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Mistress-Inu — 8.19.08
Published: 2008-08-20 08:02:45 +0000 UTC; Views: 170; Favourites: 1; Downloads: 3
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Fourteen years of writing and I still don't get it right.My urges to write are countered by the ever-growing fear that I may not write well enough for one to take interest and read deeper, deeper, deeper into the meaning, enough so that they must practically claw away the actual words and letters and flesh and muscle and nerves. I am afraid that instead of using a wide-ranged vocabulary, as I like, so that my tales do not become repetitive just as the weekly garbage pick-ups, I will use and overuse the same words and meanings and concepts, time and time again, and will not realize it until it is far too late to change anything. (But I am such a silly thing, aren't I? I can change my prose at any time; it's not a big deal. But do feel free to blame my paranoia.) So I become picky, and pickier still as I go, as minutes pass and meld into hours, while I try in the beginnings of my writing process to spread my vocabulary instead of just writing and then editing the work to make it better.
Is that a hardship of being a writer, or is that simply the nonsense of a picky little me?
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Writing is somewhat neurotic, I think. The whole thing is just a neurotic process. Do you ever hear people who play sports talking like this? Yet I think you captured the kind of thing all writers feel - that intense frustration, that gut feeling that we all secretly know we're not good enough.
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I'd have to agree. Lately I've been feeling insanely strong urges to write, but I worry that it won't turn out the way I thought and the inspiration slowly fades away.
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I think you just have to brace yourself and write anyways, because in my experience it never turns out the way it was - writing always evolves onto paper differently than what was in my head.
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Hmm, very true.
Thanks. (:
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Aww, I love your writings, Rei. 
That's kinda how I am about my art. I once was easily discouraged when something didn't come out the way I wanted it to... then just deleted the whole thing. I never got anywhere from that. (Partially why I had my art slump and left for a while...) But now I mostly just keep myself going.. no matter how bad I want to delete it all and start over.
None of this may make sense.... sorry, Rei.
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- Yeah, I really need to start doing that more instead of trying to make everything so... perfect.
No, it does make sense, hun. <3 Really. And I get where you're coming from.
And, I've learned from this. :] Thank you~
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I'm just gonna suggest it again and for any other writer who reads this, read Stephen King's On Writing. It is encouraging and honest. You'll never get over the fear of bad writing, but King gives you a permission slip to keep trying.
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- I actually am currently read that. It's great.
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I think it's both?
with the want for a piece to be as perfect as can be before editting? Like, so perfect you practically don't have to edit at all.
I think that's what everyone wants when they start the attempt to write, right?
..does that make any sense? rofl.
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- Actually, you hit the nail right on the head, hun.
That's how I always try to write. Lately though I've been telling myself in the beginning of a process, "You'll edit it afterward, just fucking write it out already", but I never end up following that rule.
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Yay! I wasn't just blurting out random crap when I was three-quarters-asleep |D
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- Nope. Made perfect sense.
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I think it has to do with being the OCD-editor type (lol, this sounds like pokemon)
Anywho, I have the same problem. Actually, my bff Jill does too, but she still manages to churn out the prettiest pieces known to man.
I don't know wtf is wrong with her.
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I knoooooooow.
I don't know what's with her.
I'm betting secret magical writing fairy.
...That, or an alien.
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Its the hardship of being a writer. For my own experience, which is not great, i get inspiration, then i urge to write. I do not plan to write.
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- That would be my problem: Whenever I have the urge to write, I try to force myself to come up with an idea, or just to write in general, and it becomes frustrating because my mind isn't ready to.
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Yeah, dont try to write, i find is the best approach. try to imagine things, things that are special, or important to you, and wait until the idea is there.
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- *nods* That's usually how it works.
Thanks. c:
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