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Published: 2015-10-12 17:18:01 +0000 UTC; Views: 3548; Favourites: 297; Downloads: 0
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Description "On this world, on this rotating earth
Unable to stop the fleeting time
In my heart I welcome death
With a smile that is definitely mine.

And I know I'll probably be missed
if we were to say goodbye
But in a world where you exist
it's the most beautiful to die"



Character:  Shinkami from my story "NuError" *group here   *
on tumblr  shinkamilyn-sakonma.tumblr.com…

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I haven't drawn anything for myself in a while so I quickly took a break a couple days ago to make this self-indulgent speedpaint _(:3_)TL I uploaded this yesterday as well, but took it down within the 1st minute CUZ I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY AHAHAHAAHA wanted to fix a few things????? Felt the picture was too personal???? Was half asleep and clicking around and deleted by accident?????? We may never know haha   Also changing the description this time compared to what I wrote last time _(:3_)TL

The meaning behind the picture is in the text I guess_(:3_)TL For those who can't read Chinese, it says:
"My dream? I want to die beautifully" //Shin NO

I think the hanzi for "beautifully" can also be translated as "exquisite" haha I hope I didn't mess that up ;u; //still learning, don't mind me e-e  Someone correct me if I'm wrong though! 

But yeah um, how to explain this...The drawing and text relates to a conversation Shinkami has with Lyzlot at some point. Shinkami tells him his ultimate dream is to die, but not JUST die. He wants to have a beautiful death, and in a beautiful world. And that beautiful world is a world where Lyzlot is alive and happy, SO YOU GET WHAT I'M GETTING AT.

Shinkami pretty much wants to make sure the world is at a good state and all his friends alive, before he leaves. He's doing his best in order to create that beautiful death for himself that he's been dreaming about :'3c //what a strange dream to have Shin... but works Φ-Φb

WELP I'm off back to work now After collecting my heart's pieces first though lmao 

"Finis" in Latin means "End".

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Media: Painttool Sai | Photoshop | Wacom
Time: ~3hours. Was a speedpaint after all ;u;

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Comments: 46

Smileiii [2015-12-24 21:28:45 +0000 UTC]

This artwork just touches my heart ! It also has such a beautiful meaning behind it. Good job! ^-^

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sakonma In reply to Smileiii [2015-12-25 14:40:08 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much!!!

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Aurali-Lianne [2015-11-19 10:37:48 +0000 UTC]

I absolutely love your NuError stuff 3; some of it is really heart breaking to look at, I haven't really read the information, but it gives me the feeling that there's a lot of heart break within the story?

Even the smiles make me feel like they want to cry somehow? But ugh the art is so beautiful :3

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sakonma In reply to Aurali-Lianne [2015-11-19 15:29:33 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much for liking my originals!!! QuQ 
Ah---- y-yes the story isn't exactly a happy one so YUP THERE'S A LOT OF HEART BREAK I'M SORRY

And that's true. Most of the smiles I draw are "fleeting" I guess. They don't last long (story reasons omg SRY)
But thank you so much for liking my art ;u;<33

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Aurali-Lianne In reply to sakonma [2015-11-20 11:28:27 +0000 UTC]

But the characters are so beautiful so it makes up for it. I just want to pet them :3 and make them feel better is all 3;

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sakonma In reply to Aurali-Lianne [2015-11-20 14:07:40 +0000 UTC]

awww you're so sweet! ;u; thank you!!  
//I'll try not to torture them too much in my story omg but no guarantees_(:3_)TL

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Aurali-Lianne In reply to sakonma [2015-11-22 01:13:58 +0000 UTC]

YEAH BUT SOMETIMES TORTURE IS NEEDED TO BUILD CHARACTER 3; *weeps* 3; SO I totally understand the need for the torture! *goes to her corner* 3;

iworshipNuErroranditscreatorforit'screativity~

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sakonma In reply to Aurali-Lianne [2015-11-22 01:49:11 +0000 UTC]

YOU'RE TOO KIND OMG THANK YOU THANK YOUUUUUuuuu 

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Aurali-Lianne In reply to sakonma [2015-11-22 02:01:22 +0000 UTC]

