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I think the background got slightly more specific than I wanted, even, while still straddling into abstract. So don't try to make much sense of it --- the thing is mainly done for the sparkles and as a good portrayal of Dominik's general private, wary but resigned attitude (which it may have or may have not been achieved, hahaha~).
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Ah Cori, this looks beautiful!
The colors and that background looks so amazing. Dominik is cute as always.
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Aah, thank you!! On this one I'm really satisfied *V* It took a looot of time to get actually done tho, too!!
Thank you very much for your kind words <33. I have to move Dominik around more! And see if he reconsiders a little his 'no fun allowed' policy haha~~
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He's so awesome!!! > W < I love how you drew his expression and the glowy aspect of the piece! XD The back ground is so magical as well!!! Amazing work!!! > W 👍: 0 ⏩: 1
hHH, thank you!!! I had to redraw the expression several times, looking up, looking down--- to the sides xD! Drawing glowy stuff is super fun and Dominik sure gives the excuse with being a firefly, so all of you should expect more like this hehEHE~
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Sure thing~~~! And the expression is great! It really paid off! And asdfghgkldls thats so cool! ; w ; I cant wait to see more!!! * W *
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waaaha
he's so cute he's so cute he's so cute
// v \\
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kadjfakdf thank you >//v
Dominik: ...Though I would consider I am not! *not happy and not cute, not ever D:*
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puhuhuhuh aifjaiofjaj ////
Fuwa: Waaa, you are cute, cupcake! You're cute, and a delectable treat!
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Fuwa is cuter thoooOUGH
Domi: *stops hiw own sHIVERS, squints at her* ...You do that on purpose! You would... not eat me! *but doesn't want to find out, slOWLY STEPS AWAY...*
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fjaoifa nO SHES JUST DUMB AND HUNGRY
Fuwa : Waa- Don't worry, don't worry- I won't eat you! So many people run away from me because of that little misunderstanding~!
But I won't eat you! Aren't you happy you're as delicate and sweet as a cupcake?
Or would you rather be a sour flavor? I can find a suitable nickname for you if you want to be sour!
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nnnAA!! bUT SHE'S VERY KIND TOOOoooo
Dominik: Little. Well. *looks her from feet to head, seriously pondering and tilting his head while doing the inverted commas gesture with his hands* ...If there really is "many people who run away" from you... You should consider a... change in your methods. Not approaching me in a 500 meters radius would be the first step *nods with conviction, there's nothing he does better than poking his nose in others' trouble with an arrogant air* And not calling anyone with food nicknames, mayhaps? Being delicate and... sour is nothing to be proud of.
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((BUT LUCKILY FOR BOTH OF YOU
FUWA IS VERY OBLIVIOUS AND HAS HIGH ENDURANCE BECAUSE OF HER IDIOCY))
Fuwa : Love is delicious.
Possibly even more delicious than food!
Hummm. . ."take into consideration the other involved party?" . . . "desirable results"? But I do get desirable results! It's just that people tend to run away from me.
I know, I know- if I were more subtle about my feelings- people would come and devour me too!
But I think it's much more fun to openly express all of this towards everyone that I meet!
I don't think there's a single person that I've ever come to hate so far!
*steps closer towards Dominik and joyfully circles around him*
Of course they can! They can do lots and lots of things to become one!
What do you mean? They'd be inside you, silly! They would have never left you then! They'll always be with you- forever and ever!
*claps hands together in happiness*
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(( dON'T WORRY, IT NOTIFIED ME REGARDLESS!!! and i'm finally free sO,, sOBS INTO HANDS, fEELS GOOD, idiocy and holidays are BLISS ))
Dominik: *remains baffled through this fast course on love essentials. There is something wrong with this girl, he just knows, so why does he stay! Hearing most people run away makes him feel some sort of stupid pride and just stare at her petrified, which isn't as much of a dignified stance as he'd like* ...You do seem satisfied enough. Eerily so. *sighs* Pay attention, I have no interest in either love or food other than what is strictly needed for survival, so... do NOT dare to get me involved! *looks like he's growing confident on this foreign topic! snootily raises his head* I will not... devour you in any way as it is not of my incumbency. Promise not to do so as well, as I am not afraid of being that person you hate if that serves to repel you.
*but even if he does his best to sound so boastful, he ends up following her movements with his neck, though, looking silly and blushing -- what can she possibly mean??* ...I am certain I hold no desire for anything of this! I am on my own now. So, sweet or not, begone!! *and... flails with his hand, really, the image of elegance*
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Fuwa :
But that's exactly what's needed for survival, cupcake!
