HOME | DD
nevs89 — Shades Of Gray
Published: 2011-09-11 16:34:05 +0000 UTC; Views: 417; Favourites: 15; Downloads: 13
Redirect to original
Description
Today is an emotional day for me. This is the first year that I haven't gone home to NYC for this day and i'm feeling a bit guilty. I couldn't sleep last night, so this is what came out.Related content
Comments: 73
Thank you! I like working with one shade and playing with the light. It's fun.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
I do like how thick and jolted the lines are..just something about to two thick blotches just sort of seeming to hover over the chaos, away from where the point is down at the bottom right. It creates in interesting intensity, like something is out of your control or drifting away.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Well, damn... that was insanely insightful.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
hehe *^_^*...sorry I tend to go over the top letting myself get into something and my nerves build up. I feel like it's what people would appreciate but in the moment I forget when to stop lol *-_-*
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
No, that's quite alright. It was fairly accurate.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
lol ok *^_^*..to keep from doing this, I need to do more of my own art some of it makes me uncomfortable. That's why I think so hard on this side I guess, if I would open up more *-_-*.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
That's why I like abstracts so much. Even if someone is spot on with their guess of the meaning, the artist can turn around and say "No, actually, I was thinking about puppies"
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I can see that ^_^, that's what I like about surrealism as well. The answer isn't what is important it's the emotion. That's the thing, I would almost call my drawings, from my standpoint, hyper real just because they are really straight forward but for me it's so much so that becomes extreme to me as to where others just don't see it lol *^_^*. I guess that's why I do it, an underlying sense of unsettling nature.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I'm never sure if the emotions behind my work is clear or not, occasionally someone will point it out, but I often get comments from people locally such as "well, that's cute" or "isn't that pretty." Which confuse me.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
haha, I think that's more a product of deviant art than your art. This place is such an open community yet it wants to promote itself as high class, it just really conflicts with itself. Sometimes groups help filter out those passive comments but not usually. I think the best way to go about it here is no that you are getting exposure but you have to watch out for the downloads and whatnot :/.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
What's up with the downloads? I have one piece that has upwards of 20 downloads, but zero print purchases.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
That's the thing. It's best to put tags on them so they can't literally download them. But, the honest answer is they probably download them to get the full size picture, and then if they really want it, click it and save it :/. I was putting tags on some of my pictures at one point but it's kind of a catch 22 to me because I want people to see my stuff but, to me it really disrupts the flow of what you are seeing, but I don't want to pictures to actually be stolen either XP. I hate thinking about.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Yeah, that's my main reason as well. I don't want to ruin the visual effect, but like you I don't want my art stolen.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
It is really confusing says it *-_-*. Through all this, I've wanted to start being seen but i've also become less materialistic. I'm very confused at how to approach the whole thing.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
You could always hide under a large rock. ^ ^
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
haha nah, it's not like that, I'm more talking about the art not about me hiding myself. Sometimes I do feel that way some days though :3, but I don't think I will ever resort to that ^_^.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
(: Only joking. There aren't many rocks around here that are large enough for that, but I must confess on many days the prospects of staying in my bed with the door to my room locked sounds pretty damn good.
Do you meditate? Or would you consider starting? I know a few people who find this helpful to be able to start an artistic project without judging themselves and just going at it.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
oh I'm sure if you were intrigued to go that route you could explore and find one that inspired you to try X3...but it wouldn't feel all that great. But I agree, some days are just better left untouched, but they lead to some of the best inspiration it seems in one way or another.
I try to meditate, because the idea seems helpful to how I function lol. My mind races so much, that when I try to do it, it feels great but I can feel the intensity ramp up immediately. It is hard to shut down. I get kind of itchy/edgy and emotional when I really try to go through with it for a good extended period. I feel like we are in a time that a lot of people could really benefit from something like this though, so ADD and everything. A lot of artists I like promote the kind of thinking. David Lynch, Steven Wilson, Tool etc.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I will set out on a journey to find a large rock at once! See you in a few months (:
I had that trouble with meditation and mindfulness practice when I first started, but I found that the more I did it, the less overwhelmed I became afterwards.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
haha, no, you don't need a large rock 
Well, that settles it then, I guess I just need to get back in to a solid routine again, I seriously just lost the practice, and routine. Got lazy :/. I really liked it though, it overwhelmed me, in a helpful way it seemed. That's was part of the problem almost :3.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Routines usually work best.
