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youtu.be/zDo0H8Fm7d0

I've been in love with this boy since I joined, it's hard to believe I'd come to own him three years later. <3

Update on Me **Personal Life**
So I was admitted to the hospital last friday. I was having issues which I did not understand: difficult to take a breath, almost seemed easier to just not breath again. Light headed, fainty, unable to control my limbs that lasted since Thursday night. Called my doctor and they said to go to the ER.
Once physical tests proved my body was just fine, it turned to my mental health. Apparently I was having a long panic attack. Nothing like my usual panic attacks where I hyperventilate, feel shot in the heart, etc...
Long story short, as everything moved so fast I was put into an observation unit for suicidal thoughts. Of course, it was a room of others and we all had our own chairs [that was our spot, literally to be and sleep??] and my anxiety spiked, but my social anxiety drove me to psychosis. Disconnecting from reality to deal with the problem.
I also came to find out I am not just depressed, but have manic depression. Which explains a whole fricken lot of my life. My highs are high, but only lasting maybe a few days then just withdrawing from everything for weeks to months.
Why do I keep disappearing from DA? This seems to explain why.

So I'm on new -new- medication. Again. Lets see how well it works as my options are literally down to one or two other meds.
I don't know what to do with myself. But one day at a time like I've always done.

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Stallion ID: Marcel 23 | Marcel 23 Tracker

In response to: NA
Art features: Civil
Story features: NA
Word Count: NA

Aging: NA
Healing: NA
Pregnancy: NA
Captured: NA
Mare Steal: NA
MS Pregnancy: NA
Destination of Bachelor: NA

Items you are using: NA
Companion Animals:
Eagle companion [Nursing - Cures sickness]
Fox companion [Caring - Safe/Healthy Foaling]
Goose companion [Protecting - Reduces Predator/Bachelor Injury to 1]
Members that own outside horses: NA

Rolls: Normal

Other notes: ...
PPJ for Marcel - Amari
PPJ for Sol - Everyone

Description
youtu.be/zDo0H8Fm7d0

I've been in love with this boy since I joined, it's hard to believe I'd come to own him three years later. <3

Update on Me **Personal Life**
So I was admitted to the hospital last friday. I was having issues which I did not understand: difficult to take a breath, almost seemed easier to just not breath again. Light headed, fainty, unable to control my limbs that lasted since Thursday night. Called my doctor and they said to go to the ER.
Once physical tests proved my body was just fine, it turned to my mental health. Apparently I was having a long panic attack. Nothing like my usual panic attacks where I hyperventilate, feel shot in the heart, etc...
Long story short, as everything moved so fast I was put into an observation unit for suicidal thoughts. Of course, it was a room of others and we all had our own chairs [that was our spot, literally to be and sleep??] and my anxiety spiked, but my social anxiety drove me to psychosis. Disconnecting from reality to deal with the problem.
I also came to find out I am not just depressed, but have manic depression. Which explains a whole fricken lot of my life. My highs are high, but only lasting maybe a few days then just withdrawing from everything for weeks to months.
Why do I keep disappearing from DA? This seems to explain why.

So I'm on new -new- medication. Again. Lets see how well it works as my options are literally down to one or two other meds.
I don't know what to do with myself. But one day at a time like I've always done.

---

Stallion ID: Marcel 23 | Marcel 23 Tracker

In response to: NA
Art features: Civil
Story features: NA
Word Count: NA

Aging: NA
Healing: NA
Pregnancy: NA
Captured: NA
Mare Steal: NA
MS Pregnancy: NA
Destination of Bachelor: NA

Items you are using: NA
Companion Animals:
Eagle companion [Nursing - Cures sickness]
Fox companion [Caring - Safe/Healthy Foaling]
Goose companion [Protecting - Reduces Predator/Bachelor Injury to 1]
Members that own outside horses: NA

Rolls: Normal

Other notes: ...
PPJ for Marcel - Amari
PPJ for Sol - Everyone