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I lie awake at night with thoughts of despair surrounding me. I could only stare at the pillow next to mine and wonder why you weren't there anymore. I kept hoping you would creep into my room once more so I could gaze upon your face in the moonlight. I remembered how you breathed life into me straight from your soul just by looking at me. I often wonder if I will be lucky enough to ever live so fully again. I started to cry because time and space keep me from your touch. I try to convince myself that you have just gone down to the river; you would be back when I awoke and I would once more be in those loving arms.

Finally I begin to drift into a light slumber and I feel myself floating towards you up into the stars. I can feel my heart coming back to life as I see your smiling face. You come to meet with me, and I fall down on my knees sobbing the most joyful tears because now I am complete. You pull me to my feet and kiss my cheek and wrap your arms so tightly around me that I can barely breathe, but I don't feel discomfort only intoxication from your devoted touch. My legs go weak as I begin to tremble all over. Understanding my disadvantage you pick me up and sprout wings to fly me further into the galaxy that only belongs to us. You take me to a crescent moon and lay me down so softly and kiss my forehead. I pull you closer to me and kiss you very slowly as to remember every detail of your mouth. You look deeply into my eyes, and run your fingers down my cheek and whisper 'I love you." A single tear runs down my face and you bend down to kiss it away. I pulled you onto me and kissed you again and again. Running my hands all over your body I realized that you could never be close enough to me, even though you were inside me. Again and again you made me explode with pleasure unknown until the days of our love. I never wanted our happiness to end. Laying there in your arms, staring into your amazing eyes of green I knew no harm could ever come to me. I knew you would give me far beyond that of which I would dare ask of you. I started to drift away and I cried out your name but I heard no reply.

I found myself in the sunlight of my empty room next to a cold pillow. Reality hit me once more as it does every morning when I know you will not be here today. The pain I felt was agonizing, and I heard myself say aloud, "My world would not be so dreary if I could just hold you, My Love." I felt the life seep out of me and I feared that all I could do was lie there and sob. I get up to try to find a shirt you had left behind that smelled of you, but to no avail. I fell back onto my bed defeated and began to remember our happiest times.

Once I had been driven mad and your laughter brought me back to sanity. Once I was on death's door and your will carried me back to health. Once I was in hell and you sought me out and freed me from my own demons. I knew not what I could give you in return for these deeds, the only thing I had was myself. I would gladly consent to your every will or command, and I laugh because I know you have no commands for me. I smile in the loneliest times because you gave me this life I lead today and you ask nothing in return but my happiness. I face everyday without you because I wish to make you proud of your love for me.

I only ask that you don't forget me while we are apart. I will rejoin you soon and we can then build everything we have ever hoped to have. We can have every delight that can be graced upon us by God. Please do not cry for me as I do for you. I will be with you so very soon. That is the only thing keeping me going day by day. I love you more with every breath I take, and I need you more so then ever. I can't wait to make you happy every single day, and love you every single night. Until next we meet, dearest love, farewell.

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I lie awake at night with thoughts of despair surrounding me. I could only stare at the pillow next to mine and wonder why you weren't there anymore. I kept hoping you would creep into my room once more so I could gaze upon your face in the moonlight. I remembered how you breathed life into me straight from your soul just by looking at me. I often wonder if I will be lucky enough to ever live so fully again. I started to cry because time and space keep me from your touch. I try to convince myself that you have just gone down to the river; you would be back when I awoke and I would once more be in those loving arms.

Finally I begin to drift into a light slumber and I feel myself floating towards you up into the stars. I can feel my heart coming back to life as I see your smiling face. You come to meet with me, and I fall down on my knees sobbing the most joyful tears because now I am complete. You pull me to my feet and kiss my cheek and wrap your arms so tightly around me that I can barely breathe, but I don't feel discomfort only intoxication from your devoted touch. My legs go weak as I begin to tremble all over. Understanding my disadvantage you pick me up and sprout wings to fly me further into the galaxy that only belongs to us. You take me to a crescent moon and lay me down so softly and kiss my forehead. I pull you closer to me and kiss you very slowly as to remember every detail of your mouth. You look deeply into my eyes, and run your fingers down my cheek and whisper 'I love you." A single tear runs down my face and you bend down to kiss it away. I pulled you onto me and kissed you again and again. Running my hands all over your body I realized that you could never be close enough to me, even though you were inside me. Again and again you made me explode with pleasure unknown until the days of our love. I never wanted our happiness to end. Laying there in your arms, staring into your amazing eyes of green I knew no harm could ever come to me. I knew you would give me far beyond that of which I would dare ask of you. I started to drift away and I cried out your name but I heard no reply.

I found myself in the sunlight of my empty room next to a cold pillow. Reality hit me once more as it does every morning when I know you will not be here today. The pain I felt was agonizing, and I heard myself say aloud, "My world would not be so dreary if I could just hold you, My Love." I felt the life seep out of me and I feared that all I could do was lie there and sob. I get up to try to find a shirt you had left behind that smelled of you, but to no avail. I fell back onto my bed defeated and began to remember our happiest times.

Once I had been driven mad and your laughter brought me back to sanity. Once I was on death's door and your will carried me back to health. Once I was in hell and you sought me out and freed me from my own demons. I knew not what I could give you in return for these deeds, the only thing I had was myself. I would gladly consent to your every will or command, and I laugh because I know you have no commands for me. I smile in the loneliest times because you gave me this life I lead today and you ask nothing in return but my happiness. I face everyday without you because I wish to make you proud of your love for me.

I only ask that you don't forget me while we are apart. I will rejoin you soon and we can then build everything we have ever hoped to have. We can have every delight that can be graced upon us by God. Please do not cry for me as I do for you. I will be with you so very soon. That is the only thing keeping me going day by day. I love you more with every breath I take, and I need you more so then ever. I can't wait to make you happy every single day, and love you every single night. Until next we meet, dearest love, farewell.