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xZethanyx — Hallelujah.
Published: 2018-06-08 04:27:30 +0000 UTC; Views: 153; Favourites: 6; Downloads: 0
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Growing up, everyone around me told me not to bottle up my feelings. Supposedly, it damaged you from the inside out. All my life, I subscribed to never bottling up my feelings. I was always honest with myself and always talked about my feelings.I don't want to talk about my feelings anymore. Every time I do, I push away my friends and family until they can't stand me. I say all the wrong things. No one genuinely likes me. Everyone is simply pitying me or tolerating me until I'm out of their hair. When I was a kid, I thought by nineteen years of age I would have figured it out by now. I would have settled into my feelings and become comfortable with myself. I don't, and I'm not sure I ever will.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that this little vent piece of shit is just me trying to get comfortable with not talking about my feelings. I don't want to be a burden anymore. I don't want to push people away anymore. It seems that in order to do that I need to toss out all of the pieces of me majority of the population doesn't want. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of judgement.
I'm tired of talking about my feelings.
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No one truly has is figured it out in any time of their life... I'm 27 and I still don't have it all figured out, but I'm working on it. Bottling feelings is the worst thing to do, and it's always good to be honest. Yeah, I'm always afraid of saying the wrong thing or pushing someone away... but If I don't tell them know or fail to make them understand my side of things... then there will never be another chance... It's best to never take our family, our friends and even those we care so much for, for grained or else they will be gone and we're stuck with having so much to say, but because they are gone... we're stuck with what we want to stay and that builds into regret...
Your not alone... you still got me and I barely judge anyone, unless they really fuck up royally, but that's another story... You just need to be honest not only to the, but yourself and be empathic about it instead of blunt... you want to let the emotions and feelings flow, not just dump them on to someone else... or else that would more then likely push them away...
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