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WEEK 21/52 - "Still Waiting."December 15, 2012
This week was filled with prayers, yearning, and trying new things. I kept wondering if it's my fault that certain things don't happen in my life, or a certain person doesn't come along.
But I'm still waiting here, as patient as I can be, trying my very best to trust God in this. I feel like He's concluding a past chapter in my life, which I like to call it 2012. As it's ending, there are a few last minute adjustments needing to be made.
Meanwhile I am opening my eyes as wide as I can, taking any steps I see to take, and letting God guide me the rest of the way.
I may be used to singleness, but the more time that passes, the harder the wait becomes, wondering when it's my turn. Because I want something real, genuine, and lasting..
Until then, I'll be waiting for him.
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be... simply be.
I once asked God almost the same thing. About a 6-8 months later, I met an amazing woman. I'd made peace with being able to be. No expectations. No anticipation. No angst or anger. No ultimatums. No hurry. Just me and my dog, alone. Satisfaction growing in the state of be-ing. Then... when least expected, when it least mattered, there she was. We've been married 15 years now. I thank God for His gift-daily. He rewarded my faith, patience, trust and submission. All because I chose to simply be... walked the walk, gave in to Him to guide me, listened as He taught me to like (and love) me for me, gained strength of self, as i grew all the while, continuing to simply be.
My prayer for you in 2013 is for you to find the joy, strength and purpose on the journey of learning to simply, be.
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Ah! Thank you for commenting that! That is exactly what I learned to do! I finally felt like I reached that point of being myself, without anyone else involved in my life. No feelings and certainly no expectations! (Thanks to a 5 year old battle of unrequited feelings from someone, I really learned not to expect and to just love!)
I've never been in a relationship before, but mainly because I want it to be right when I do enter into one. I was always the one telling people, "Don't worry. They will come when you least expect it." Because once upon a time I got to the point of just "be-ing" as you put it. I was content and happy, and much younger! I was 16 at the time! I was just myself, focusing on school, and not looking around for anyone, just waiting patiently and purely. Then I met someone unexpectedly and after a few months, I decided to be nice to him. 5 years later I needed God to really help me and take the feelings away and move on from that. I learned SOOO much through that friendship.
I have a really...unique life story so far compared to everyone else around me around my age.. The curiosity started getting the best of me (hence this photo) but ... just recently I found someone the most UNEXPECTED way I'd ever imagine and for so many years I had no idea someone like him could still exist. We're just friends which is lovely. But it made me realize how someone like him, almost like what I dreamed, is indeed worth all this waiting time. Even if nothing happens with him, just knowing it's possible for someone wonderful and genuine to come along out of nowhere...gave me so much hope that someday I can finally love someone and care for someone who would appreciate it and love me back. Just knowing that put me at ease.
This week's photo has yet to be delivered though! This particular photo was a bit late, expressing a week ago! Crazy how much changes in so little time for me lately.. Everything is old news fast, hehe.
Thanks so much, really. Means a lot. Your advice and story is something I always believed and will continue to encourage other the same way.
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