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Hey everyone following this series. I have a confession to make... I hate working on this comic.
I came by the idea for this one day when doodling a picture of Chat Noir using his cataclysm and on a whim came up with a story that could have led to that point. Following the ML series and the fan culture of it, I started fantasizing about actually publishing that idea and hoping that maybe it could make it into youtube and maybe someone would dub over it. I had 30 followers at this time and my friend told me not to get my hopes up for it, but I gave it my best and it worked. In just 3 days after the release of part 1, I had gained 300 new followers -- An absolutely crazy amount and few asked if they could dub it to youtube! I was seriously honored and I still am!
Some critiqued the weird anatomy on part 1, and so I tried even harder to make part 2 better. I studied anatomy, cheated by pretty much tracing over the hawk moth picture when my own skills left me embarrassed of how he turned out and I didn't want to show something crappy when many were still complimenting my part 1 for being pretty. Then came 3rd part's turn and even though my friend liked the 2nd one better, most of the commentators really liked the chat noir's cataclysm panel (a version of the one that had inspired me to draw the comic). Now enters the hard part... the 4th one. I hadn't thought of the aftermath of the catastrophic destructing of the brooch and so I toyed with some endings. Each idea I got would have resulted in a very long series and I wasn't that excited about continuing it. ...for I had made the comic with all the wrong intentions in mind. Popularity should never be a reason to make anything. Once I gained it, there wasn't anything left. (And after publishing a picture of something unrelated to ML, which got a few favorites... I noticed my followers weren't there for me and my work, but for the comic, which... well, honestly made me a bit bitter and lonely --- I did talk about it with this one guy and he told me to just keep on making my own work as eventually, the people who like what I do may come around and that I shouldn't base the value of my art on how many people favorited it. I should seek to study. Just saying this in case someone is going through something similar, but yeah - I talked of this long time after part 3. Back to what happened immediately after it: )
I didn't just want to stop with now about 1000 people following me just for this comic and let them down by ending it to a cliffhanger. I didn't want to be like "some artists" that work on a comic and then leave it unattended forever to come - the ones people hate - despite my friend trying to comfort me that it's okay to not continue on something you originally did fun that then lost its spark. That people would understand it (most anyways and so I shouldn't be afraid of those few who might hate it.)
I decided to try to go for some short ending - but it felt stupid. It's the current ending. For 2 and half years hyping up what happens from destroying the brooch and woops-- lemmi just make everything better by having her miraculous ladybug it all away. The end. It's like the "it was all just a dream" endings writers hate so much. I did have other versions of this too... where Adrien grabs the brooch quickly and gives a glare at his father - having lost trust in him and a version where Adrien and LB get a moment of privacy to discuss the revelations to name 2 versions, but... *rubs forehead* I don't want to work on this comic.
Having some (stupid and some less stupid) ideas for the ending that would have me working on it for years and being insecure of my skills left me with zero motivation to work on it... Didn't stop me from trying though. ... I can't remember the number of versions I made for that part, it was insane. Some very hasty, some poorly paneled, some had huge anatomy problems, the ones I thought I liked my critiquer would say needed changing..., I would start drawing some despite them being faulty just to get the thing out there, but I wouldn't stop tweaking and changing it because why? Because I hated every single one of them. I stopped drawing for half a year, but not a day passed when I wouldn't feel guilty for not working on it. (Later on, I learned that's what they call an art block.) After my long break, I picked up the pen again, but this time determined to get better at art. And if something good came out of this, then it's how hard this comic got me to study *smiles*. Of course, too, I have met some really nice followers through this comic too that bring me smiles and one I can talk with on the day to day life.
A year and a half later, I decided to finally lift the stone off my chest and publish part 4 despite what I felt towards it. It didn't turn out pretty. But I got it done. I wanted to get the next parts done asap so I wouldn't need to feel shitty for not giving you guys new parts and for wanting to draw other things. It got dragged out though... part 5 looked ugly af to me and I tried to make it semi-realistically, part 6 was alright and I did it fairly quickly, but then I got busy again (was trying to get into a school) and after that... I wanted to do other things again. Now, having been lucky to get accepted into the school, I'm starting my studies. Here I realize that if I don't make the next part now and end this all, I will keep you all waiting for years again and I really want to end this series. So this is why I'm ending it here... I'm sorry to all of you who hoped more out of this... I just can't do it. I want to move on to other things in my life.

TLDR? Here's summary:
-I want to draw other things
-I did this for the wrong reasons and had no deeper motivation to see if I could get it to youtube
-This comic put me into a dark place called art block and thus hardly any pleasant memories are attached to it
-I will be just getting busier and busier

On the bright side:
-I learned to draw better
-I got the motivation to study art more
-I met some nice people

Ps. I'm not shaming you guys and forcing you to watch my other stuff! You can watch the stuff you are interested like I should draw what interests me (ideally at least)... I needed to learn that lesson when.. for some reason, I expected the followers to follow me blindly. Heh, I'm more naive than I would like to admit.
Thank you to all of those who followed this comic and once again, I'm sorry. I wanted to confess this earlier but dragged it out and... now I'm finally coming out with it. I'm sorry.

