. She sighed, releasing Doc back to his freedom in the pasture. It made sense.. It had to be fixed, she had to be fixed. But firstly, a peace offering maybe ? She didn't feel like she was without reason but..it would be a shame if she couldn't keep an eye on that meeting between Damon and Simon. She could still play the innocent girl..even if she was finally starting to see what she was supposed to be.

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Art, kaira and.. kimberly ? belong to me
Doc and bg pic belong to abosz007
no ref used