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In nomine Dei nostri Satanas Luciferi Excelsi.

So I figured I hadn't drawn Lucifer for far too long? Maybe a couple of weeks already. Ah, but this is different. This is not just a silhouette of light. It's a proper portrait. But also, an unusual one, at least for me.
I have my personal reasons to depict Him in a nearly human form, as He has reasons to appear to me this way, so I'll stick to that in the future as well. But this case was certainly worth an exception.

*** FULL VIEW PLEASE ***

First I would like to share the story that lead to the creation of this piece. It is actually something personal too, something that happened months ago, by the time I was still struggling with my life's situation. Some of you may remember the turmoil I went through regarding the second (and more important) surgery, how it got delayed and hindered and how that brought me to the brink of despair. Those were several exceedingly heavy months for me, that I will never forget and during which not many things could bring me consolation. Well, you know one thing that always can bring at least a little comfort and, fittingly so, light in my life - Lucifer. However, I remember a moment in time when even that was put at a stake. Not because of Him, mind you, but because of myself, my own mind and feelings. I mentioned already He always appears to me in a human form (I won't discuss the reasons here). That's usually fine by me, it's easy to perceive and in a way, neutral, unengaging. And because even though He wears that form He doesn't feel anything anywhere near human to me, so it doesn't bother me. Nothing was quite normal during those several months, however. I remember the despair and bitterness, the pain and frustration and just how far on (and off) the edge they drove me. Being stuck with my bodily turmoil for months after I should have resolved it, furthermore having no idea when and whether I'd be able to free myself from the pain it caused me, that made the feelings of dysphoria stronger even than before, making me hate every inch and ounce of my, back then, current existence. Gender dysphoria paired up with species dysphoria into a vicious circle I couldn't get out of. In two words, my disdain for my current shape intensified my hatred for the human shape as a whole. To the point I couldn't stand it anymore. Mostly just because I couldn't stand myself, but well, also because my response to intense pain is hatred in general, which is also a natural thing.
Inadvertently, all of that messed up with my communication with the Demons as well. Most of the time the rest of them never appear anything human to me these days, but then I can be quite spiteful when I am in such a bad place and pain-driven malice can make me push away any contact with another person - be them physical or not. Even friends and loved ones, even beings I belong with. Well, Lucifer has always had a way around that somehow. He always has been able to reach me no matter how hateful and spiteful I've been. Except, this time even if He could get around that problem, there was another, even stronger one laid beyond it that eventually turned out to alienate me from Him. I remember one morning, I was feeling particularly badly and that made it nearly unbearable to stand my own body and equally so to be around humans at all (not nice when you're working with them, but I ain't talking about that). I remember then He came. He wanted to comfort me, and I needed it badly. But as soon as I saw Him, wearing the shape I currently couldn't stand anymore, I .... I turned away. I hate it that I did, but it was spontaneous, purely a feeling, a pain I couldn't stand anymore, nothing else. But He didn't blame me for it, He understood. He didn't even wince, either. Instead, He took a moment and then I felt a nudge to look at Him again only to see He had assumed a shape much too different. The one of a great Lion.
There He stood, a Lion so great and mighty, yet so gentle, so warm, so.... earthly. Indeed, He didn't look like in this painting, He looked like a normal, earthly Lion, only perhaps bigger as if I coiled up I could probably fit in the mane on His chest alone. That simple sight, of Him as a Lion, that was so incredibly warming and soothing, relieving.... like what I had been craving for so long, like being stranded in a place I don't belong, but finally touching upon something akin, someone of the pure, wild, natural beings who are all but extinct in the middle of the human world. It's hard to describe it. But I remember the profound relief and feeling of comfort, I remember feeling tufts of this great mane touching me as I embraced Him.

To get an idea of what it felt like, these photos can somewhat illustrate:
i.pinimg.com/originals/bf/e2/3…
i.pinimg.com/originals/48/a5/8…

That morning I decided to once draw Him as a Lion. Back then, I was far too weakened to undertake something like that, but I kept the idea for better days. It was months before those better days came, but they did in the end.