Love and food!
And you'll die from the loneliness of being alone and not feeling that much-needed love in your life!
You don't have to devour me to let me know that you love me !
Hate? I don't think I've ever hated anyone. . .
Oooh- I wonder how I look like when I'm angry!
Cupcake, tell me what I look like when I'm angry if you ever see me angry, okay??
No way! I love talking to you, cupcake! You're so interesting and funny!
You're my favorite cupcake ever!
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Dominik: No! No no no! *hE STRUGGLES, won't believe! and actually starts stepping back* You confuse hunger with so many things, anyways...! You truly are a glutton, undoubtedly! *and for love, too! Who says that's a need? He's done well without it, so far! and so, adopts an arrogant stance, folding his arm and side eyeing her* I am perfectly capable on my own, but I will make sure to ask others about that reputation you defend. Let all of us be witness if everyone truly holds that you are lovely and not hungry for the talking folk in the least. I wonder if you would be angry if I proved they do not return your feelings? *hMS, pleased at this challenge in this moment of heat --- he sure is going to regret this childish behaviour later on, getting on unnecessary trouble! But... he's... having fun, as well, being so freely condescending with her, or so it seems... we...irdo... * I have no interest on loving anyone. That is not a need. *he finally clarifies, satisfied and proud of himself*
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Fuwa :
Waa, cupcake- do you think there's only one way of expressing L-O-V-E?
I'm sure you express your love for someone as well!
It may be very different, but you still do it!
Aren't you fairly close to Lollipop (Atlas) and Goddess of Sweets (Levia) ?
That's so cute! Cupcake wants to see me angry!
Go ahead, go ahead- ask them what they think of me!
I think it's hard to anger me, Cupcake. .
But if you do manage to do so, I'm interested on how it turns out as well!
But I like the feeling of pain and how it crawls down my spine and goes under my skin. . .
So good luck, Cupcake!
Sure it is! It's a necessity to survive by food and water- but living without these necessary emotions is like being able to move and act without having any soul!
And you have lots and lots of soul, Cupcake!
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Dominik: I do not, rest assured. L-O-V... *....feels like an idiot even if his intention is to imitate her, makes an uppity gesture pouting and wrinkling his nose - he's being cornered, even!* ...There may be peculiar types of love, but none of my taste! You can have it all. *nods, satisfied, hoping that talking in her same wavelength will satisfy her* Those two? N- no way. I mean. I am fairly closer to my own security, that is what preoccupies me.
*sounds like the challenge has been accepted, though, and with an aloof attitude -- raises his head and smiles only a little, nodding to himself* My, how scientific we are. It is a pity the result is already pellucid. I will win, and I doubt you will find it... pleasant. It is not the same as pain, after all. I will not exceed myself. *hE GUESSES, she doesn't seem all that worried about what others think of her, so what bad is this little experiment? There's bound to be someone who finds her obnoxious and that has to make her frustrated! .....Other than himself, of course, that seems to not be working... but hopes that majority will validate his point!*
...If you truly have not experienced anger, you are... missing out, in a way, too. Do /you/ have a soul? *clenches his fists and stares, why does he ask if he doesn't want an answer?*
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Fuwa : Uwaaa! Thank you for giving me all your types of love, Cupcake!
I didn't know you felt like this about me! Ahaha! So cute, so cute!
You're such a sweet, Cupcake! Even spelling out the word L-O-V with me!
To be honest, I didn't know the word 'love' didn't have an 'E' at the end. . .
So thank you, Cupcake! I'll make sure to correct everyone else just for you!
*she gives him a thumbs up and a wink for reassurance*
Waaa! Don't be shy, Cupcake! I know you've given some of your love *pokes at his chest* to your friends!
*She smiles at him and bends to the left and right continuously like a metronome.*
Hmm? A "soul"? What's that?
