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I can’t stand this constant waiting, and wondering. I am surrounded by my fears. I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I know it isn’t supposed to be constant agony. No matter what I do, you run from me. Nothing I do can spark that fire we once had. I have to take action; the time is now for my freedom.
    Your lips will never know the taste of truth, I am certain of this. Nothing about you will change. Never will you love me for my light, or laughter. You find comfort only in my personal hell. This love I hold onto is indulging fantasy nothing more. I will never know the security of your arms around me. I will never hold a child belonging to us in my womb. I will never await your arrival at our home that we built. The thoughts of our happy future I am ending here. I have no need for such comforting lies.
    Never could you accept who I fully am. It has always been, “if only you didn’t say this, if only you didn’t think this, I could love you, and I wouldn’t need other women.” I don’t want to change me, I want to find and embrace me. You would have me believe that this was our common goal, another hurtful lie. You have always feared my male mind, and set out to hold me back from the world I so wished to be part of. You say don’t follow me, don’t wait up. I know that you desire those women more than I. I know now this means “I don’t love you” I don’t think you know the meaning of the words you have spoken to me. Your words were so kind, your love so tender, your promises so wonderful. I wanted so much to believe I was safe, someone found me in the darkness, and came to take all my pain away. I know now this is childish, only I can take away any pain that I feel.
    Whatever my legacy is it lies with me and me alone. My life will pass by full of regret if I allow this to go any further. I already regret being so foolish, I will not make this mistake again. One day I may find someone I can love again. Maybe I can be a mother to one more perfect than any other, because it is made from me. I want this chapter of my life to end. I don’t want to see that face of deceit; I no longer wish to hear your poison filled voice, no more lying to myself about loving you. My freedom goes hand in hand with my revolution. This life, these chances are mine. I earned my strength by my survival through hell. I don’t have to do what you say. Now that i have figured out this riddlei can leave you whenever I please, and I promise you I do please to do so. I don’t have to await you to make me an honest woman, I already own my honesty.
    I wonder what you will do without the ability to control me. I fear that you will go mad with your own thoughts of loosing me. I know this will not be from lack of a loving wife, but rather the lack of a slave. You may never be able to stand on your own, and I take comfort that you can rely on your mistresses to now care for you. I pray they know how to manage your illness as I have done.
I wish you luck in your life. Please don’t try to find me, I don’t wish for you to waste time. I will be no more than a distant memory by the time you read this letter. Forget about this little wife of yours, she died a while ago. You are now free to find another. I am on a journey of knowledge, thank you for teaching me so much of men.

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I can’t stand this constant waiting, and wondering. I am surrounded by my fears. I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I know it isn’t supposed to be constant agony. No matter what I do, you run from me. Nothing I do can spark that fire we once had. I have to take action; the time is now for my freedom.
    Your lips will never know the taste of truth, I am certain of this. Nothing about you will change. Never will you love me for my light, or laughter. You find comfort only in my personal hell. This love I hold onto is indulging fantasy nothing more. I will never know the security of your arms around me. I will never hold a child belonging to us in my womb. I will never await your arrival at our home that we built. The thoughts of our happy future I am ending here. I have no need for such comforting lies.
    Never could you accept who I fully am. It has always been, “if only you didn’t say this, if only you didn’t think this, I could love you, and I wouldn’t need other women.” I don’t want to change me, I want to find and embrace me. You would have me believe that this was our common goal, another hurtful lie. You have always feared my male mind, and set out to hold me back from the world I so wished to be part of. You say don’t follow me, don’t wait up. I know that you desire those women more than I. I know now this means “I don’t love you” I don’t think you know the meaning of the words you have spoken to me. Your words were so kind, your love so tender, your promises so wonderful. I wanted so much to believe I was safe, someone found me in the darkness, and came to take all my pain away. I know now this is childish, only I can take away any pain that I feel.
    Whatever my legacy is it lies with me and me alone. My life will pass by full of regret if I allow this to go any further. I already regret being so foolish, I will not make this mistake again. One day I may find someone I can love again. Maybe I can be a mother to one more perfect than any other, because it is made from me. I want this chapter of my life to end. I don’t want to see that face of deceit; I no longer wish to hear your poison filled voice, no more lying to myself about loving you. My freedom goes hand in hand with my revolution. This life, these chances are mine. I earned my strength by my survival through hell. I don’t have to do what you say. Now that i have figured out this riddlei can leave you whenever I please, and I promise you I do please to do so. I don’t have to await you to make me an honest woman, I already own my honesty.
    I wonder what you will do without the ability to control me. I fear that you will go mad with your own thoughts of loosing me. I know this will not be from lack of a loving wife, but rather the lack of a slave. You may never be able to stand on your own, and I take comfort that you can rely on your mistresses to now care for you. I pray they know how to manage your illness as I have done.
I wish you luck in your life. Please don’t try to find me, I don’t wish for you to waste time. I will be no more than a distant memory by the time you read this letter. Forget about this little wife of yours, she died a while ago. You are now free to find another. I am on a journey of knowledge, thank you for teaching me so much of men.