A few words for the spiritual symbolism and significance. Firstly, the Lion. My affinity and love for felines has grown and become ever more apparent lately, so that adds to how it was a special vision to see Him as one. However, for me the felines also symbolize pride and freedom, defiance and strength of will, even spirituality; in a manner of speaking they personify Nature itself for me, both for the good and for the sad reasons. In this sense a feline is a very fitting form for Him to choose. Yet the Lion in particular is special. Since ever, the Lion has been associated with fire and with the Sun. There is even more, just something about these great felines, about their harsh, proud nature, the way they rule their lands, somehow they embody willpower itself (perhaps that's another reason why they are associated with the Sun). Something in them is simply so fascinating, it always has been for me, ever since childhood, even if I don't mention it often these days. Childhood infatuations aside, even to this day to me the Lion is an unmatched symbol of nobility, pride and power. To my own feeling, out of the many creatures associated with Lucifer, should I choose those who can represent Him, the Lion would be among the first in the list, if not the first, at least where the Earthly beings are regarded. In my eyes, the Lion is truly worthy of that honour.
So I wanted to draw Him as a Lion, yet as I said, I decided to go for a different image than how I actually saw Him back then. Part of the reason would be that to draw a realistic Lion in digital would actually be quite difficult, with all the fur / mane detail and all, and I kinda shied away from that. But it just becomes Him to be represented as a creature woven of light - it's why I adopted the habit to draw Him as a silhouette of light in more regular drawings. Besides, it's close to how I first saw Him, a vision of light, a radiance about Him that made Him look like a living sun. At first I intended to draw Him in the same colors here as well - bright golden mane and bluish white for the body, much like the tint of His shining white robes. However, later I made Him golden-white altogether, mostly for aesthetic reasons, but later as I considered it further, it actually felt more accurate and natural. Later I made the whole scene aglow with bright white-golden light, His Light, representing both His ineffable power, beauty and purity. The sunshine golden light once again symbolizes the willpower, as well as the pure energy of spirit, healing and Life. I must admit He has never looked more like a living sun in my works until now. So this is the closest to the feeling He gives me when He shines in His full glory before me. I also like the symbolic meaning of portraying Him like a sun in the cosmic / astral space, one far greater than even the cute little stars around Him. This is what He is in my eyes, quite literally, this is what He feels like, with everything that I know of Him. Oh, by the way, speaking of stars, there is something interesting about the reflection spikes (those little light rays irradiated from the brighter stars). I tend to draw those to add shininess, and I usually just do them horizontal x vertical, simple as that. This time, tilted them all at 37°. I wonder if you can guess why that is
So I drew Him golden and white, later I made His mane shiny, which was for one thing cheating around the fact that I don't get well along with long fur and hair edges in digital art just yet. But for another thing, it turned out perfect because it once more emphasizes on His beautiful power, and besides, the glow makes it really look a lot like the solar corona - the probable more obvious reason why the Lion is associated with the Sun. So it's perfect. The horns have a tiny glow as well (as pretty much everything in the picture), and as you may know, they represent the Lifeforce and spiritual power. Lastly the Pentagram and His Sigil, they simply represent Him. The blue flames are Hellfire - His Fire. His eyes fittingly as blue as the Flames.

I guess that's about it. It's a fairly simple artwork regarding symbolism this time, but it's the power and purity of those symbols that are important here. Lucifer is a pure spirit, an embodiment of the Lifeforce, of Life itself, more than anyone else, and a vision of light embraced in the cosmic cradle of newborn stars. Life is a cosmic and spiritual phenomenon by far more than it is material, and so is Lucifer. Lucifer is the one being who keeps fighting for Life and Freedom across the Universe, He has always done so and He always will. A True Guardian of Life. That is how I see Him anyway.

Ps CS6, Wacom Intuos 4 tablet.
Original size: 3186 x 3996 px (2996 x 3996 px before I expanded it).
Time: about 13 hours. Might be a personal record of sorts.

P.S. I'd like to add one final thing. Jayme did a feline portrait of Lucifer as well.
And I am.... I am truly amazed. He did even better than me in ways....

It left me speechless.
Give it love....

Edit: A friend showed me this song....
So incredibly beautiful:
Death SS - Star In Sight
I can't believe just how well it fits....
Thank you, King.

_____________

IMPORTANT.

Satan Lucifer is the Ruler of Hell, Lord of the Demons, Father and guidance to everyone who believe in Him, and personally for me, He is my Master and my one True God.
This portrait is a tribute to Him, an expression of both what I believe and what He means to me in my life. I shall absolutely not tolerate words of blasphemy here.
Any comments, disrespectful, offensive or abusive in any way, will be erased indiscriminatively.

Also, DO NOT use without my written permission!