*continues to imitate a metronome*
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(( iM SO LATE SORRY... liFE events are allll round ))
Dominik: No! No, no! There is a mistake! *he sure shouldn't have worded that THAT WAY!! the embarrassing situation makes him cling more desperately to what he understands as pride and dignity*
Mistakes are plentiful, in fact. I do not think I have time to correct all of them for you! Try and identify them for yourself, yes. Proceed and even correct others if you so desire... *and with a muttered '...and if the poor souls who listen want to meet their doom', he finally puffed, eyes squinted to observe the... interesting girl in front of him, as if he'd been hypnotized by her constant swinging. He's clearly confused! But still, the situation could be deemed as still safe, so...* ...Is it that a genuine question? ...My books would define it as the intangible quintessence of our being, so to say, the ambrosia that sustains our bodies and houses our capacity to... comprehend and feel, precisely. *after such pompous words, he's left wondering, still staring at her* ...It certainly is a complicated matter. It is... okay if you do not understand, so do not jump to hasty conclusions if that is the case. Nevertheless, you ought to read more. *...what a brat! self satisfied, he nodded*
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Fuwa : No need to be shy about it, Cupcake!
It's okay to admit your love for someone else!
Aren't you confessing to me?
Cupcake, you're so brave!! And we've only known each other
for such a short time!! You really go straight to the punch, huh!
*she smacks him at the back in a playful manner, still giggling*
Ooooh- so souls are pretty important!
Without it, we would all not be able to feel!
No love, no emotions, no food- *her face goes blue*
How terrifying! *she makes an exagerrated pose*
It's a good thing we both have souls, right Cupcake?
*she sighs with content and slightly leans on Dominik*
Otherwise, I wouldn't have such a stuffed enter, and you
wouldn't have that creamy center! *she moves her finger and pokes
at his tummy*
Eh? Read? No way, no way!
Cupcake, why don't YOU read to me?
*claps hands together in anticipation, an obvious twinkle in her eye
as she looks at Dominik in admiration and hope*
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Dominik: Speculate anew, miss. You are as much distant from the truth as I wish to be from you. *...you dig your own grave, Dominik. Still, he's stopped in his retreat by that light hit, that makes him stare at her and jiggle as to wipe out evidence of contact. He isn't so sure of what to do to convince her he isn't, so he advocates for ignoring the subject, silent and focusing on more intelectual regards - who knows, maybe this conversation can turn out to be something other than a complete waste of time to his eyes... what a rude boy* Veritably, it is an eristic topic in which no scientific argument has proven to be pertinent. I could very say that animals and other simple creatures enjoy the benefits that you have grieved for in the first place. *and he grimaces, love, emotions and food... how basic!*
I could also say that you, as a crop, possess a different essence than mine. You cannot refute it. I cannot assert it, either and obviously. You do seem to agree with me, what with... different centers, if you understand that. *he sighed, muttering an indistinct 'I am not hungry right now' as he was poked, trying to step back again. He wondered how he had become this girl's teacher. He shouldn't have, but now, he hates the idea of leaving something half done, pondering if she would really share his view of the world.* ...I guess I have no objection to reading aloud as long as you do not interrupt me in any way. What would interest you, anyway... *maybe he should start with something easy...*
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Fuwa : Hmm. . so it's just like a guess?
How come everyone believes in having a 'soul' then?
Maybe that's just how our body works. *she pouts and puffs up her chest. Despite her defiance in the subject- she was only doing so due to the dislike of having lessons regarding any topic from Miwa or from the school, as well. She absolutely hated doing the assignments or work that they had given her, because there was never a reward at the end.*
*pats at his stomach and sits on the floor, forcing him to sit down with her.
She rests her head on his lap, and makes herself comfortable*
Tell me about what a "Dad" is! *She remembers her conversation with Levia, and how she mentioned the word 'Dad.' Fuwa wasn't sure about the idea of it, and was not even aware of the other terms that came along with it.
She closes her eyes, and silently waits for the information*
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Dominik: You could say so. Since ancient times, we look for explanations to the phenomena we do not understand. *and he frowns; actually, that makes sense, explains why he's staying put despite his better judgment - Fuwa is kind of a mystery!* And as we possess the ability to execute the act of guessing, of questioning and seeking the truth.., we shall as well consider those capable of formal thinking superior, and reward ourselves with a soul. *his own explanation shocks him - is the soul really an act of petulance? He nods, after all, believing in immortality, coming from such fragile beings as they are... he sighed, reserving his thoughts to himself, and still, daring to believe himself superior to crops too, shame*
*Besides, who has time to be deep when your personal bubble is being invaded?* ...Miss! Miss Fuwa. I am not a chair. Remove your empty head from my delicate legs. *scowling at her, he tried his best to remove her... without touching her, which is a difficult task; so he just wriggles and hisses at her, making frustration noises until that question just hits him as sudden* A dad? A Father? Why, are we skipping from essence to creators? I would not have guessed you as philosophically inclined! *she isn't talking about god, you twit, Domi!!!* Since ever the White Witch that lived here blessed us, we could consider that we have not been under the watch of someone equal, leave alone a male counterpart... If he exists, we might as well find him somehow. He is someone who is supposed to protect us... I guess. *he could ask him a few questions about insects and crops...*
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Fuwa: *She's quiet for a while, trying to understand what Dominik is saying, but not really being able to- because of her slow brain and laziness.* You know ... you say a lot of words.