JUST DONT STOP BEING AMAZING >\ OR I'LL GET SAD AND LONELY. 3;

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sakonma In reply to Aurali-Lianne [2015-11-22 11:40:30 +0000 UTC]

I'LL KEEP TRYING MY BEST! PROMISE! <333

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kuyuan [2015-10-31 20:56:29 +0000 UTC]

*gets punched in the heart* OTL
Shin is just too precious for this world. ; A ; pls Shin why wouldn't you want to stay alive and happy with your friends? ; A ;

Ahh, but the lighting and clouds and his smile are all so beautiful in this one Kon! could stare at it for hours!

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sakonma In reply to kuyuan [2015-11-01 11:25:06 +0000 UTC]

Aaaah thanks so much Kuyu ;u;
W-well staying alive brings him pain *cuz his body is struggling* so... he just wants to rest _(:3_)TL

WAAH THANKS KUYU! IT MAKES ME CRY IF I STARE AT IT SOBBB BUT GLAD YOU LIKE THE PICTURE

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kuyuan In reply to sakonma [2015-11-04 05:09:56 +0000 UTC]

Shinnnnnn ; A ;
Oh, but I see now -feels dumb for not realizing how painful his condition would be-
but don't worry, I'll cry together with you! OTL

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xiomicchi [2015-10-28 22:54:59 +0000 UTC]

I don't have the time to make my testaments-comments ;A; But I wanted, since a lot ago, to comment in here because I love this so much !!

to be honest and the beginning I was a little confused if it was yours (the thumbnail, i mean X'D) because, I mean the format is a little different (a good different) somehow I can't really explain with words (?. Although yes, your essence was there. It was like an stunning and unusual new side of your creations, and I love it without doubt ♥
I love the feelings in this one. For me it's a mix of angst but with a beautiful meaning in the background, a nostalgic but heartwarming one ~
The colors as always are pure harmony and I love love how you compose the sky with their clouds, is gorgeous!
And don't make me talk about Shin... that precious kid, let me love him ;o; ♥ ♥ ahhh, he's like my fav of your OCs for real don't do this to me ><
haha

anyway, a 'breathless artwork' as always Sakon-senpai >u< ♥!
hope you're doing great in your life ! you *hugs*
Regards!

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sakonma In reply to xiomicchi [2015-11-01 11:38:33 +0000 UTC]

OMG CIOMY THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Hahahahaha seriously?? XD Omg yes, format and style sure is different! I wanted to experiment with something else for a change, so I'm happy it does look different than my usual stuff  

Awww thank you dear ;u; I'm glad the picture gave you those feelings because it's exactly what I wanted to express ;0; 

AND SO HAPPY YOU LIKE SHIN OMG THIS JUST MEANS SO MUCH TO ME THANK YOU!!

Thanks again Ciomy!! I-i'm managing with my life omg...not so good but...trying to at least  

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EmbertheAngel [2015-10-13 20:34:42 +0000 UTC]

TOO MUCH FEELS> GOSH! 

*slaps Shin* ; n ; So beautiful. So good. 
I like this. It's good. So good. <3

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sakonma In reply to EmbertheAngel [2015-10-28 22:26:07 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so so much! Really happy you like it dear!

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EmbertheAngel In reply to sakonma [2015-10-29 03:49:56 +0000 UTC]

No problem! <3 

I always love it when I see Nu:Error Babies. *Weeps forever* 
Always~!

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Coraleana [2015-10-13 16:08:54 +0000 UTC]

This looks beautiful.
I really love how you did this, and that smile.. that smile is just amazing.

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sakonma In reply to Coraleana [2015-10-13 16:57:26 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much sweetie!! REALLY GLAD YOU LIKE THAT SMILE OMG

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Coraleana In reply to sakonma [2015-10-13 17:02:22 +0000 UTC]

you're welcome

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Wayfir [2015-10-13 02:57:59 +0000 UTC]

what beauty even am i beholding i dont even

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sakonma In reply to Wayfir [2015-10-13 16:56:41 +0000 UTC]

YOU AND YOUR COMMENTS ALWAYS
Thank you dear! ´7`

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kireiraa [2015-10-12 23:53:48 +0000 UTC]

It's SHINKAMI!!!!!!!! *screams and hides face* SHINKAMi BABY...!!! You look so lovely and heartbreaking in this picture!! T^T Haha, out of your OCs I'd have to say Shinkami is my favorite... ;w; He's such a wonderful, kind, strong person, isn't he?

