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Description
2019

Musical inspiration: Atrium Carceri & Cities Last Broadcast - An Atrementous City

The picture is very heavy, it's been emotionally hard to paint it, but nothing happened to me to make me do this. I'm generally living a happy life, I've been living it before I started the pic, and I continued after, and in the same time that what I've experienced in between was incredible. The pain was almost physical, I felt so crushed down and so alone, so unwanted by everyone, even by me myself. The flow of the music, these tap sounds put a giant rock on my soul's shoulders that was just a little bit too heavy to hold, so it slowly was bowing it lower and lower to the ground. With each tap there went a cut of hate to the neck, the small blade gnawed it with its only metal tooth not meaning to kill, but to make suffer. Not meaning to destroy, but to release the pain to let it go out and away.

I did that for no reason, just because I felt like doing it. Like if there was a healthy daily dosage of different emotions I would have to take to be good, and I missed some of my 'depression' pills for a couple of days and then ate all that I missed in one take.

Description
2019

Musical inspiration: Atrium Carceri & Cities Last Broadcast - An Atrementous City

The picture is very heavy, it's been emotionally hard to paint it, but nothing happened to me to make me do this. I'm generally living a happy life, I've been living it before I started the pic, and I continued after, and in the same time that what I've experienced in between was incredible. The pain was almost physical, I felt so crushed down and so alone, so unwanted by everyone, even by me myself. The flow of the music, these tap sounds put a giant rock on my soul's shoulders that was just a little bit too heavy to hold, so it slowly was bowing it lower and lower to the ground. With each tap there went a cut of hate to the neck, the small blade gnawed it with its only metal tooth not meaning to kill, but to make suffer. Not meaning to destroy, but to release the pain to let it go out and away.

I did that for no reason, just because I felt like doing it. Like if there was a healthy daily dosage of different emotions I would have to take to be good, and I missed some of my 'depression' pills for a couple of days and then ate all that I missed in one take.