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Published: 2011-07-30 08:45:08 +0000 UTC; Views: 8649; Favourites: 351; Downloads: 43
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Digital Speedpaint- 1 hour- Photoshop CS4Self portrait I did as a way of indulging in some art therapy.
Been dealing with cyclothemia (I was officially diagnosed monday)-- with the cyclothemia comes a lot of paranoia and paranoid thoughts.
So this was a way of getting some of the monsters off my back.
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Wow. Really a great drawing. Thank you for sharing your experiences.
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thats how paranoia AND schizophrenia feel....mix that with depression...but i love this so much!
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This describes paranoia, the feeling that someone is there never goes. This is awesome :3
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If you don't mind me asking is cyclothemia related to nyctophobia? I'm nyctophobia/paranoid and an insomniac. By the way, I love this picture<3
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yes. YES! I love it! the text is really bringing this work out "no one wants you".
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exactly how i feel when im in school! XD
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Art is a good way to just let it all out.I'm glad you can use it to help feel better.
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Sounds rough. =/
It's great that you're using art as a medium to help you, though.
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Petty, this is really amazing! And it's really good that you're using art to express yourself!
We're always here for you when you need it (bro)!
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Cyclothemia...? <8, That... sounds scary... ><
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Whoa...I zoomed in to read the words...is that how you feel all the time? I wish I could give you a hug or some words of encouragement, but all I can say is what everyone else has been saying already...good luck.
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That. Is. Fantastic. Your art is so amazing!
I just looked up the symptoms...
Well this isn't good...
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A beautiful piece, though I am very sorry you've been feeling bad. Just know: There are a few people on here who care
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You have really captured something in this picture. It will never get free again.
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Every time I do something, whatever it is, THAT SHADOW always haunts me. Forever.
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Don't listen to the paranoia angels! they LIIIIE
...I really hope this doesn't turn into full-blown bipolar disorder at any point. And does the cyclothemia have any bearing on your stomach/anxiety issues, or is that separate?
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Stunning piece. I hope you feel better soon, but I have to say I'm impressed at the bravery of expressing your worry on such a public forum. That's the kind of thing that's very easy to turn inward, and it just gets worse... (that monster looks very familiar to me.)
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I'm pretty paranoid myself. And this picture really captures that paranoid feeling.
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Wow. This sounds like me. Only you're much, much, MUCH better at expressing it in art.
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Wow, I often feel like this picture looks...If that makes any sense at all. Heh. Good job!
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This really covers the feeling of paranoia. Being a super paranoid freak myself, i can identify with this. I hope you can overcome your demons. <3
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Are you having constant mood swings? 'Cause you should try Lithium-Carbonate pills. I wouldn't know but they're supposed to help. Just sayin'.
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It's not a very easy thing to deal with. But you gotta stay strong, and not let it get the best of you.
Beautiful piece. Love the feel of it. Very dark and dramatic.
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very creepy sometimes i have those thoughts as well
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wow.... Why is it always the therapy/venting art that is the best?
looks amazing
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I had to comment because I'm suffering from Dysthymia (Which is, like Cyclothemia, a minor type of a better known mental disturbance - clinical depression, in this case) and once I drew a picture of the exact concept: The depression like a giant black worm, sucking the energy from me, only I drew myself as a child and had a sword in my hand - to defend myself against it. It was more of a hope, a different kind of therapy.
Don't try to search for it in my gallery as I don't have one, though. /:
Anyway, best wishes.
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That shade is full of it. You're awesome. He's just jealous that he can't be as cool as you.
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Honey. we all love you. We love what you do. We love who you are. PERIOD.
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(Looks on the net) Well at least it says you'll always be functioning. Yeah, I'm an aspie myself though.
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Good luck with all that! I hope you pull through.
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Just wiki'd it, and gotta say that it sucks. :\ When the episodes come up though, does doing this art work for you?
Try to keep happy when the episodes do come up though, and wish you the best of luck with them. (:> Kick the ass of that paranoid feeling. (:<
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Really well done.
For those that don't know: Cyclothymic disorder is a mild form of bipolar disorder (manic depressive illness) in which a person has mood swings over a period of years that go from mild depression to euphoria and excitement.
As you can see, it very much comes to life in this picture.
There is a history of anxiety in my bloodline, so I can sort of kind of say I can relate. Anxiety and paranoia go hand in hand most times, and I know what manic depression feels like, so again, I can sort of kind of say I can relate.
If you were just diagnosed, that means you've been living with it for most of your life, I'm guessing, as symptoms are said to be shown earlier on. It takes a strong-willed person to power through life with such a deterrent. You should be EXTREMELY proud of yourself.
I know things may seem bleak, but just now that it doesn't stay this way forever. Just keep powering through, the same way you have been, and things will get better. It might take awhile, but just trust and believe in yourself; it will.
You're an amazing artist, and again, love what you've made here. Great work.
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I know how to deal with that, get an eraser & erase his lips, that way hi'll just stand...ah, float ther & go MMmmmMMMmmM. lol
Ether that or stuff him in a genie bottle,
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Simply amazing, Petty. Art is always a good way of dealing with depression and paranoia.
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