This picture, even though it's stylistically simple compared your other wonderful works, may actually be one of my favorites. Shinkami's gorgeous expression really conveys his happiness and pain... And the way he's bathed in the rays of the sun just makes him even more beautiful. ;-;

This picture definitely made me a little bit emotional haha. Especially because I can read Chinese (I speak and listen fluently but I'm still trying to read and write better OTL), and Shinkami's words are simply too beautiful. >^< "I want to die exquisitely"; there's a very sad and beautiful meaning behind those words. His words are sad because they signify that his life is ending soon but they are beautiful because they also signify how he chooses to live it: beautifully, exquisitely, with no regrets.

Ahhh, one of the reasons I love your original story is because I can relate to it so well. Well, I feel like most people should be able to also. It's about the struggle of human life, ne? Wanting to be happy and wanting one's friends and family to be happy also... I think that why your original story touches my heart so much, because I can deeply feel the emotions of your characters and sympathize with them and laugh and cry with them. <33333333333333

(Oh one thing though; when you say "I want to die beautifully" I think you would say it like this--- 我想死得精美 ^-^)

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sakonma In reply to kireiraa [2015-11-01 12:03:13 +0000 UTC]

A-aaaaah swanfaeeeee!!! Thank you so so much!!! //cries in your arms
So sweet you like my Shin-bubu so much ;u; He's my baby omg I just love him more than anything ;u; 

O-oh goodness really? ;7; So happy you like the picture so much! And I'm so glad I was able to express what I wanted with a rather simple picture compared to my other ones ;u; 

OMG--- SWANFAE YOU CAN READ CHINESE???? ALDKFJALKDFAKLFJ SO COOL OMGGG I'm studying it now and OMG I would love to practice every now and then //if I had the time omg b-but yeah haha _(:3_)TL 
E-exactly this yup ;u; If life, no matter how sad, is also tied to beautiful things, then it's all good. You can die with no regrets. The world may be cruel and some people may be horrible and disgusting, but if you focus on your family and friends that matter, and do your best to make them happy, you'll find happiness as well ;u; I'd really like to live my life like this ;0; Sometimes problems and life-struggles come in the way, but I think showing compassion and wishing the best for someone is the best way to handle things ;3; //on that, I recently watched Shaolin (2011) in Chinese with my best friend and OMG what a life lesson and what a touching movie ;A; 

And omg dear thanks!! I'm really glad my characters and stories make you feel this way QvQ I'll keep doing my best!

//and ooooh! Thank you for the input! .0. Now I understand hun hun! 谢谢你的可爱的评论! Hope I wrote it correctly haha ;u; 

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ShiningSiria [2015-10-12 20:58:28 +0000 UTC]

My goodness the coloring is amazing!!! That shading! How you drew that chain and sky as well. Wow just stunning. Great job

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sakonma In reply to ShiningSiria [2015-10-29 05:59:26 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much dear!! I'm so happy you like it ;u;<333 

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CouffeNoir [2015-10-12 20:46:57 +0000 UTC]

So cute!!! Teach me senpai!!!

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sakonma In reply to CouffeNoir [2015-10-29 05:58:59 +0000 UTC]

Awww thank you!

