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*shrugs*i'll type some shit here later
okay, uh, I really want to thank Dinowolf98 and NeroOX17 for helping me out through most of this shit.
They're really sweet and i've gotta repay you guys sometime omg, thank you so much ily uvu
I dunno, sometimes a rant is really good, right?
Well, first off, I have had the hardest time keeping up with my school work. I'm getting lazier and lazier each time I log onto it. But then, I feel like the people around me are making it harder to concentrate. I get distracted really easily and I have anger issues or something??? Anyways, my two half-sisters always like to yell at each other and pick on one another. It gets really annoying when the yell, scream, and do shit their not supposed to. I know, I know, they're only 4 and 2 but I never really had that young of a sister in forever. My closest sister is almost my age, my brother is 4 years older than me, so I never really had to deal with it. Also, with me having a short temper or "anger issues" makes it really hard for me to stay calm around them. They never listen to my mother, her boyfriend, or me. Which really irritates me. I feel like the only reason why the 4 year old does this is because they spoil her and never say no to her. Well, I mean, of course they say no. But, I mean, i'm tired of dealing with their shit. Lili, the 4 year old, always screams at me for trying to help her out. I try to explain to her that i'm just helping but she won't let me help. Then, my Mom's boyfriend keeps tell me to ignore her. I'm trying my best to ignore her, but she just keeps annoying me to the point where I just loose it.
Secondly, I have this huge crush on this guy. We've dated before but- let's just call him dad, ok?- but my "Dad" really hates it when I hang out or talk to boys. I can't even look at a boy without him telling me shit. "Oh, he just wants to get down your pants." "Oh wow, he's a player." I can't even have friends that are boys. I get really irritated with him. It's like seriously, when did you become my fucking dad and telling me who I can and can't be friends with? I mean, I don't really have a lot of friends in real life because i'm anti-social as fuck. I hate talking to the girls in this god damn town. So, guess who I get to talk to! Him. I hardly ever talk to my mom anymore because she's busy with work or I can't talk to her without him budding in. He's just...grrrr. Whenever I talk Gage (the guy I like) he's always asking me what we're talking about and if he's saying anything inappropriate. Like, uhm, do you really need to get into my conversations with this guy? Gage and I have been friends since 1st grade, he's inappropriate as fuck, childish, but kind and sweet. I like him. But, I really can't tell my "dad" to fuck off or he'll get pissy and whine to my Mom. But, yeah, I can't tell my "dad" that I like a boy because i've told him so many times that I hate boys and I don't want a boyfriend.
Also, I've been reallllly tired lately. I don't really want to sleep anymore and I hardly eat. I'll just sit up in my room at night and watch anime or draw shitty art. If I do fall asleep, I always wake back up and stay up for a couple of hours. I've also been worrying about a lot of shit which is also keeping me up. I feel like all I do is annoy people to the point where they hate me. Dinowolf98 , if i've ever annoyed you i'm so sorry omg All they're doing is just lying to me to make me "happy". I'm tired of being lied to. Also, my "dad" has been being all depressed around me and it's making me feel like I did something. If anyone is usually sad around me, I feel like I was the one who caused it and it makes me feel terrible.
i feel like I skipped around a bunch on this gomen ;;
sorry for ranting...
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first of all the pony is pretty
i'm sorry for what you have to deal with
but i kinda understand what your 'dad' means.
you're still young and he is trying to protect you from doing stuff you'd regret later.
he's probably overdoing it though from what you've described.
i think Β you should talk to him, that he should have faith in you, that you're not an easy girl and you're not thinking about boys this way. maybe that would help.
i can just tell you that you have plenty of time and there is no reason to rush 
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aww thank you! uvu
don't be sorry!
Of course I know that he's trying to protect me.
I totally agree. I usually don't chase boys around anyways. cx
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and good rant is never bad
omg i love you even more now XD
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d'aww ;v;! <333
I hardly ever rant. So, it felt pretty good to get it out of my system <:
//squees
omg yaay <333
I love you even more now too!