Description
In nomine Dei nostri Satanas Luciferi Excelsi.

So I figured I hadn't drawn Lucifer for far too long? Maybe a couple of weeks already. Ah, but this is different. This is not just a silhouette of light. It's a proper portrait. But also, an unusual one, at least for me.
I have my personal reasons to depict Him in a nearly human form, as He has reasons to appear to me this way, so I'll stick to that in the future as well. But this case was certainly worth an exception.

*** FULL VIEW PLEASE ***

First I would like to share the story that lead to the creation of this piece. It is actually something personal too, something that happened months ago, by the time I was still struggling with my life's situation. Some of you may remember the turmoil I went through regarding the second (and more important) surgery, how it got delayed and hindered and how that brought me to the brink of despair. Those were several exceedingly heavy months for me, that I will never forget and during which not many things could bring me consolation. Well, you know one thing that always can bring at least a little comfort and, fittingly so, light in my life - Lucifer. However, I remember a moment in time when even that was put at a stake. Not because of Him, mind you, but because of myself, my own mind and feelings. I mentioned already He always appears to me in a human form (I won't discuss the reasons here). That's usually fine by me, it's easy to perceive and in a way, neutral, unengaging. And because even though He wears that form He doesn't feel anything anywhere near human to me, so it doesn't bother me. Nothing was quite normal during those several months, however. I remember the despair and bitterness, the pain and frustration and just how far on (and off) the edge they drove me. Being stuck with my bodily turmoil for months after I should have resolved it, furthermore having no idea when and whether I'd be able to free myself from the pain it caused me, that made the feelings of dysphoria stronger even than before, making me hate every inch and ounce of my, back then, current existence. Gender dysphoria paired up with species dysphoria into a vicious circle I couldn't get out of. In two words, my disdain for my current shape intensified my hatred for the human shape as a whole. To the point I couldn't stand it anymore. Mostly just because I couldn't stand myself, but well, also because my response to intense pain is hatred in general, which is also a natural thing.
Inadvertently, all of that messed up with my communication with the Demons as well. Most of the time the rest of them never appear anything human to me these days, but then I can be quite spiteful when I am in such a bad place and pain-driven malice can make me push away any contact with another person - be them physical or not. Even friends and loved ones, even beings I belong with. Well, Lucifer has always had a way around that somehow. He always has been able to reach me no matter how hateful and spiteful I've been. Except, this time even if He could get around that problem, there was another, even stronger one laid beyond it that eventually turned out to alienate me from Him. I remember one morning, I was feeling particularly badly and that made it nearly unbearable to stand my own body and equally so to be around humans at all (not nice when you're working with them, but I ain't talking about that). I remember then He came. He wanted to comfort me, and I needed it badly. But as soon as I saw Him, wearing the shape I currently couldn't stand anymore, I .... I turned away. I hate it that I did, but it was spontaneous, purely a feeling, a pain I couldn't stand anymore, nothing else. But He didn't blame me for it, He understood. He didn't even wince, either. Instead, He took a moment and then I felt a nudge to look at Him again only to see He had assumed a shape much too different. The one of a great Lion.
There He stood, a Lion so great and mighty, yet so gentle, so warm, so.... earthly. Indeed, He didn't look like in this painting, He looked like a normal, earthly Lion, only perhaps bigger as if I coiled up I could probably fit in the mane on His chest alone. That simple sight, of Him as a Lion, that was so incredibly warming and soothing, relieving.... like what I had been craving for so long, like being stranded in a place I don't belong, but finally touching upon something akin, someone of the pure, wild, natural beings who are all but extinct in the middle of the human world. It's hard to describe it. But I remember the profound relief and feeling of comfort, I remember feeling tufts of this great mane touching me as I embraced Him.

To get an idea of what it felt like, these photos can somewhat illustrate:
i.pinimg.com/originals/bf/e2/3…
i.pinimg.com/originals/48/a5/8…

That morning I decided to once draw Him as a Lion. Back then, I was far too weakened to undertake something like that, but I kept the idea for better days. It was months before those better days came, but they did in the end.

