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Published: 2009-06-05 19:25:50 +0000 UTC; Views: 105; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 0
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Past and present collide,Sending ripples through my mind,
Thereβs a girl I once knew,
And standing in front of me here is you,
Few differences,
So many similarities,
Sad and alone, the girl I knew,
Sad and lonely when she left,
So many years ago, for two months,
Parents were less than kind,
The people she knew were nearly as bad,
And off she went on a break,
And two months later,
Sheβd changed completely,
Alcoholic and drug addict,
And engaged to be married,
At the same age too,
And my fearful question to myself is,
Will you be the same?
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That sucks I knew a person like that. Not as severe a change as that but he changed enough to become a starger to me. I hope there is something that could change whats happend...I know how hard it is to try to find some way to make contact again...let alone try to help...It will deffinatley take time...and alot of worry and possibly depression...arg I'm sorry for the loss
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The change wasn't as sudden as I wrote...(though she was only dating for a few months before she got engaged to her fiance), the alcoholism was there a bit, and the drugs...well, with alcoholism oft comes another vice, or so they say...I know it's unlikely I could have done anything to stop her..but it still keeps me up at night, knowing that I sat back and watched while doing almost nothing....
Your condolences are very much appreciated....
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I understand...you don't know how to help...What your doing wrong..Why they had to resort to what they did. Then when it's doen and see what has happend you wonder why the hell you didnt stop them from being so friggin stupid.
You yell at them they leave you, you try to be caring they say your exagerating...you try to just be there but you cant bear to watch...I'm sorry I don't know what to tell you to do... I honestly don't know what You can do...She needs to change and choose to on her own or theres no hope for her.
Anything to try to help...
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I've recognized that. There were so many things I could have done though. It was in my power to stop so much of what she was doing, and I can't but think that if I'd opened my damn eyes earlier, I could have stopped her from doing the things she did....That's the past though, and my chances have come and gone as surely as the girl I once knew. Her story will not be a happy one though, from the things I hear, her life continues to spiral downwards, and despite what her real friends say, she continues to follow those who would corrupt her and use her at their whims...But like I said, my time in her life has come and gone.
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...You didn't see it before because you didn't want to beleive she could become who she did. Go as far as she did.
I'm sorry that she's lost..and I'm sorry she continues to be lost...but i know that just saying she's not in your life or your not in her's does not make it hurt any less to think that you could have stoped what had happend with her.
I know eveactly how you feel. My friend had taken up drugs and drifted from me...He didn't beleive anything I told him...I was always' just jealous of him because he had new friends and he had more fun'...
I wanted so badly to help...but it was to late...
I'm sorry for you.And I'm deeply sorry for her to.
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As I am deeply sorry for you, and him. But the past is in the past, right, and to focus, dwell upon it and live in it would be to lose oneself completely...
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Thank you...
Yes...dwelling on the negatives is deffinatly what one wants to do. Yet I can't help but think of him once in a while and wonder why I didn't do what I could have done....
Oh well life goes on yes? ...or so they say...
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Hmmm...I oft do the same...nothing beats beating yourself over what might have been...and yes, life moves apace whether we want it to or not, and if we do not open our eyes to the scene around us, we may miss a chance to redeem ourselves, at least in a small part....
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Mhmm, gotta love self guilt...
And without failure there can not be triumph right?
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happy...I'll go for any save for sad...
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hmm I think there should be an optomism class you could take or something lol
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lol, there is...people call it love
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...Sure or hell...either way... sorry I am a non beleiver
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You...don't believe in love?
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Currently...I don't think I do... It just seems if its so euphoric then why does it always end in so much pain?...sorry I'm probaly the most depressing person on this subject...
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Nope, probably not. Love isn't meant to be a mere euphoric sensation, not the way everyone talks about it, and not the way it's portrayed. Love is...more a state of circumstance than an emotion. Like everything else, it has it's positives and it's negatives. But...being in love is painful, and the ending of such moreso...however...without it, it's impossible to truly live, reduced only to surviving, and that's a place no one should ever be...
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Guess so...It just seems if it causes so much pain and suffering than whats the point?
Either you get your happy ending, then it's shatered or your feelings are never returned... It just seems a waste of time if you have to recoop after every encounter...
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But that's how one grows as a person...I suppose this is one of the times where our views will diverge. I believe that, yes, love is painful, and you rarely get your happy ending, but it's worth it, if only for the times of joy you salvage.
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I guess if you wanted to go optomistic on me at this point I wouldn't blame you. Most people think I'm stupid for being a non beleiver but to tell you the truth... I haven't always been. This so called, love, created a non beleiver out of me...
And yes I know that sounds stupid coming out of a 15yr olds mouth...or fingers whatever, but its the truth...
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lol, not optomistic, I'm just lucky enough to have seen the effects on people...and it doesn't sound stupid. Age doesn't really matter at all.
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I haven't been exposed to such high levels of affection...it seems in my family that 'love usually ends in divorce and split up children...
Personally I haven't had alot experience with it but I guess non beleivers can be converted over time right?
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lol, converted sounds too harsh...maybe shown other sides of life
And neither have I. My relationship experience is nil
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lol either way
Literally nil?
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At 16, I have absolutely zero experience when it comes to non-platonic relationships.
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Hmm thats surprising, you seem like a great guy. I dunno why you don't have any experience... doesn't make sence to me lol.
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lol, it makes sense to me. I've only ever been seriously attracted to three people in my entire life...the first destroyed any remnants of her life and what she used to be, the second is uninterested in me, and the third lives a thousand miles away and would prefer to remain friends because of the distance, which is understandable....that, and I'm not exactly eye candy either, eh
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I see weell your still young. eh?
Again jumping to appearence, tisk tisk, I'm not either but I ignore it. So I love my sweats and big sweaters, screw you world! and its vision of beauty lol
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lol, yes, huzzah for deviation!
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lol, I meant deviating, but you get what I mean
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Mhmm I may be s-l-o-w but I can put two and two together lol
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lol, just making sure
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lol I know, just another impulse comment lol
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Mhmm sometimes good things. So sometimes they are worth it lol. And they'r fun.
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lol, can't say they don't make things interesting
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That is freaky...... But I doubt history will repeat itself if you do something about it. Or if the other girl is wise in her choices.
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Oh yes, so easy to do something about it, isn't it? :rolleyes:
And I've learned that teenagers are anything but wise in their decisions.
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hey! I'm a teenager! And I am wise most of the time in my decisions! And you can change things! Everything is up to you! So dont give me that crap! So if you wanna do something about it! Say something! Before it's too late!
...........Sorry.........I dont like to hear people say that kind of stuff......If you want something changed or done, just do it.......
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Yes, and I happen to be a teenager as well, 16 years young. I believe I've enough insight into the generation to determine the truth.
And don't say the everything is up to me. Few things are decided by a single individual, whether they be child or adult. The vast amount of variable thoughts and actions of others decide so much more for a single person than they do themselves.
Say something before it's too late? That is left for those who have the strength and courage, and not for those who lack.
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.....I dont really have anything left to say about this.....
You are right in oh so many respects......But you would be surprised the damage and help one individual can do......
Not everybody runs off and drinks gets and engaged........
If you look for similarities in two people you will see them. Don't look at how they are alike, these are 2 different people we are talking about.... So.... try to act like they are.
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I know the power of a single individual, but I also know that there are so many things that inhibit action.
And while they may be two seperate people, their circumstances, attitudes and decisions have been much the same, albeit with positive variations from time to time.
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It's been an off and on kind of thing. She's engaged to a real jerk who's been in the habit of cheating on her, but last I heard, yes, she's still engaged...
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