*she shakes her head in defiance, and she sticks her tongue out at Domi* Don't wanna. Your lap is as soft as a cupcake, Cupcake. Besides, if you know they're delicate then why don't you share them?
Mmmm- that's weird.
You know, Levia gave me a sad expression when I asked her what a "dad" or "father" was. If it was only about our history, why'd she get so sad about it? Oooo- is it because I don't know my history well?
Well I wasn't really ever good in my grades- I don't see why she would even have any expectations of me.
*she exhales loudly and makes herself comfortable, using Domi's lap with her head* I'm tired- do you have any food, Cupcake?
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Dominik: *pretty content, satisfied to express himself and hear himself talk --- seeing she really hasn't been following isn't a big surprise for him* I might as well reckon that, as even if every of my words is of the same or higher value as the preceding, it is that precisely what makes disgraceful to waste them. *....feels victorious, whAT a long way to say---* ...Meaning I will give you simple commands, from now on.
*but even if he believes himself oh so superior, he's unable to move her away, grimacing and flailing in snooty disgust* Delicate as in fragile, Miss Fuwa. Add two plus two if you are so kind, because I have enough of a job being your dictionary to be your abacus. You are heavy and suffocating. *if that's not clear enough, he doesn't know what it is! Though that father matter... really looks like it isn't as defined, blinking and considering his own mistake*
...Let me make some educated guesses, now. She probably pitied you and explained about what a 'family' is, am I mistaken? *...uses his sleeves, avoiding direct contact, to cover Fuwa's face as he ponders. So she doesn't have a father, or even a mother, friend or relatives who cared to explain. Does that affect him in any way?* ...Well, this sure means you are a nonentity with no kind of social position at all. What a chagrin indeed... for me, who has to deal with you so forcibly. *loud, rude sighs* I do hope someone of your nature knows how to obtain food by own means without having to despoil from better off individuals. I am not feeding you. *sure seems to have forgotten the fear of becoming food himself - he could always use a gentle reminder*
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Fuwa:
Thanks, Cupcake. You finally understand how to sympathize and show your true feelings.
You've leveled up!! *she laughs, as she makes video game noises and gestures at the air- yet still keeping her head
on Dominik's lap.*
Well cupcakes aren't really suppose to be so hard, they're suppose to be soft and fragile. So your body is staying
true to your nature! *Fuwa gives Dominik a thumbs up, indicating that it is, indeed, something to be absolutely proud
of.* Cupcakes are nice and soft, and so are your legs- therefore I will comfortably rest here as
long as I want!
A family? Sounds suuuper familiar. But my mind is suuuuuuper forgetting the meaning!
Hey, you said you'd make simpler commands- how come you're still talking like Miwa- but with less threats?
But anyway, just give me a lesson- a short easy lesson with easy words about what a family is!
If you don't use easy terms, I'll eat you! *she jokes, but doesn't realize how scary her words may be- especially
the fact that it's rather hard to tell when she is and is not kidding.*
It's okay, because even if Miwa doesn't feed me, and even if my friends don't feed me treats- I hunt down my food
rather quickly.
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Dominik: ...Good grief. *sighs, shaking his head and blocking his ears slightly at the sounds she makes, he's sooo snooty* All right, if you so believe. I was enough "leveled" before, though.