I took a DBT class a few moths ago and meditation and mindfulness was a big part of it. It's done wonders for my creative process as well as general concentration.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
haha
Very nice, and I see so you do it regularly then :3? I really want to do it, I just would have to do it late or at strange times...make time lol to fit it in this situation here XP that's what I don't like, but that is part of it to huh X3. I can really see it helping it clear your mind and help you be more free spirited with your creativity. I'm trying to get there...I was hoping my drawing was sort of meditative...but it was only part of the equation lol *^_^*. As big as it actually felt.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Yeah, I do it out of necessity. My life is a bit hectic. I have 2 jobs (both part-time), I go to school full-time, I have become my brother's care taker since I live the closet to him, and I live with 3 insane bitches while attempting to maintain my own sanity. If I didn't meditate regularly, my head would explode.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I see, very commendable. It looks like part time work is what I am going to be doing as well, if I can even get the calls for them XP. I'm just sick of job hunting, all together, I would just go back to my first job ever and wash dishes if it would help pay for my needs. I just want to be productive again so I can free my mind for art, and not think about applications.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I'm sorry, this may sound mean, although that's not my intention, but if you're an artist, and I think you are, you will never be able to free yourself from it. Artists can never escape being and thinking creatively. But having something else to focus on is nice, sometimes. Best of luck with the job search.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
No, I don't think it's mean 
And thanks for the luck.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Exactly, no turning back. I think that each piece an artist does, each break into a new idea, no matter if they like it or not is an improvement and better than their last.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I like that idea ^_^ because once you've released it you have already done it, don't do it again, learn from it and try a new angle on the idea. Keep expanding and learning. That is like what you are chewing me out for and what I'm afraid to say...vulnerability is scary but it feels amazing. I'm at a point I don't know how to carry it, or maybe not know what to do with it :3.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I'd have to agree with that. It kind of like jumping into a new situation. You feel anxious about what will come of it, but excited at the same time. I don't know about you, but i'm one of those people that agonizes over things with pros and cons, but I eventually go for it. It's kind of what I imagine bungee jumping is like.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I like that, yeah I would be like that and that's what led to this. I would love to do one of those things lol maybe more like sky diving. You are really tempting me to talk about what I don't want to talk about *^_^* -_-. It's like a direct metaphor for the drawings I just did for the snake charming characters. I didn't even finish the background on it because someone just had to push me and I had to trust the rope :3 and realize how good the freedom felt. The racing heart and knowing you can do it. From there and the others the adrenaline didn't stop but you knew people where there you were going to do it again but you trusted the rope slightly more this time but you still question it and it's still very new and vulnerable/questionable so you do it similar but eventually the adrenaline catches up and you just have to move on and come back and realize your progress...and least that's where it goes for me...I want to do more or take a new direction but it consumed me completely with those few I did it was very new but almost cleansing...I had never felt it so strong before.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Darn, that pretty much describes the last 6 years of my life. It also makes me really want to go skydiving.
Really though, you did give the perfect metaphor for the creative process. It's a series of "incredible highs followed by unbearable lows followed by incredible lows followed by unbearable highs." That's art and tapping into your personal creative need.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
lol I don't want to do bungee jumping so much, just to little holding you in, I can't convince myself enough *^_^*, but I REALLY want to skydive, you should do it :3. You communicate really well *-_-* and I like the bluntness lol and that's going to be the key thing here. I'm hiding from it -_-, I have been for a long time spirals comfort me, if I really let myself get into true creative form, expect more snakes in the outset. but not like you see in the front of deviant art, there is more underneath, it's been growing for a long time, but I have to get the confidence :3 *^_^*.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I think I like the risk in bungee jumping, well the idea of it. I haven't actually gone either bungee jumping or sky diving. Also bungee jumping is cheaper. I think having something, no matter how small or flimsy,holding me in, makes me feel safer. Kind of like a security blanket. If something happens in the middle of the night, that blanket is going to do very very little good, but that doesn't mean i'm going to stop gripping the damn piece of fabric.(:
Thanks, by the way. Blunt is the only way I know how to be. I think it off-puts a lot of people, but it's a fixed point in my personality, no changing it ever.
I wish I could give some pointers on confidance, but I can't. I don't really have much of it myself. I suppose it's something that comes with finding personal acceptance of your work.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
You just made a very strong point, and I think it's beautiful. Maybe it's just not that area that gets me. I mean I do want to skydive some day....maybe I just haven't reached the peak where bungee jumping does it for me yet :3. because things like rock climbing and all that are amazing experiences to me. It's all a risk it just depends how far you want to go
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Actually, I think you communicated your point quite well. I understood it, at least. (:
I've always found snakes fascinating, but never frightening. But I think the thing of tangling with something wild and potentially dangerous, something that could cause one harm, but facing as a casual force is very intriguing in your drawings.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
The way you said that means a lot
I'm glad it comes through though, it means a lot because it also has a lot to do with the girl the snake is involved with, but it is meant to be universal but I figured a lot of people knew who the chipette's where :/ :3. Jeanette being clumsy but strong willed and dragged into the situation makes it such a perfect set up for this message especially for the key to letting go...and the underlying vulnerability of, I don't know...<3 -_-shoulders ->biceps->(arms)*-_-* but just remaining calm she ends up strong and less materialist, I don't know lol X3.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
There are lot of interesting stories and pieces of art surrounding snakes. They have a mysterious presence about them. In many stories they are sources of evil, but I think a lot of symbolism lays in them and I was struck by your pieces when I saw them, although I didn't understand the use of the chipette until now.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I think snakes have mostly been misrepresented and abused in a lot of things. They can be very knowledgeable and mysterious personalities outside of just being evil I think. The word I want to use is Earthly. If they get angry, things happen, if you play well, things are great, you just have to go with the tide on their temperament. I've always seen being wrapped up as a very intimate process as far as I can remember *-_-*...and, well, while I know that is still and always will be fantasy talking 
I'm glad my pictures stood out to you among the thousands of others, that really means a lot :3 Any stand out specifically? just curious. You don't have to answer, but it would be something to talk about :/. Jeanette is a muse basically that sort spawned this whole thing. The strong will power that ultimately conceals her vulnerability is what defines the moment with the snake, and why it just all works.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
[link] this is the one that stands out the most, I couldn't remember the name off the top of my head, though, so I went to your gallery to find it. I think it's the look on her face that is the most striking. It's more perplexed than fearful. I found that interesting even though I am not afraid of snakes in the least, if a giant one wrapped me up, i'd be at least a little panicky. I know that's not really the point, but that is what really got my attention.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I'm really glad you like that one :3...I was really trying to throw all the different ideas into one thing with that one because it's one of the spots that meant a lot to me next to Composure, which is why I had trouble finishing it and did it first.
