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Published: 2012-08-08 19:00:07 +0000 UTC; Views: 483; Favourites: 15; Downloads: 0
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This is me venting. If you don't want to read this, delete the deviation now from your inbox, or just move on.--------------
Eugh. I haven't been "perfectly happy" in a long while.
Mostly because of roleplay-group issues...
It's stupid to say but
I hate so many of these new folk. I can't help it, I just do. Each has their own reasons...
Originally it was just unease because they were new faces--I don't particularly enjoy new social interactions. Just talking on the phone to someone (without practice) ties my stomach in knots.
But a lot of people I'd gotten used to and even started liking. A few, however, are just... ruining the chats for me. I'm always angry when I read some of the idiotic things that are said, and I get so stressed when none of my friends are in there to help me. I have no respect for these people, and I'm slowly running out of tolerance...
I could cry just thinking about it.
It happened in Pkmc, that second big opening, and I left that chatroom for good. I don't want it happening in HPM, but... it is. And it hurts.
I don't know why I don't just quit going in there. It does more harm than good, half the time. HPM Main chat has been my "home" for a while. I guess I'm just... wishing they'd disappear. Fat chance...
This is what I get for forcing myself to be social I guess.
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Ahh, I don't go in the chats much because I feel like I would annoy the people that have been there from the beginning, as you've said. I'm extremely sorry if I have upset you, and if I ever am in the chats I'll try to remain conscious of what I say. I really hope that you do stay though, you're one of the people that inspired me to join HPM, honestly ;w;. So, sorry for us newbies ruining your fun, if I am one that has ruined it I am sorry, and I do hope that you feel better in the chats, or at least come to terms with a decision to make things better for you ;v;
sorry if you don't want to hear this type of thing from newbies that you don't know at all either. I just thought it'd be appropriate to apologize, but if I've bothered you, sorry OTL.
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Nahh. if you ain't in the chat much at all, my beef ain't with you, most likely.
sorry this took so long, I was out of town for a while with no connection~ =w=
Not agreeing/ignoring you, promise. =w=
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ahh no problem. thanks for clarifying! ;v;
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I apologize if I've made the HPM chat uncomfortable for you, Pocki. >< I know I come off as a self pitying ass, but I'm trying to get better about it, honest. >< Still, I just wanted to apologize, and I hope everything in the chats gets better for you.
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Nah, you're fine. c:> <3
Like I've said before, it's mostly just some of the newbies... v^v;;
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*hugs* Well, if you ever need a somewhat sane person to chat with, you can come to me. I'm not much help though.
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Pocki, if I ever do anything to make you upset or uncomfortable - please let me know straight away. The last thing I want to do is hurt you.
If there's anything I can do to help, don't hesitate to let me know. I'll do my best to ease the situation.
Hang in there; it's not worth letting a few bad grapes sour your experience.
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I would tell you. ;w; <3;
It's not you, it's definitely not you. ;3; <333
And yeah, I am... it's just gotten so much orz
I had to vent a little bit...
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Some people are just like that. Doesnt matter whether they make you irate or a mixed feelings, ignore them. Whenever they do get on your nerves, lock yourself out of the world.
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We should just make our own private club and only let cool people in, because I feel the exact same way. ;3;
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x100
I know how it feels, I feel the exact same way about it too- I find it really hard to go or stay in the chats nowadays because of all the people I don't know and they can get on my nerves. That's why I haven't stepped foot in the PKMNC RP in ages and I'm considering leaving- everything just went downhill for me once all these new people flooded into that group. And I was really afraid it was going to happen in HPM too and unfortunately, it kind of did, but I just don't want to let this one go. It's because you and all the other wonderful people I've befriend that I'm trying my best to not falter though my lacking visits. You're not the only one, but I hope it gets better for you sweetheart! ;u;
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We just need a little niche in PKMC, you & I both... ;w;' (I've been thinking about dropping that one, too)
And-- well... after all these reassurances, I'm pretty sure I'm not leaving... ;w;'
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That sounds so nice, if only... ;u;
Well, I'm happy that you're not leaving HPM, that would make me sad.
But yeah, it's kind of sad to see I'm not the only one and such too;;;
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If I left HPM I think I'd be really sad, too. ;3; <3
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I sure hope I haven't been one of the people that's bothered you, I can say some pretty dumb shit in the chats. I sure hope you work through these feelings, if you have friends there you should stay! Don't let idiots (even if they are me) ruin it for you... (and if it is me, please tell me when I'm annoying you so I can stop @_@
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No, you're not. >A<;;
I can tell the difference when someone is joking or being serious, usually. It's mostly a newbie thing... behaviors and whatnot...
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Ohh mmmff, I'm far too paranoid. ...And I think I know what you mean now and I absolutely agree. @_@;
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Yeah things have seemed to changed with the newbies, it seems like some of them take it more seriously than just have fun with it. I mean with the people from the beginning it kind of just became a family, we all knew each other and it was small.
But you're not the only one, it's why I just lurk the chats now because HPM was not only my first RP group but it's given me more of a reason to get on DeviantArt, I never had friends on here before and now I do because of HPM and I hope to never lose them.
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;w;' <3
Yeah... this was the first place since my early swim years where I felt at home... vAv;
I really don't want to leave because of the friends I made, too. Sure, Andy & Ruh would still be there for sure, but I'd probably lose touch with a lot of y'all. ;3;'
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Yeah and I really like a lot of the people in the chat (I'm just too shy to talk half the time)
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Hnnnrg.
I'm never much in the chats, but the mood in there has changed recently, and I can't exactly say I'm fond of it either. But if you're not having fun, you're not having fun. No hard feelings, whatever you do.
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Ohuhm... thanks, adopt.
I mean, I'll probably keep coming in there... I love that place too much to ever quit, but... ugh, they're just too much sometimes. vAv;
Just makes me wonder if it's only me, you know?
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