mrsmiley17 In reply to kabutodestinyfaith06 [2022-08-29 07:30:46 +0000 UTC]

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kabutodestinyfaith06 In reply to mrsmiley17 [2022-08-29 07:32:41 +0000 UTC]

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2020-04-20 04:44:25 +0000 UTC]

yeah, I'm good, just wondering what made you uh, remember me is all lol

how are you?

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2020-04-20 22:43:16 +0000 UTC]

that's good! i guess i was just sort of . thinking over things from the past and remembered you and wanted to see how you were doing haha
i'm alright! quarantine has been annoying though 😔 what've you been up to?

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2020-04-21 03:40:48 +0000 UTC]

just working and trying to de-stress, you?

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2020-04-22 23:00:42 +0000 UTC]

i've just been drawing a lot lately, there isn't much else for me to do during quarantine haha

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2020-04-23 02:55:07 +0000 UTC]

yeah

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mrsmiley17 In reply to Darkstar2004 [2017-01-18 03:15:01 +0000 UTC]

no thanks necessary, it's a cute gif!

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Darkstar2004 In reply to mrsmiley17 [2017-01-18 21:52:39 +0000 UTC]

😄

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mrsmiley17 In reply to Ifarisa [2017-01-06 01:32:27 +0000 UTC]

you're welcome

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mrsmiley17 In reply to Dgylia [2016-07-27 18:28:02 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome

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Dgylia In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-07-30 12:24:26 +0000 UTC]

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mrsmiley17 In reply to Sheenah [2016-07-05 02:28:02 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome ^-^

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mrsmiley17 In reply to AngelicHellraiser [2016-06-25 18:46:49 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome!

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mrsmiley17 In reply to miz-inthesky [2016-06-12 19:24:33 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome. 

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2016-05-15 23:59:00 +0000 UTC]

well, that was just kind of a phase, I think
I don't really hate you now
kinda hate your boyfriend for sending that
...okay, maybe despise
but not on a personal level, just what the actual fuck why
I did NOT 
NOT
want to read that
nope
nuh-uh 
not at all
....I'm gonna crawl into a hole and die for having to read that. fucking scarred 

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-05-16 00:07:48 +0000 UTC]

ah, alright.
i don't hate you either-- in fact, i actually miss talking to you, aha. qvq;
ah, i can understand that. xD;;
i'm sorry about that -- there's no point in trying to stop him when he's ticked about something rip--

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2016-05-16 00:08:42 +0000 UTC]

...-hug- I'm taking a hug. 

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-05-16 00:10:22 +0000 UTC]

//hugs back
okie dokie nvn

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2016-05-16 00:11:10 +0000 UTC]

.....-sigh-.....
...has he been coming on to you recently...?

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-05-16 00:12:16 +0000 UTC]

Jesse? Oh, no.
My boyfriend and a friend of mine has helped me get over him, so I dropped him. I blocked him on Skype and I don't really talk to him anymore.

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2016-05-16 00:14:49 +0000 UTC]

that sounds amazing
I hope you're happy with your boyfriend
he sounds like he cherishes you

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-05-16 00:20:02 +0000 UTC]

I am, haha.
I think he does-- I mean he got pissed over this whole situation with Jesse, so maybe. "D
But anyways- how have you been?

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2016-05-16 00:24:59 +0000 UTC]

I was actually happy, till now.
I was coping, nearly over all of it. 
And now, over a year of coping, out the window. 

What about you? How's school?

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-05-16 00:32:32 +0000 UTC]

Ah- I'm really sorry about that.. I suppose just try to not think much of it? I mean considering that Jesse had like 3 side chicks... This shouldn't bother you like this. ;;' He wasn't ever good for you, or me, or anyone to be honest. But I hope you feel better about it soon; I'm not very good with advice. Sorry again.

I've been doing well! I've started to feel a lot better about myself over the past few months/year, so I'm doing fine. School has been... Decent, I guess. The people I'm around are irritating as hell, but I can tolerate it I suppose.

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2016-05-16 00:34:56 +0000 UTC]

.....

that's good

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-05-16 00:37:01 +0000 UTC]

Think about it, Jessica. He used us and lied to us. He cheated on the both of us - and whatever god supposedly exists knows how many other side chicks he may have behind our backs right now. He was never good for the either of us. He's toxic; I think you should let go of him and avoid him. I don't want him to possibly hurt you even further. ;;'

Yeah. 0:

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2016-05-16 00:40:08 +0000 UTC]

.....the only thing holding me back is that I have multiple OC ships with him that I love, and I don't want him to be happy with anybody else. Yeah, "I love him and no matter what, I want him to be happy, even if it's not with me!", no. It hurts too fucking much to imagine him happy with someone else.  

