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I made this by testing out my graphic editing skills (Thanks to for showing me how to do this~)

Right, now it's getting down into what I've been needing to say for a LONG time.

Guys, those who I call my friends... I miss you.... If any of you have been wondering why I never talk to you anymore, well I'll explain.

Over the past months, I've lost many friendships, merely by talking to them. I feel like I have a curse, and I don't want to lose any more friendships.. I feel like nobody wants me as a friend anymore, so I wanna talk to you guys, but then I realize I lose my friends by talking to them, if there is anybody who this mainly affects, there are three:

and the one that I hate myself for not speaking to

Alright, ready for the big kicker on this? I feel like I don't speak to you because of being kicked out of that and the numerous...... Mistakes I've made about it... I just feel like I can NEVER start a conversation because I'm a fucking socially awkward guy who never knows HOW to speak to people... I just feel like shit whenever I look down in that right corner and see who signs in, all because I know how I yearn to speak to you guys... But can never muster the courage to you.

Ryan/ , you've given me a guy that I can talk to about the stuff that I like and you'll understand it all, you became one of my closest friends because we connected almost instantly. I just feel like I can't talk to you because I feel like I can't talk about anything else in the world...
Alice/:icconsherlockgnomes:, you've given me a friend to go to when I'm lonely or down and need a helping hand, you've become one of my best friends because you care for me. I feel like I can't talk to you after what happened at the org... feel like most people there hold some sort of grudge on me...
and finally My big sister Krissy/ You became my best friend in the world in a matter on weeks, you cared for me, protected me and loved me. And I loved you back enough to want you as a sister..... I feel like I can't talk to you because......... Well, I don't know..... Our friendship is precious to me and I wish I had the courage to talk to you. I just feel like I'm not good enough for you, you're perfect in every way and... I'm just this socially awkward fucktard who doesn't know how to talk to a girl he loves.. Then this morning, when I found out you've been unhappy.... I felt my heart shatter... I began to cry for the first time this year... And I wanted to die... Because I never spoke to you, I didn't know you were unhappy and I couldn't comfort you... Right.... Rant over.... I'm gong to crawl away and wallow in self-loathing for an hour or so...

Description
I made this by testing out my graphic editing skills (Thanks to for showing me how to do this~)

Right, now it's getting down into what I've been needing to say for a LONG time.

Guys, those who I call my friends... I miss you.... If any of you have been wondering why I never talk to you anymore, well I'll explain.

Over the past months, I've lost many friendships, merely by talking to them. I feel like I have a curse, and I don't want to lose any more friendships.. I feel like nobody wants me as a friend anymore, so I wanna talk to you guys, but then I realize I lose my friends by talking to them, if there is anybody who this mainly affects, there are three:

and the one that I hate myself for not speaking to

Alright, ready for the big kicker on this? I feel like I don't speak to you because of being kicked out of that and the numerous...... Mistakes I've made about it... I just feel like I can NEVER start a conversation because I'm a fucking socially awkward guy who never knows HOW to speak to people... I just feel like shit whenever I look down in that right corner and see who signs in, all because I know how I yearn to speak to you guys... But can never muster the courage to you.

Ryan/ , you've given me a guy that I can talk to about the stuff that I like and you'll understand it all, you became one of my closest friends because we connected almost instantly. I just feel like I can't talk to you because I feel like I can't talk about anything else in the world...
Alice/:icconsherlockgnomes:, you've given me a friend to go to when I'm lonely or down and need a helping hand, you've become one of my best friends because you care for me. I feel like I can't talk to you after what happened at the org... feel like most people there hold some sort of grudge on me...
and finally My big sister Krissy/ You became my best friend in the world in a matter on weeks, you cared for me, protected me and loved me. And I loved you back enough to want you as a sister..... I feel like I can't talk to you because......... Well, I don't know..... Our friendship is precious to me and I wish I had the courage to talk to you. I just feel like I'm not good enough for you, you're perfect in every way and... I'm just this socially awkward fucktard who doesn't know how to talk to a girl he loves.. Then this morning, when I found out you've been unhappy.... I felt my heart shatter... I began to cry for the first time this year... And I wanted to die... Because I never spoke to you, I didn't know you were unhappy and I couldn't comfort you... Right.... Rant over.... I'm gong to crawl away and wallow in self-loathing for an hour or so...