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CouffeNoir In reply to sakonma [2015-10-29 08:54:42 +0000 UTC]

Np c:
Would you mind drawing a tutorial of how to get the head right? I can never draw faces/heads TwT

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sakonma In reply to CouffeNoir [2015-10-29 11:57:25 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry I don't do tutorials ;3;
There's many others out there though!! Deviantart search box is your friend ;3

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CouffeNoir In reply to sakonma [2015-10-29 17:06:20 +0000 UTC]

Okie c:

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MisterMya [2015-10-12 19:59:39 +0000 UTC]

Wuuuui this is so amazing. I'm so glad you uploaded it so I could favourite it and write an essay on why I love it so much ^3^

First of all, I love how expressive Shinkami is. Most of the art that you do features him with an neutral expression and in a way it's very charming and lovely to see him smiling with such vigor, even though it's in a sad and pained way. You've really nailed how his face gets slightly longer from a full blown smile, his eyes even though closed are still very much full of emotion and I really love the detail you've gone into of framing them. Even with your semi-realistic style you've nailed his facial proportions. The line art, especially for a speed-paint in phenomenal. I really love how thicker segments of colour, such as his jacket have really broad strokes, whereas the finer points such as his hair and nose have much thinner and delicate lines. I also love the composition, Shin's face isn't quite in the centre which makes it more eye-catching, the writing isn't too outspoken so it doesn't become the main focus but the use of red and the lense flair give it a wonderful leading line, as well as the trail of runes and the thin stream of cloud.

The background is incredible, as I've only seen you use clouds for sunset or cosmic settings, so it's wonderful to see such a fluffy and extremely well rendered cloud that's not so detailed that it takes way from Shin himself, but rendered enough to be a brilliant, contrasting background for the character. It's also coloured perfectly in that it doesn't cause Shin's hair to blend in. Clouds are one of those things that need to look realistic with correct shading and structure; which you've done perfectly ^3^ Especially with the light source being heavy on the left with small reflective patches in the darker centres. 

The hair is incredible, I absolutely love it, the flow and shape is gorgeous and the colouring is incredible as always. I really love the thin gold strands of hair that give it an ethereal feeling. It's one of my favourite things you draw and the level of detail you go into is always amazing. It flows correctly and in a way that it doesn't obstruct any of his features and frames them nicely.

The shading on his face also frames his expression nicely, it's not too complicated and really draws in the viewer, especially to his pearly smile ^3^ 

As always I absolutely love Shinkami's design, it's extremely original and I always tell you how much I love the combination of different themes such as Egyptian, African and some more abstract themes such as the diamond's on his jacket. The glint on his necklace and the cords of his clothing really add to the floaty flying feeling of the whole piece. He's not falling but he's not flying upwards either and the lack of gravity and dramatic flow of his clothing really make the whole work more impressive and emotional to look at. 

Now the colouring, which is always the most incredible thing you do and the aspect you seem to always improve on with every piece. The lighting is extremely eye catching and is great for making Shinkami stand out. If the underside of the jacket was black then he wouldn't be as dramatic to look at. The reflective light on the edge of the hood is a really lovely detail and the coldness of blue in his hair, the fairness of his skin, the black of his jacket, white of the cord and green of his shirt is greatly contrasted and complimented by the warm use of gold; which really, REALLY adds to the whole scene. The tiny details such as the gemstones on his necklace and the tiny lines of light on the cord of the jacket really add to the depth of his design.

The emotion of the entire piece is a mix of sadness and happiness and even without you telling us what the Chinese character's say, it's very obvious that, without trying to bring the mood down, the piece is about death or accepting death. I'm glad that you didn't put obvious tears on Shin's cheeks or eyes as they would've revealed too much and give the viewer too much info. Because of his expression I can tell Shinkami's is trying to appear brave and happy when in actuality he's very sad; just by looking at him the viewer can tell he's been through a lot and sacrificed a lot to make other's happy. It's obvious by his expression that he's saying "Don't worry, I'm fine." and hiding his true feelings to make others happy. Which is a very sweet, likeable and relatable trait for a character to have, as well as making it easier for the viewer to be sympathetic. It's also a common trait for someone with depression to have, which I would assume Shinkami's has if I didn't already know his character. 

The symbolism in the piece isn't too full on, but the clouds and golden light look very heavenly, as if he's accepting death peacefully. I'm assuming the runes are hand drawn like always and I'm not sure what they say, but with the cloud shoot in the background, my eyes view a circular halo that seems to encapsulate him. I'm probably grasping at straws cause I love that kind of religious symbolism but regardless that's what I ended up seeing ^3^

Overall I really love this piece, it's not as detailed as your flax flowers piece but it has way more meaning that's obvious to the viewer, as if it's the last page of a book or the final screen of a game's ending. 
I love everything you draw sweetie but I really, REALLY love your personal pieces the most. 

