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Published: 2011-04-20 16:58:17 +0000 UTC; Views: 133; Favourites: 1; Downloads: 1
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Description Within this dingy room lies my entire world.  This tiny nine foot by eleven foot cell is the location where I live, it is my true home, not the entire building, but just this one dark room.  The single dim light in here gives me enough of a visual to be able to see what I need to see.  It is uncomfortable in here to most people, all these many things that I've stuffed in this little box of mine leave me with little room for myself, but I somehow fit.  They all fit together like pieces to a puzzle, yet they can be moved as well.  I burn incense in my room to help clear my mind, and perhaps cover the scent of my own rotting flesh.  The incense however cause my room to be even more dingy, they create a haze over the room, and so a glare began coming in through the large window, so I improvised a dark curtain, which now causes my room to be even darker no matter what time of the day.  With the incense and all the electronics, and the closed door, this room gets to overheat, so I open my little window, the one that is now broken and cannot be shut.

These four walls, the floor, and the ceiling, all create the borders of my world, but my mind, my mind can expand the room world to whatever size I wish it to be.  I have all that I need in this room, everything but food and a restroom.  Nothing outside of this room exists, it is all just a figment of my imagination, something I create just because it would make sense to have something outside of my window.  What a figment this world is...
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spaznut777 [2011-04-24 00:08:37 +0000 UTC]

Am I allowed to say I agree with this and know what you mean?! EEK! words that make sense to me!!!

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Xyyme In reply to spaznut777 [2011-04-24 01:36:07 +0000 UTC]

ha ha ha, what you're room is like this too? or your mind?
and of course you're allowed to, why wouldn't you be? XD

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spaznut777 In reply to Xyyme [2011-04-27 15:58:04 +0000 UTC]

my room isn't that small but I clutter it up really fast. I don't like doing that, but it ends up being that way... and I can hardly breath because I have quite large stuffed animals circling me and blocking the cold air under my bed the entire night. and then having to share the space with an 18 month old who has night terrors and is sick... it is not fun to sleep anymore DX.... and i hope that didn't come across weird though it probably did.,..but YOU GET WHAT I MEAN!! agh!
So... yeah... and then my mind get's like that too... very cluttered, very stressed... but this makes the most sense to me... and you just can't have it any other way

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Xyyme In reply to spaznut777 [2011-04-28 20:27:36 +0000 UTC]

nothing comes across weird to me XD
My room is excessively hot from stuffed animals too, and the fact that I just have one window to open, one...TINY window. However I must admit, I do enjoy the clutter in my room, as it makes me feel like I'm in a smaller space than I even am. I like small spaces...odd coming from a big guy like me xD

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KenaiandKoda [2011-04-20 18:09:33 +0000 UTC]

True solitude is better than imagined company.

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Xyyme In reply to KenaiandKoda [2011-04-20 18:27:23 +0000 UTC]

is it? Imagined company can be an interesting party, as it can only be you that keeps you company, and then you get to know yourself personally, and either become friends with yourself or enemies.

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KenaiandKoda In reply to Xyyme [2011-04-20 19:06:44 +0000 UTC]

If you become friends with yourself then your solitude is fed. You will never seek anyone else outside yourself. But enemies. You will learn your flaws and despise them. You would be driving your own self out of solitude to seek someone besides yourself.

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Xyyme In reply to KenaiandKoda [2011-04-20 21:47:01 +0000 UTC]

ahhh, but if you become enemies with yourself wouldn't you think that you'd find yourself in competition between both the true you and the idealistic you? Constantly competing with one another and further closing off to the world so you can sort your mind and find out who you really are.

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KenaiandKoda In reply to Xyyme [2011-04-21 01:42:31 +0000 UTC]

Then you get consumed in the competition of fighting yourself, thus driving yourself mad. So in your attempt at finding company you have deteriorated your mind,your most valuable asset.

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Xyyme In reply to KenaiandKoda [2011-04-21 16:12:46 +0000 UTC]

I do completely agree, and this is due to my own experience.

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KenaiandKoda In reply to Xyyme [2011-04-21 16:30:16 +0000 UTC]

n.n Well, you're not in complete solitude. But the exploration of your own mind has made you a pretty interesting individual.

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Xyyme In reply to KenaiandKoda [2011-04-21 16:37:32 +0000 UTC]

well thank you, and I was in complete solitude until about 30 something days ago

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