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-05-16 00:44:25 +0000 UTC]

...Jessica, listen.
He's manipulating you into thinking this. He made you think this. Please..., I know it'll hurt to drop him -- Trust me, it hurt me too.., but it was for the best. He doesn't deserve you. You are an amazingly smart girl who deserves so much better than his cheating and lying ass. Look at yourself. Do you really want to spend the rest of your life with someone who is lying to you, who is using you as just another side chick? He's probably cheating on you again -- and I'm sorry if that makes you upset, but it's true. Look at what he did to us! He lied to the both of us, and who's to say that he's not doing it again as we speak..? Please - for your own mentality, you need to drop him out of your life. qq;

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2016-05-16 00:45:06 +0000 UTC]

but what if he's not?! 

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-05-16 00:48:05 +0000 UTC]

Look through what @/lalagilr said!

He was in love with 3 other people, along with her! How can you be sure that he isn't lying to you whilst knowing this..?
He is messing with you, he's messing with your emotions.. I went through this too - and I don't want you to have to go through it too. As hard as it may be, please please drop him. He doesn't deserve you at all.

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2016-05-16 00:50:03 +0000 UTC]

that was in that past though! 
...I know what you're saying, I just....I can't do it! Not until I have proof of him doing it now! 

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-05-16 00:57:47 +0000 UTC]

And? He hasn't changed at all! Think about how many times he did this to you... Wasn't it like, twice?
He did this to you twice. Think about it. Do you really think that he'll stop? He probably apologized, but what good is that? An apology can't fix the damage, and he knows this! He could be going out and having sexual interactions with other girls as we speak for all we know. He isn't trustworthy, and everything I've ever been told about him was true... Please just listen to me.. He could be doing this with anyone right now.. You need to let go of him; he'll hurt you even further if you don't - please.. ;;'

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2016-05-16 01:03:43 +0000 UTC]

....I'll make my decision when/if he's on tonight. 
Right now it's leaning on leave him. 
It depends on what he says and if he does something to prove himself. People can change. But by god if he hasn't I'm just leaving. I'm taking my losses and cutting him off. If he wants to be my friend afterwards he'll have to fucking beg for it.
He's an asshole. A cheap lying son of a bitch. 
....I know it sounds horrible....but if I end up leaving him...I want him to just do the world a favor and kill himself. 
It would save me from being devastated over him being over us so quickly. No other girls would be involved.

.....I'm a horrible person......

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-05-16 01:12:51 +0000 UTC]

Nah, you aren't horrible. I somewhat wholeheartedly agree.

Pfft, I bet that he couldn't prove himself worthy of being your friend, haha. x'D
I bet he'll just go on and blame it on his ex that he's like this, lmfao.
But it's good that you'll probably drop him. As I've said, he never deserved you at all. uvu

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mrsmiley17 In reply to raincloudzy [2016-05-16 01:22:47 +0000 UTC]

....y'know....I used to believe in God
now I'm agnostic, borderline athiest (agnostic is basically like you don't deny God's existence, but you don't believe in him, either)
...a couple years ago, before I met Jesse, I prayed to that God
I asked...begged him
"God, please give me someone who will care about me, who will love me unconditionally."
and I, being shallow, begged
"He doesn't have to be super handsome. Just pretty to me. If he could have long, brown hair, that would be nice. And no facial hair. Or maybe just a little bit, but not a lot. Brown eyes would be nice, too. And he can be a little older than me, but not too much older."
"It would be fine if he didn't life close to me, as long as in the end we ended up together. As long as he'll love me unconditionally and be with me when the time comes, I don't care. Thank you."

...and then I met Jesse....
......figures that God, the same one who made me born two months premature, the one who gave me a heart defect and need surgery when I was just a couple months old and just last June, the one who gave me hereditary manic depression, the one who made me dependent on medication to go to school, the one who made my mother have muscular dystrophy, the one who made my father have a dead-end shit-paying job, the one who made my brother tell me as a 3rd grader that he'd kill me in my sleep, would give me Jesse when I begged him for someone to understand me and why I did things and why I felt the way I felt, for someone to just love me for me and for all my life.

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raincloudzy In reply to mrsmiley17 [2016-05-16 02:04:16 +0000 UTC]

.. i really don't know how to respond - i just,, i'm so sorry about this all.. ;;'

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