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This is just a journal of sorts...that I could have uploaded AS a journal, but felt it was easier to upload traditionally. I also kind of like this image...reminds me of that Kermit meme..
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Sometimes, I wrestle with the validity of that statement.

Maybe it's the depressive episodes that occasionally come up, or the frequent comparing myself to other users here. So on, so forth.

I keep trying to tie myself and Karra as a character to a version of us that has been long dead. Keep in mind, for a writer I suck as putting thoughts like these into actual words...

I wonder if my characters and stories are actually good. Or enjoyable or have anything of value. I know what sells and what works on DA, and...I don't hit a few of those boxes. I am also very aware that they are all still in a developmental phase. Most creatives here have their characters and stories for the most part, ready to roll. They can do full stories with them, and I don't think I've hit that point yet. And I wonder if that's part of the issue too. My characters seemingly constantly shift and grow.

And, don't get me wrong. I LOVE these creations. The iterations they have now are the best they've ever been in my opinion...So then, why does this thought persist?

I know I am not revolutionary or doing anything too crazy. I am just a guy who likes making and writing cartoons. Most of which are PG-PG13, and I know most of those site leans to more mature, adult elements.

Perhaps it is the "superhero" angle that makes me so critical. I know superhero characters are REALLY big here, and there is SO much talent and creative people on this site bringing their characters to life. I also know that the tone, style, and direction of those stories are more mature than I tackle. In a sense, I would like to be a part of it, but at the same time I am aware that Karra's adventures don't quite hit that point. And that's okay. At least, it should be for me. But the creative side of me is lonely. Comparison is the thief of joy after all..AND I am not the most social, if you all have not noticed...

Some events have taken place in my life over the past three years that have really reset all progress I've made mentally. I've always had trouble being vulnerable or making friends, and I am not having to start all over. I'm a bit cold, maybe bitter too. I am trying. I am not here to make any excuses.

I want to improve my artwork and writing. I like pushing DAZ a little and using different morphs, materials, and effects to make my renders look more like cartoons. With brighter and somewhat flatter colors, simplistic shapes and figures. The last thing I am here to do is to make excuses for any shortcomings.

These feelings come and go, I know they are ones to ignore. But sometimes I wonder.

And now I want to re-imagine that one comic where Karra had an evil clone of her.. (In which, the process was botched, making the clone come out as a genderbent version of her..)

Description
This is just a journal of sorts...that I could have uploaded AS a journal, but felt it was easier to upload traditionally. I also kind of like this image...reminds me of that Kermit meme..
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Sometimes, I wrestle with the validity of that statement.

Maybe it's the depressive episodes that occasionally come up, or the frequent comparing myself to other users here. So on, so forth.

I keep trying to tie myself and Karra as a character to a version of us that has been long dead. Keep in mind, for a writer I suck as putting thoughts like these into actual words...

I wonder if my characters and stories are actually good. Or enjoyable or have anything of value. I know what sells and what works on DA, and...I don't hit a few of those boxes. I am also very aware that they are all still in a developmental phase. Most creatives here have their characters and stories for the most part, ready to roll. They can do full stories with them, and I don't think I've hit that point yet. And I wonder if that's part of the issue too. My characters seemingly constantly shift and grow.

And, don't get me wrong. I LOVE these creations. The iterations they have now are the best they've ever been in my opinion...So then, why does this thought persist?

I know I am not revolutionary or doing anything too crazy. I am just a guy who likes making and writing cartoons. Most of which are PG-PG13, and I know most of those site leans to more mature, adult elements.

Perhaps it is the "superhero" angle that makes me so critical. I know superhero characters are REALLY big here, and there is SO much talent and creative people on this site bringing their characters to life. I also know that the tone, style, and direction of those stories are more mature than I tackle. In a sense, I would like to be a part of it, but at the same time I am aware that Karra's adventures don't quite hit that point. And that's okay. At least, it should be for me. But the creative side of me is lonely. Comparison is the thief of joy after all..AND I am not the most social, if you all have not noticed...

Some events have taken place in my life over the past three years that have really reset all progress I've made mentally. I've always had trouble being vulnerable or making friends, and I am not having to start all over. I'm a bit cold, maybe bitter too. I am trying. I am not here to make any excuses.

I want to improve my artwork and writing. I like pushing DAZ a little and using different morphs, materials, and effects to make my renders look more like cartoons. With brighter and somewhat flatter colors, simplistic shapes and figures. The last thing I am here to do is to make excuses for any shortcomings.

These feelings come and go, I know they are ones to ignore. But sometimes I wonder.

And now I want to re-imagine that one comic where Karra had an evil clone of her.. (In which, the process was botched, making the clone come out as a genderbent version of her..)