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paperheartsyndrome — not everything is beautiful
Published: 2010-11-13 00:19:29 +0000 UTC; Views: 8149; Favourites: 300; Downloads: 49
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so here's the thing:you're not you
and i'm not me
and we're not us.
and all i know is that this
is heartbreak in the worse way
since right now
i know i can't have you
but ohdeargod please
i really do want you.
and maybe everything
is a circle so i'll get you
or will be okay since life goes onandonandon
or is about to completely destroy me
or is just...done with. complete. over.
but one thing i know
is that it is november
and i am so so sick
of saying goodbye
to things i love.
but it's true that
everything good
has an ending
and this is mine.
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This is really bittersweet and sad. I can feel the desperation and pleading at the same time as the resignation. Life is always a circle and there's always a chance next time around. Good job.
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I think this is exactly how I may feel come November.
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Which is super unfortunate! I'll hope for something better for you!
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Thank you 
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i like the halting flow of this. like when you know something has to be said and acknowledged but you don't want to say it or admit it to yourself, so the words are forced out a little at a time. that's what this is like. you did spacing really well here. and i like the run-on words, too.
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thank you so much!!
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You're most welcome!
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I cam relate so much to everything you write!
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I'm never sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. but being relateable is a good compliment (:
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thanks so much <3!!!
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Is it weird that the first part is catchy to say? "So here's the deal, you're not you and I'm not me and we're not us."
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mmm. i hope not. otherwise, i guess we're both pretty weird (:
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thanks. (:
it just feels that way somedays.
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This is really nice, took me away for a few moments. Lovely and emotive.
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i hope you're well, or, if you aren't, that you soon will be.
to me you are a very beautiful writer and person, and this is a lovely poem.
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Not bad. Good use of enjambment. The language is a little rough, but you put some creative concepts to use with sufficient effect that I'm mildly impressed. So very little of the poetry that makes it to the front page is good that it's a treat to see some of the real thing make it every now and again. I take my cool Atari hat off to you.
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i think i may well be in love with you and your words.
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Urgh, sumed up how I feel at the moment perfectly
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This is not nothing. This is a beautiful poem - spoken from deep within the heart
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I completely understand. I felt the same way quite recently
=/ i hope you get better.
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i'm glad you're writing again, and i think there are many of us who have had feelings like this. i'm certain that i have - so to me this isn't nothing. it's a shame when things have to end, especially the ones you don't want to happen... i know that all too well.
i hope these feelings will dissipate some time soon and be replaced by better ones. perhaps this winter will give way to spring eventually, and you will feel better again. there will be things for you that won't end, both good and bad, and i understand this. but there will be good things in between, and those are the things worth carrying on for. it's just sometimes they seem so far in the distance, you kind of get to the 'why bother' stage. but they might blind-side you, you never know.
the main thing is to keep carrying on and hoping for better things, and i hope you will. <3
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it's like you just said everything my heart didn't know how to put into words right now
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I like the way it sounds when I read it aloud.
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...it completely..portrais my feelings...great job...
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...it completely..portrais my feelings...great job...
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I really love this. I wish i could favorite it a million times
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I only want to say one thing: life has its way of making certain things happen to certain people - if I may say, it is more of an experiment, to see how much can one handle; I myself have lived through uncountable strikes, falls, strikes while on the ground, stampedes while on the ground facing down and so on... There is a saying too, which states the fact that one is given only the biggest amount of blows it can handle - I don't really know how much of it is true, but I do know that I've had a good couple of years when I was practically a walking autistic vegetable, and I was brought in that state by only a handful of people: the only people I considered close friends and the remainders of my family, therefore there was nothing and no one I could have lived for. But still, I went on, I don't know why, I just did - it's like when you don't know why you exist for, but you only know you exist...
Anyways, I don't how much of this you care, I only wanted to point out the fact that you are not the only one who's been through shit, and maybe, just maybe, you could find someone with whom you may emphasize, in order to learn how to cope with things better... This, and the fact that you are not alone.
I believe that when something happens, something that rips away all the good things from you - leaving aside the fact that you do need a time off to handle the feelings which overwhelm you, cope with them and in the end recharge your batteries - you must learn how to keep only the good memories, and leave the rest behind, the related regrets included. This may take time, but I believe that this is life's way of making us learn things, and become more wise...
Every interpretation you wrote up there is plausible from one point of view or the other - it depends on the nature of the negative event... And ok, you may consider this as being the end of you, but only temporarily; believe in you, and in the fact that you will get over it eventually - don't hope, but believe...
And last, but not least, I missed your beautiful writing...
P.S: Here's a 
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"but one thing i know
is that it is november
and i am so so sick
of saying goodbye
to things i love."
That's perfect, my house got foreclosed on this month and I saw it for the last time yesterday. So, this is perfect. I know the feeling you intended it for is supposed to be different, but I think you've portrayed a sense of loss quite universally.
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you say that not everything is beautiful...but these expression of words is undeniably beautiful.
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Sounds like my thoughts organized into words... the same reason I'm awake at 1am... not happily dreaming away.
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oh, honey, this is beautiful, but it scares me if you're in pain. are you okay? note me if you want to talk.
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I love that you write like you would talk, and whether or not this is really nothing, I love it.
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AHHHHH I'M SO HAPPY YOU'RE WRITING AGAIN! /dies of joy
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