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Oh bawww// I'm so glad I was able to help you bb Q v Q !!
but oh jegus;; I never had such young siblings, but I'd definitely feel frustrated by them-- The best you can do is just ignore them/// or be patient with them- like take a deep breath, clear your mind, and talk calmly to them- because theyyy might respond better to that?? I don't know;;;
and girl! That is not a relationship you need to deal with! He should be able to trust you with other boys, and he shouldn't try and make you feel guilty for interacting with other guys! I have more guy friends too tbh because I don't know why?? so I know how that is, but your boyfriend shouldn't get so involved with all that. Like I guess he's probably curious of what you talk about with other guys because maybe he's just either jealous or worried that you may be cheating on him or anything?? but he shouldn't consistently ask what you talk about or he shouldn't decide who you're friends with. You get to chose what you do. I wouldn't necessarily say break up with him? Because I don't know the full deal here, but I'd kind of like- maybe suggest that ya'll break up? I don't really know;;;
Also, you don't annoy me at all!! If you feel that way, I'm sorry;; you really do need your sleep though! And eat! Eat eat! It's not healthy if you do that omg;; but- hmm. Youuuu should probably go out, like go to the movies or something because I feel like you're getting surrounded with too much negativity- by your depressed boyfriend and how you're home alone sometimes-- so maybe it'll be a nice refresher and something to clear your mind maybe?? Q x Q;; I'm sorry I'm not much help--
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Yeah, I know, I try to ignore them the best I can. Never really helps. I try to talk to them calmly but that never really works out for me. Idk?? I'm trying my best tho omg
ahh, I probably said it in a confusing way. Ahem, lemme try to refraise it. First off, my mothers boyfriend is the one who likes to get up in my shit and tell me who i can and can't be with. He's the main reason why i never really get out much and shit. Gage, the guy I like, was the one who told me that we should just wait on the relationship thingy. Sorry for being confusing-- hhh
Well that's good to hear! QuQ;; i dunno, I'm not really that hungry anymore lately. I mean, of course I eat one thing in a day, but then I feel like I'm going to hurl after I eat another thing. I try to get out as much as I can. But it's really cold and I'm a big baby in the cold tbh ;; you're a lot of help so you shshh
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hMM;;; I really don't know much about children-- like maybe sometimes you have to be stern with them
and sometimes just really patient with them?? I guess you're just going to have to find the best thing yourΒ
siblings react with--
oop, I definitely did misunderstand lol;; but have you talked to your mom about it?? Does your mom not mind
you going out with people??Β
hmmmm.. at the very least you should try and eat two meals a day // o \\;; just lunch and dinner-- but eat slow;;
Are you sick though?? You might need to go to the doctor or something because that worries me! Q o Q;;Β
Just-- drink plenty of water and try to eat when you can q x q;; and baww you're such a cutie // v \\ but just bundle
up and you'll be fine! Just be sure you just get some time out of the house if you can // v \\ whether it's to just sit
outside and think- or if it's to hang out with your friends q v q !Β
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Of course! UvU children are just so confusing to me tbh ;;
My mom doesn't mind if I go out with people. It's just that her boyfriend gets in the way. But, I kind of can't talk to her. She's always so busy. ;n;
I do eat two meals a day actually. I'LL try to go outside more often ;v; I actually have a cold right now hahaha
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Pretty character! But don't worry about relationships. I hate to be really cliche but as they say there are plenty of fish in the sea! My advice? Don't rush into relationships or get out of your safety zone. The relationship didn't work out, so move on! Learn from it otherwise it'll just hang onto you like an annoying long hair on your clothing xD
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Omg. Thank you so much!
Well, the thing is, the only reason why we broke up is because of my step father. So, he just said that we will have to wait until I'm older. But, if it wasn't like that, of course I would move on.
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I was going out with a girl in my college class a few months ago, we went out for a week before her parents urged her to dump me because she's 16 and I'm 20, so I can relate to you in some way! Though don't count down the days until you're able to be together because it'll kill you, just focus on being happy c:
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Oh man, that sucks! I'm sorry! UoU
Of course, of course! Ahhh, thank you so much for the help uvu
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