A few words for the spiritual symbolism and significance. Firstly, the Lion. My affinity and love for felines has grown and become ever more apparent lately, so that adds to how it was a special vision to see Him as one. However, for me the felines also symbolize pride and freedom, defiance and strength of will, even spirituality; in a manner of speaking they personify Nature itself for me, both for the good and for the sad reasons. In this sense a feline is a very fitting form for Him to choose. Yet the Lion in particular is special. Since ever, the Lion has been associated with fire and with the Sun. There is even more, just something about these great felines, about their harsh, proud nature, the way they rule their lands, somehow they embody willpower itself (perhaps that's another reason why they are associated with the Sun). Something in them is simply so fascinating, it always has been for me, ever since childhood, even if I don't mention it often these days. Childhood infatuations aside, even to this day to me the Lion is an unmatched symbol of nobility, pride and power. To my own feeling, out of the many creatures associated with Lucifer, should I choose those who can represent Him, the Lion would be among the first in the list, if not the first, at least where the Earthly beings are regarded. In my eyes, the Lion is truly worthy of that honour.
So I wanted to draw Him as a Lion, yet as I said, I decided to go for a different image than how I actually saw Him back then. Part of the reason would be that to draw a realistic Lion in digital would actually be quite difficult, with all the fur / mane detail and all, and I kinda shied away from that. But it just becomes Him to be represented as a creature woven of light - it's why I adopted the habit to draw Him as a silhouette of light in more regular drawings. Besides, it's close to how I first saw Him, a vision of light, a radiance about Him that made Him look like a living sun. At first I intended to draw Him in the same colors here as well - bright golden mane and bluish white for the body, much like the tint of His shining white robes. However, later I made Him golden-white altogether, mostly for aesthetic reasons, but later as I considered it further, it actually felt more accurate and natural. Later I made the whole scene aglow with bright white-golden light, His Light, representing both His ineffable power, beauty and purity. The sunshine golden light once again symbolizes the willpower, as well as the pure energy of spirit, healing and Life. I must admit He has never looked more like a living sun in my works until now. So this is the closest to the feeling He gives me when He shines in His full glory before me. I also like the symbolic meaning of portraying Him like a sun in the cosmic / astral space, one far greater than even the cute little stars around Him. This is what He is in my eyes, quite literally, this is what He feels like, with everything that I know of Him. Oh, by the way, speaking of stars, there is something interesting about the reflection spikes (those little light rays irradiated from the brighter stars). I tend to draw those to add shininess, and I usually just do them horizontal x vertical, simple as that. This time, tilted them all at 37°. I wonder if you can guess why that is
So I drew Him golden and white, later I made His mane shiny, which was for one thing cheating around the fact that I don't get well along with long fur and hair edges in digital art just yet. But for another thing, it turned out perfect because it once more emphasizes on His beautiful power, and besides, the glow makes it really look a lot like the solar corona - the probable more obvious reason why the Lion is associated with the Sun. So it's perfect. The horns have a tiny glow as well (as pretty much everything in the picture), and as you may know, they represent the Lifeforce and spiritual power. Lastly the Pentagram and His Sigil, they simply represent Him. The blue flames are Hellfire - His Fire. His eyes fittingly as blue as the Flames.

I guess that's about it. It's a fairly simple artwork regarding symbolism this time, but it's the power and purity of those symbols that are important here. Lucifer is a pure spirit, an embodiment of the Lifeforce, of Life itself, more than anyone else, and a vision of light embraced in the cosmic cradle of newborn stars. Life is a cosmic and spiritual phenomenon by far more than it is material, and so is Lucifer. Lucifer is the one being who keeps fighting for Life and Freedom across the Universe, He has always done so and He always will. A True Guardian of Life. That is how I see Him anyway.

Ps CS6, Wacom Intuos 4 tablet.
Original size: 3186 x 3996 px (2996 x 3996 px before I expanded it).
Time: about 13 hours. Might be a personal record of sorts.

P.S. I'd like to add one final thing. Jayme did a feline portrait of Lucifer as well.
And I am.... I am truly amazed. He did even better than me in ways....

It left me speechless.
Give it love....

Edit: A friend showed me this song....
So incredibly beautiful:
Death SS - Star In Sight
I can't believe just how well it fits....
Thank you, King.

_____________

IMPORTANT.

Satan Lucifer is the Ruler of Hell, Lord of the Demons, Father and guidance to everyone who believe in Him, and personally for me, He is my Master and my one True God.
This portrait is a tribute to Him, an expression of both what I believe and what He means to me in my life. I shall absolutely not tolerate words of blasphemy here.
Any comments, disrespectful, offensive or abusive in any way, will be erased indiscriminatively.

Also, DO NOT use without my written permission!