I also really love you <3 

Don't worry about replying on here fufufu, it's an essay, just let me know if you've read it and reply on Wednesday when we Skype if you want <3
//Smooches <3

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EchizensGirl [2015-10-12 19:54:58 +0000 UTC]

Why do you hurt my heart so?

STOP BEING SO NOBLE SHIN! I mean jeez, saying that Lyz probably hurt him more than anything he could do

I also love the style of this, so different, yet still so full of emotion.

He looks so happy, yet so melancholic *tears up* you are very loved Shin

Also on a slightly less sad note, makes me ship those two even more. They have this weird limbo for me that makes them so appealing OTL. Sorry you were trying to be serious

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sakonma In reply to EchizensGirl [2015-10-12 20:42:16 +0000 UTC]

WHY AM I HURTING MY OWN HEART TOO MAKKY HAHA sryyy

oooooh, that's a clever way to look at it nice nice!

So glad you like the style dear! Yeah I tried to hurry and just draw something simple but also slightly different ;u;
and awwwww //wipes your tears

and hey---
HEY MAKKY---
DONT SAY SORRY Their whole connection and friendship and relationship is what sets many things in the story in motion, so hun!  

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endspire [2015-10-12 19:39:24 +0000 UTC]

THIS IS
PROBABLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS YOU'VE DRAWN


It's just so beautiful and happy and sad and everything I LOVE IT AAAAAA

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sakonma In reply to endspire [2015-10-12 19:42:00 +0000 UTC]

NO WAY END AWWWWW THANKS SO SWEET!!! THANK YOU!
//yeah haha I just dumped on it everything I was feeling at the moment ooops :'3c

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endspire In reply to sakonma [2015-10-12 20:01:24 +0000 UTC]

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dolfinmageOwO [2015-10-12 19:16:53 +0000 UTC]

he's so cute cx 
but is someone or something forcing him to smile?..  :'D 

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sakonma In reply to dolfinmageOwO [2015-10-12 19:22:58 +0000 UTC]

wait i worded that wrong haha. He's smiling right after he cried, so YUP HOPE THAT MAKES SENSE NOW

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sakonma In reply to dolfinmageOwO [2015-10-12 19:21:19 +0000 UTC]

Thanks so much!
And no, noone's forcing him! I just wanted to draw it like at ;u; (a slightly pained/forced smile but only slightly haha)

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Cannibal22334455 [2015-10-12 19:09:23 +0000 UTC]

Wow this is absolutely amazing

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sakonma In reply to Cannibal22334455 [2015-10-12 19:21:29 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!

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Cannibal22334455 In reply to sakonma [2015-10-12 19:51:02 +0000 UTC]

Welcome

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Kirostyle [2015-10-12 18:53:56 +0000 UTC]

Shinkami!!! Yay, I'm glad you had time to draw something for yourself!!! A very impressive speedpaint. That smile of his is just so cute. I really like your colouring, and the sense of wind blowing through his clothes.

I always enjoy reading your comments too, since it's nice to know what you were thinking about when making this piece. It's fun reading about the story and text behind it!

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sakonma In reply to Kirostyle [2015-10-12 19:28:30 +0000 UTC]

AAAH KIROOO!! THANK YOU SO MUCH DEAR
Gosh yeah, taking a couple hours to clear my head and reset my stress-levels is good haha ;u;b

Glad you like the motion btw sweetie! It was so difficult to do good lord  Mainly because I had to show his forehead (since a strong wind would affect his hair too), and I was like "I'M NOT USED TO DRAWING FOREHEADS" XDDD It was hard for me to draw a messed up hair-style and still show that it's the same character good lord took a while to figure his hair's physics under strong-wind conditions

AND UUH KIROOO MY COMMENTS ARE EMBARRASSING BUT THANK YOU FOR READING THEM! //gives me a good reason to keep writing them eheheheeh 8D

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