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So here we are, the last day of 2018. Where the heck did all the time go? This has been a rather strange year...and perhaps one of the worst. Of course, we start off with a former role model in the brony fandom being outed for a crime and his sins against others, deaths of well-respected people like Stan Lee and Stephen Hillenburg, all of the drama and political crap, and of course, we all had our own personal dark times to deal with. My struggles of doubt, trust and fear bled into my internet life and it sucks to try and fight through it.

But for all the darkness and woe, there have been some positives. Of course, I feel like I have improved in my artwork, I made a new friend or two, and best of all, many of my old friends had stuck around and proved to continue to be great supports and companions.

I'm not going to bullet everything that has happened this year, nor am I going to make a resolution list. I am, however, going to make a list of some people I want to thank, from helping me through a dark time, to giving me the tough love when I needed it, to just being a great friend this year. This won't be everyone, but everyone has helped me and I love each of you.

- Ashy, my little grape sis. You may be a bundle of spitfire from time to time, but that's what makes you so much fun to hang out with. You are also kind and loyal, and though we may have our spats, we'll always get back together. Of all the things that happened this year, becoming your sister what perhaps one of the better things. Thank you, Ash.

- To my edge lord brother, who I met through our mutual friend, Lightspeed. Blade, you have been a great friend, a great support, and a great giver of the tough love that I sometimes needed. You have been loyal to me, despite all my flaws, and you are a lot of fun to talk to. I am also very proud of you for wanting to move forward in your life and start feeling better. Thank you for everything you did for me.

- My big bro, Speedy. First of all, I want to thank you for introducing me to Blade Dancer. I also want to thank you for just being there for me, and for being the sweet, loyal and fun guy I know and love. 2018 wouldn't have been the same if you hadn't come back. I'm glad to have you in my life.

- Another big fandom bro of mine. Missy, it's still baffling to me that you, the man I once looked up to, consider me a little sister. And it's an honor to be close to you. You are one of the sweetest guys I ever had the blessing to meet. Thank you for being a loyal friend and someone I look up to.

- My mama dragon. First of all, thank you for adopting me as your fandom child. It;s a treat to be your fandom daughter. I know you have made your share of mistakes and you still make them. But then again, so have I. You keep trying to move on and not let everything bother you so much, something that I want to be able to do. Thank you for being there for me, mama. I love you so much.

- My first and only fandom dad. Ed, thank you for your love and loyalty. It means a lot to be your fandom daughter, and I am proud for you for how you come since we met in Abridged. When we became father and daughter, you said you were proud of me for sticking with you during your breakup-makeup-breakup drama with nani Jess, for me helping a friend during that time as well. I hope I can make you that proud again, someday. Don't stop being awesome, and I hope you and mama Crimmy will have a long and fulfilling future together.

- My second fandom child. Tooty (now goes by Nibbly), I am so happy to be your fandom mother, and no matter how long you are gone, I will always see you as my friend and as my son. I was so happy to speak to you again this year. I'm so sorry for everything that happened, and I truly hope you are working hard to become the happy young man I know you can be. Thank you for loving me as much as you do.

- My big sissy Seasie. I want to thank you for being there for me, for sticking up for me when times got tough, and for just being a great and loyal friend. You have come a long way and I am proud you are trying so hard to be a stronger and better person. Love ya, big sis. Oh, and thank you for protecting me from your trolly boyfriend. XD

- My foxy friend. Foxwell, you may like to drive me up the wall, but I still want to thank you for your loyalty and friendship. I know I can count on you to stay by my side and give me a good time when I needed cheering up. I love ya, you foxy troll.

- My big bro Stormy. Ian, you have been a guardian angel to me and so many of my friends for a while, and your fierce loyalty and love means a lot to me. Thank you for being there for me, for protecting me when times got hard, and for just being a good friend,

- The mighty Hispanic Panic! Tori, similar to Missy, you were someone I admired and looked up to. Your fierce love and loyalty to your friends inspired me to start sticking to my own guns and stand by my beliefs. You have come a long way, and I am thankful you consider me close enough to be on the ride with you. Thank you for your sisterly love and loyalty, for the times you stood up for me, and for giving me the tough love from time to time.

- My big sissy Bright. You are one of the sweetest women on the planet, and it's an honor to be your little sister. Your unconditional love and loyalty, even though she has seen me angry, and your endless forgiveness and wisdom mean so much to me. Thank you for being there for me, for being my support during my dark times, and for being someone I can trust.

- The mighty yeen king. Where do I start with you, Lenny? How about the fact that despite my mistakes (especially earlier this year) and for all my flaws, you never hated me and still consider me a friend? How about the fact you came to me, wanting me to talk to you, offering me a chance to amend fences and start being open about my feelings? How about the fact you still think I can be a good person, despite my trust issues, self-loathing and fear, and you want to help me accomplish that? How about the fact that your crazy antics and ideas still put a smile on my face to this day? You may have traded those scales for a fur coat, but you are still the smart, fun-loving dork that I became friends with years ago. Thank you for your loyalty and for still being my friend.

- My ol' pooka pal. Twisty, you are a sweet and loyal companion. You were the only other person I could trust during that crazy February, and that still means a lot you gave me an ear to listen to. You are always fun to talk to, and you always put a smile on my face when I hear your voice. Thank you for being one of the best friends I can ask for.

- The adorable little ball of fluff known as Eden. Despite our falling out in the past, you have proven to be a kind and loyal friend, and it's always a treat to put a smile on your face. Not only that, you are someone I can sympathize with. I may not have been one tenth what you have, but I had made similar mistakes and decisions you have. I want to get better and grow with you, Eden. I hope one day, you can look in that mirror and see yourself as a wonderful, beautiful person like I do.

- One of my first big fandom sisters. Aspen, you have improved both as a artist and as a person, and while this has been a crazy year, I hope next year, you will continue to get better as a person, and I hope both you and Ryan have an amazing life together.

- Dragkira, I know we hadn't been friends for too long, but you have been a fun person to talk to, and you made my 2018 more enjoyable. I hope we can become better friends in the future, and I look forward to more of your amazing artwork.

- While we may not be close pals, I want to thank you, Pristine, for being a wise and kind person. You are someone I aspire to be like; kind, patient, level-headed and smart. I also want to thank you for your help in dealing with a certain trouble-maker, and for offering your wisdom during a dark period for me. I hope you never stop being an amazing person.

- Last, but certainly not least, my casanova. We have been together for over two years. Hun, you are my first boyfriend...and now I can't see myself with anyone else. I don't think I could ever find someone as loving, as trusting, as forgiven and as loyal as you. You cuddled me when I was in a sad funk, listen to me when the dark thoughts haunted me, gave me a laugh when I thought I could never smile, offered me wisdom when I was stuck and gave me tough love when I needed to be put back into place. Thank you for loving me as you do...one day, I'll hold you in my arms for real, and we will kiss each other for real...

I had so many other people - pals, family members and otherwise - I wanted to personally thank...but I'd be here all day.

All I can do for the rest of you amazing people is say thanks to every single one of you. Thank you for being my friend, for loving me like you all do, for being loyal to me despite all my flaws, for believing in me, for listening to me, for trusting me, for sticking up for me, for offering me your wisdom, for all the good times...and for just being you. I hope we can be better friends, and that we will still be friends for a long time.

*Raises wine glass full of lemonade*

Now here's to 2019! Let's see if we can't make it a good year!