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garnet-lynx [2014-02-16 14:20:44 +0000 UTC]

I love the idea here. Powerful

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molnareszter In reply to garnet-lynx [2014-02-16 17:43:41 +0000 UTC]

I'm glad you do, thanks!! :3 ((:

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WilliamDallwitz [2014-02-12 23:56:40 +0000 UTC]

amazing

so much power in simple black ink


www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1Vn7c…

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molnareszter In reply to WilliamDallwitz [2014-02-13 22:23:32 +0000 UTC]

Thanks so so much!! (:


And thank you for the lovely music (: I see you like piano (: /Me too (:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=LGs_vG…

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WilliamDallwitz In reply to molnareszter [2014-02-13 23:32:30 +0000 UTC]

Ooh, a fellow piano enthudiast! Let me devote this to you:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=0dPS-E… .


I've been practicing all month, almost fully learnt it now. I can't seem to be able to relaz my hands as much as I should, however... I'm so afraid I might make a mistake that my whole body stiffens up and I can't play. 


Have you ever experienced this with your drawing and painting? For me it's all too often.

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molnareszter In reply to WilliamDallwitz [2014-02-15 20:16:28 +0000 UTC]

Oh nooo, this song is one of my favorites!! *u* I guess you've seen the movie. /?/


Oh dear, I just realized you play the piano then, so awesome!! I wish I had any sense for music haha : P Oh yes, the stress from the worrying of making a mistake can be truly big. I guess I have times like that too. But the thing that can make me take things less seriously and so stress less about them, is thinking about that how tiny thing this whole thing is, my life, my mistakes in the Universe : P just thinking, who cares, really?
I guess overthinking doesn't help-though I do it a lot : P-, so just calm down, and think of the bigger picture, maybe that will help (:

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WilliamDallwitz In reply to molnareszter [2014-02-15 22:51:35 +0000 UTC]

Oh, I am glad to hear that this piece is one of your favourites! Coincidences are so amazing sometimes, no?


And I agree with you about stress. Some people might care and even actively get between me and the process of creating, but I usually don't get too annoyed by them. It's just that I seem to have such a deeply-rooted desire for some sort of perfection, even though I don't believe anything can ever be perfect (in the sense that perfection would be death, for me at least); I want to draw a line on paper and in five minutes later have a Rembrant finished - it's impossible, I know, but why do I demand this so hard from myself? 


And hate me afterwards?


I really haven't answered these questions yet. But I'm getting closer, something tells me.


I'd like to share with you one of my most favourite works of art, not only in music but also in photography, filmmaking, painting and everything in general:


www.youtube.com/watch?v=LvZQOY…


I really cannot describe how deeply it affected me. If you feel this piece in everything it has to tell you then you have understood a great deal of me - and my quirky, complicated, meaningless art.

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molnareszter In reply to WilliamDallwitz [2014-02-16 13:42:49 +0000 UTC]

Well, if you believe in coincidences then they are hehe : P


Well that's interesting indeed o: I think you shouldn't be that hard on yourself (: But I guess that's just how you are : P (:

But you really shouldn't hate yourself for this (: I'm not too sure what you feel for wanting more than what you have, because I'm kinda the opposite, I usually rather expect the least from myself... that's also not too good I guess, because I'm probably not doing anything with a really full heart, after all I try not to quite care much about anything/but not anyone/. I guess we should find the middle way, when we could do just a little bit better from carelessness but a little bit worse from perfection hehe. (: Maybe it's just practice and time we need to experience our limits?


It was a nice little film (: I like black and white pictures, and this film was like some moving pictures, capturing the nice moments how cameras do, but still moving. (:


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WilliamDallwitz In reply to molnareszter [2014-02-17 11:48:24 +0000 UTC]

Oh, I deeply believe in coincidences... chance and random incidents all around me, or so I think, anyway.


Practice is indeed the only way, I agree. For that it takes time and perseverence, time and constant exercise - it's not easy on the soul or the body, but the outcome will be more than worth it, I believe. Probably the scariest part in practice is doing something too much and ending up haveing forgotten what your original style is... beside practice, thus, one needs to experiment quite a lot - and quite freely!


(Glad you liked the film! )

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molnareszter In reply to WilliamDallwitz [2014-02-20 21:11:25 +0000 UTC]

Oh yes, I agree deeply with the experimenting part, it's something quite scary yet exciting, to have the risk of messing sg up but knowing that not doing it won't take you forward...  o:

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bitterblue26 [2014-02-10 04:32:25 +0000 UTC]

reminds me a lot of myself… beautiful, your work is stunning (:

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molnareszter In reply to bitterblue26 [2014-02-10 20:41:11 +0000 UTC]

Aww D:

Thank you very much!! ((:

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bitterblue26 In reply to molnareszter [2014-02-10 23:40:07 +0000 UTC]

Awww haha thanks  

And it's true, your work is incredible! Please post more soon (:

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molnareszter In reply to bitterblue26 [2014-02-10 23:40:42 +0000 UTC]

(((:

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futuerMANGAK [2014-02-06 18:27:08 +0000 UTC]

wow .you always amaze me

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molnareszter In reply to futuerMANGAK [2014-02-06 21:34:15 +0000 UTC]

Aw, I'm glad you say that!! ;u; (((:

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Krisipoke [2014-02-05 22:02:01 +0000 UTC]

Úúú ez de menő D: Egyébként kicsit olyan, mintha ilyen halfarkak lennének :v

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molnareszter In reply to Krisipoke [2014-02-05 22:06:13 +0000 UTC]

meh : P értem... ;u;

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MonroeIsAwesome [2014-02-05 20:21:10 +0000 UTC]

So cool!!!

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molnareszter In reply to MonroeIsAwesome [2014-02-05 20:26:41 +0000 UTC]

Thanks so much!! ((:

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