*he winds up gritting his teeth - no matter how hard he tries, there's always something that Fuwa says or does that grates on his ears, and tilts his head* Okay, I'm speaking your slang now, so let's see if this comes across! I'm not a cupcake!! I don't wanna be one. If I'm a cupcake, then you're... a.... a... a brick! Brick cranium...! Such a disgraceful cinder block....!! *....growingly flustered at this childish outburst, pouting now, and trying to roll away to finally kick her out*
*sooo his guard is really down, and insistence on the family topic just brings him closer to a tantrum, disliking speaking like the commoners but seeing there's really no other way -- eating??* .....L- look, miss. A family is suuuuper important. All of us have one. Mine is... really c... c.... cool.... *.....dies inside using that word, but it makes him breathe and recover good sense, wrinkling his nose after a second* ...They are who make you be who you are, after all. From my family, I do not only take the great pride of being a firefly, I am most thankful about my upbringing regarding my education... and disposition. Too bad I /am/ a bit of a disappointment. *wry chuckles -- but he's quick to detect he's crossed the line talking about himself, or at least, that it's not the best moment for it* ...Alas, really, how can you forget that? What is then Miwa for you? And... why does the subject interest you so. There is few to be done about it...
*sighs, finally calmer --- what allows him to process all what seems like threats of being eaten, and keeps retreating* Y... You are just such a scary individual. F- fine, fine, maybe I have some soup for you.
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Fuwa : "Ehhh? A brick? Uwaaa- that means I can knock you out with one blow, right Cupcake?
*she sits up and sits right in front of him- cross-legged- staring at him right in the eye. She holds her pitchfork upright- as if imitating a guarding knight.*
"I wouldn't want you to lose your legs. So I'll let them breathe for a while!"
"Mmm? Disappointment? Who did you disappoint?
I disappoint Miwa all the time!" *she gives another thumbs up, her happiness levels are a bit too much*
"Miwa .. is my twin sister, right?" *she goes silent for a bit, pondering- she then slams the bottom of her pitchfork at the ground- making a loud sound- her expression reads of that of assurance*
"Yes, yes she is!
But you know- Miwa never used a word like "fa-"whatever before.
And also, how can I forget something that I never knew? Silly, silly!" *she giggles and uses her free hand to playfully slap his arm*
"Ehh? I'm not scary- I keep telling you that!" *she furrows her eyebrows, and opens her mouth to say something-but at the mention of food- her expression goes back to an excited state* "Oooh! Cupcake's soup! Cupcake's soup! I want to taste Cupcake's soup!"
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Fuwa : Hummm. . I don't know any other way to express these feelings of mine.
I rather be very open about it, than hide the love I have for everyone
Aaah- but Cupcake, I'm not the napkin in this relationship-
I'm the customer!
I'm the consumer!
But of course, I won't actually consume you.
I cannot simply leave you alone like that! I must get closer and closer and closer-
Until we become one.
Being delicate and sour is absolutely everything to be proud of!
You bring hope and joy to me whenever you appear,
And you bring satisfaction and pleasure to me whenever I take you in! Or rather, digest your presence or words. .
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(seE WHAT I MEANT, she wants to spread the LOVE -- pfppfpfpfff, i absolutely love her reply, tOO BAD DOMI IS Soooo sOUR)
Dominik: *the comment makes him squint and his brain starts mulling over... love, whatever is that! But given that is believed to be a positive emotion, isn't Fuwa doing the right thing not hiding it...? What is he thinking about!* Miss... Fuwa. It is still a matter of two. Shall you take into consideration the other involved party, I am sure you would obtain more desirable results. Well. That is my input *grows unsure as he advances, poking his own nose - he shouldn't even talk with her!! He thinks she's sooo weird. Who calls herself a consumer on accident! And it makes him aware again of his position.*
*Becoming one fully invalidates his previous point and,... obviously freaks him out, lol* ...You are out of your mind! In no way can a person fuse with another... except eating them! What would be left of them? I will not fall for your sweet appearance and words. Being sour is definitely better than being as deceitful as you *because now, being delicate sure hindered him and his plan of running away already, limitating himself to stepping back* Is there not someplace better for you to be in? Where is your caret-- your sister? It is not this producer's intention to bring you satisfaction of any sort! What do I produce, even.... *grumbles, hope? and joy? really?*
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((LMAO i replied to the wrong damn thing
look at the thread comment section thing of this to see it ; v ; //
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hhh, thank you >v👍: 0 ⏩: 0
Pffffft *points* PFFFFT. That background~! That cutie~! Lighting things all the way. It looks so awesome
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aAHHkfdjfsk!! Thank you!! I have way too much fun throwing sparkles, hahah~. If only... he had a personality as bright... but oh well! I'm very glad you like it *V*! Thanks again for your kind words >v
Pffft, Domi's personality is bright in its own way. He's such a cutie patootie! Sorry I haven't responded yet, finals are almost here so soon! ;3;
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you made a good choice with the color panels!
and your welcome
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