Part 1: www.deviantart.com/strangerina…
Previous part: www.deviantart.com/strangerina…

Description
Hey everyone following this series. I have a confession to make... I hate working on this comic.
I came by the idea for this one day when doodling a picture of Chat Noir using his cataclysm and on a whim came up with a story that could have led to that point. Following the ML series and the fan culture of it, I started fantasizing about actually publishing that idea and hoping that maybe it could make it into youtube and maybe someone would dub over it. I had 30 followers at this time and my friend told me not to get my hopes up for it, but I gave it my best and it worked. In just 3 days after the release of part 1, I had gained 300 new followers -- An absolutely crazy amount and few asked if they could dub it to youtube! I was seriously honored and I still am!
Some critiqued the weird anatomy on part 1, and so I tried even harder to make part 2 better. I studied anatomy, cheated by pretty much tracing over the hawk moth picture when my own skills left me embarrassed of how he turned out and I didn't want to show something crappy when many were still complimenting my part 1 for being pretty. Then came 3rd part's turn and even though my friend liked the 2nd one better, most of the commentators really liked the chat noir's cataclysm panel (a version of the one that had inspired me to draw the comic). Now enters the hard part... the 4th one. I hadn't thought of the aftermath of the catastrophic destructing of the brooch and so I toyed with some endings. Each idea I got would have resulted in a very long series and I wasn't that excited about continuing it. ...for I had made the comic with all the wrong intentions in mind. Popularity should never be a reason to make anything. Once I gained it, there wasn't anything left. (And after publishing a picture of something unrelated to ML, which got a few favorites... I noticed my followers weren't there for me and my work, but for the comic, which... well, honestly made me a bit bitter and lonely --- I did talk about it with this one guy and he told me to just keep on making my own work as eventually, the people who like what I do may come around and that I shouldn't base the value of my art on how many people favorited it. I should seek to study. Just saying this in case someone is going through something similar, but yeah - I talked of this long time after part 3. Back to what happened immediately after it: )
I didn't just want to stop with now about 1000 people following me just for this comic and let them down by ending it to a cliffhanger. I didn't want to be like "some artists" that work on a comic and then leave it unattended forever to come - the ones people hate - despite my friend trying to comfort me that it's okay to not continue on something you originally did fun that then lost its spark. That people would understand it (most anyways and so I shouldn't be afraid of those few who might hate it.)
I decided to try to go for some short ending - but it felt stupid. It's the current ending. For 2 and half years hyping up what happens from destroying the brooch and woops-- lemmi just make everything better by having her miraculous ladybug it all away. The end. It's like the "it was all just a dream" endings writers hate so much. I did have other versions of this too... where Adrien grabs the brooch quickly and gives a glare at his father - having lost trust in him and a version where Adrien and LB get a moment of privacy to discuss the revelations to name 2 versions, but... *rubs forehead* I don't want to work on this comic.
Having some (stupid and some less stupid) ideas for the ending that would have me working on it for years and being insecure of my skills left me with zero motivation to work on it... Didn't stop me from trying though. ... I can't remember the number of versions I made for that part, it was insane. Some very hasty, some poorly paneled, some had huge anatomy problems, the ones I thought I liked my critiquer would say needed changing..., I would start drawing some despite them being faulty just to get the thing out there, but I wouldn't stop tweaking and changing it because why? Because I hated every single one of them. I stopped drawing for half a year, but not a day passed when I wouldn't feel guilty for not working on it. (Later on, I learned that's what they call an art block.) After my long break, I picked up the pen again, but this time determined to get better at art. And if something good came out of this, then it's how hard this comic got me to study *smiles*. Of course, too, I have met some really nice followers through this comic too that bring me smiles and one I can talk with on the day to day life.
A year and a half later, I decided to finally lift the stone off my chest and publish part 4 despite what I felt towards it. It didn't turn out pretty. But I got it done. I wanted to get the next parts done asap so I wouldn't need to feel shitty for not giving you guys new parts and for wanting to draw other things. It got dragged out though... part 5 looked ugly af to me and I tried to make it semi-realistically, part 6 was alright and I did it fairly quickly, but then I got busy again (was trying to get into a school) and after that... I wanted to do other things again. Now, having been lucky to get accepted into the school, I'm starting my studies. Here I realize that if I don't make the next part now and end this all, I will keep you all waiting for years again and I really want to end this series. So this is why I'm ending it here... I'm sorry to all of you who hoped more out of this... I just can't do it. I want to move on to other things in my life.

TLDR? Here's summary:
-I want to draw other things
-I did this for the wrong reasons and had no deeper motivation to see if I could get it to youtube
-This comic put me into a dark place called art block and thus hardly any pleasant memories are attached to it
-I will be just getting busier and busier

On the bright side:
-I learned to draw better
-I got the motivation to study art more
-I met some nice people

Ps. I'm not shaming you guys and forcing you to watch my other stuff! You can watch the stuff you are interested like I should draw what interests me (ideally at least)... I needed to learn that lesson when.. for some reason, I expected the followers to follow me blindly. Heh, I'm more naive than I would like to admit.
Thank you to all of those who followed this comic and once again, I'm sorry. I wanted to confess this earlier but dragged it out and... now I'm finally coming out with it. I'm sorry.

Part 1: www.deviantart.com/strangerina…
Previous part: www.deviantart.com/strangerina…