You're explanation really means a lot too because I feel like my method for this was really taking some shape *-_-*. A lot happens in a very short amount of time with this moment for her, that packed a lot of expression into it which is partly why I love it, and partly why I hate it lol and wanted to tackle this. She is perplexed at this second and that's why I love it. Before this was Bliss and before that was scared to even be there :3. It's between her and the snake here and at this moment she is realizing where she is again with her arms being pinned and eyes sort of hazed. If you see composer that is pretty much right after this one :3. Basically all these pictures come from the same moment but I wanted to capture the different context :3.
I really wanted to use colors that focus on the moment of her expression and everything rather than what I was actually seeing but being so new to it I didn't stray to much on these...I really want to work on these again more personally.
Another thing I love about this, though is that the snake isn't trying to harm her, but like you say, she would never be able to know that *-_-*. I think the rising tension of the arms is a beautiful thing on the side as well *-_-* but beside the point :/.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
You definitely did do an amazing job with the colour scheme. That was another thing that drew me to the drawings. they're happy sort of colours, but they bring on a new sense on feeling in the drawings with the actions. I also really like your technique, different drawings to show a different moment of the same figure, kind of like freeze frames.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Thanks, ultimately I wanted to bring out a good sense of light in these and learn that concept. That's what was going on in the one you like
You are really good at reading it *^_^* I really like it. These are really all about the confidence, expression and vulnerability all at once in more way than one :3. I just consider the the two where she is being wrapped up her opus because she was finally in her own world but her attention is being intensely teased and she has kind of goes into awe...and then the two where she is dealing with the situation she is trying to figure out what's going on while being in an extremely vulnerable situation that she just sort of has to try and feel out and go along with. I like the snakes AND her to feel aware or smart too, not mean or pervy. I don't know if it worked lol but that's what I want to get to like if she is erratic and can't extreme it will squeeze but if she can control herself it will be elated and ending things in her favor.
But, while that whole part is the most personal to deal with, it wouldn't come together right if there wasn't Senses of Reality. Maybe there isn't enough information but I like what's going on here after everything is all said and done. Since the other two girls are pre-occupied be she is essentially trying to save the moment after all things considered *-_-*.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I really enjoy and admire the amount of thought you put into your drawings. It's very interesting.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
thanks, I feel the same way about you...I can quit doing this, I just appreciate it
*-_-*, you seem like you really saw something in it. It's a good talk for things to come to -_-...:3.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I did see and feel what was behind the drawings, although some of it needed a little explanation from you before I understood it fully.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
haha I see, and it makes sense :3. I was just so into doing the main four that I finally get into wanting to get into doing others but didn't think about the connection so much just trying to get away from her constriction situation...thinking to much about what people are thinking instead of my thought process *-_-* :3. I think I need to go back and do more now *^_^* to sort of get back into practice and get used to expressions and movement and things like that :/...although I want to stay abstract...this is more deep seeded.
Any others that are confusing?
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
No, I didn't find any of the others confusing. The only thing that threw me off was the chipmunk, but I get it now.
Have you just let yourself explode onto a pive of paper? Scribbling can be a good start for it, I know it sounds silly, but it can also be fun and you can make it creative also going at a canvas or a large piece of paper Pollack style is incredibly releasing. Just letting things drip and fall wherever they happen to fall.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
No I haven't really tried that one, I should it seems like it would be fun. I just didn't think about the kind of take it would get. Just always thought about to many other things...as it probably seems now X3 *^_^*
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
It is fun and you may find yourself getting deep and personal without realizing it.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
So you recommend using paint for this or does it really matter? Just wondering your opinion
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
| Next =>