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You might have noticed I've got back to drawing and posting art recently (like this little pencil sketch I colour in ^) and people have been asking for an update of how I'm doing
Briefly, if you don't know, I've been ill since November. Mental health. I've needed to be hospitalised twice for psychosis/depression/suicidal ideation. It's been an, uh, crazy few months. I've gone as far down the rabbit hole as anyone wants to go, and then some. And here I stand at it's exit, a little blinded by the sunlight, but delighted to be facing the real world again.
There is still not enough ground between me and the hole. My legs wont let me run yet, so I have to walk slowly, treading carefully, feeling with my feet, one step at a time. I'm at a good distance now. Far enough that I dare look back, and see the hole, smaller. One day it will be so far away it will be only a freckle, a blemish on my skin showing where I've been.
It's now been a whole month since I left hospital. Which sounds like a lot, but each fragile step has been tough, though in the right direction. I've just been officially discharged by Treatment Team, who were seeing me daily at home. Everyone seems pleased with my progress. ~Myself included!
Thank you everyone for being there during the darkest time in my life. The fact that so many people have been caring supportive and compassionate means so much to me. It makes me feel like the world is stuffed full of good people, trying their best through tough times, supporting each other. Your kindness and light gives me hope that in the future mental health will be better understood and treated by society.
I want to apologies to everyone who I haven't got back to, or replied to. I have so many unanswered messages and so many lose threads which I now have to tie up...
I've now almost finished writing the full story of what happened, grim details and all. It's so in depth I've had to break it down to several parts, I'm drawing some artwork to go with it too. It's hard, but talking about or experiences with mental illness is already winning part of the battle. I've lost a lot of my life to this illness. I feel like I am at least giving something back by talking about it.
So yep, very happy to report I'm out of the rabbit hole and making my way to firmer ground,
One, step, at, a, time.
Peace, love and Footprints,
Blue xx
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Comments: 644
DarkUnknow [2019-06-23 08:32:50 +0000 UTC]
I pray for you to recover and feel better in life. May God give you endless happiness in the future.
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UncleSunday [2019-04-02 01:18:55 +0000 UTC]
I feel it
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Country-Punk [2018-01-27 21:56:14 +0000 UTC]
I really like this piece. Wishing you the very best.
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Anna-mator [2018-01-27 04:25:17 +0000 UTC]
i heard of you on youtube, and i read the description and got scared, so i tried to find this account so i could offer condolences, (took a while ) and then i saw this and i feel relieved and happy
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SheenaUrbi [2018-01-26 14:22:52 +0000 UTC]
I love and enjoy your art style, and I admire the way you use art to work through your difficulties.
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HikadaTheo [2018-01-23 05:46:22 +0000 UTC]
I like that one
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czmanga [2017-11-27 20:39:04 +0000 UTC]
Amazing work !
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XxxSmoresxxX [2017-11-15 23:59:54 +0000 UTC]
How're you doing?
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Echo-Rider [2017-09-12 15:43:10 +0000 UTC]
Thoughts and prayers are with you!
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morningstarskid [2017-07-02 11:02:19 +0000 UTC]
Beautiful artwork! Glad your putting some breathing room between you and the rabbit hole...I remember every minute of my breaks grom reality...do you? I believe that adds to the battle to keep it moving and get on with good things and behavior mods in our lives...
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chromosaure [2017-05-14 17:46:14 +0000 UTC]
Omg best style I love it love it love it I wish I was that good!!!!!10000 out of 10 possible points!
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AhsokaTano1611 [2017-04-23 09:11:03 +0000 UTC]
You have a wonderful art style
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Dimeolas7 [2017-04-21 07:41:10 +0000 UTC]
please, consider writing the book, illustrated by you, and tite it 'peace, Love, and Footprints'
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PIRATEMG [2016-11-25 15:43:19 +0000 UTC]
I'm really happy you fell better!!! You're art is really strong and I think you're strong too: life is full of difficulties but I wish you'll be able to exceed everything!!!!
Love
MG
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maruyang [2016-10-13 17:32:55 +0000 UTC]
really beautiful your artwork. i hope you find peace.
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doodlebugRP [2016-09-19 19:55:36 +0000 UTC]
I, and all the rest of us, support you every step.
I've never been that far down the hole, but I've struggled for years with depression, anxiety, OCD, and some of the features of my autism.
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doodlebugRP In reply to doodlebugRP [2016-09-19 19:56:48 +0000 UTC]
And I want you to know that your art has helped me feel better able to express my own troubles and struggles.
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WhiteNekoKnight [2016-08-12 04:57:04 +0000 UTC]
I'm only now seeing this and it's wonderful to know you were getting better then. I hope your forward progress continues. I'm proud of your journey so far and I believe it'll keep getting brighter. Lots of love and prayers.
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TwentyfootAngels [2016-07-23 21:28:33 +0000 UTC]
You are beautiful and incredible. I wish I had known about you when I was going through my own trials many years ago. You are an inspiration and you bring so much light to the world. <3
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AlexisCalmets [2016-07-20 23:24:48 +0000 UTC]
Do you take commissions for portraits? Like for a twitch profile etc???
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chrism2386 [2016-07-06 01:41:22 +0000 UTC]
It is good to hear about and acknowledge the journey. Great art and best wishes to you.
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Suiish [2016-06-25 14:37:59 +0000 UTC]
<3
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TheLavenderQuill [2016-06-10 03:49:33 +0000 UTC]
While your story is heart breaking, it also inspires me. Your growth and crawling out of this dark pit is amazing and drives me to go forward everyday. Thank you
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nkart4u [2016-05-31 11:30:49 +0000 UTC]
Stunning!!
Beautiful!!
Breathtaking!!
Love the colouring and everything about the image!!
From her expression to the story!!
Hope you'll stop by my page sometime!! xD
Well done and keep up the amazing works!!
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ferbbat101 [2016-05-29 03:46:43 +0000 UTC]
Your art is so beautiful, I'm glad that you're feeling better just keep taking your steps one at a time. That's the important part just keep swimming.
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MPopova2022 [2016-05-27 16:08:18 +0000 UTC]
♥ That was a really nice drawing.. I hope you feel better!
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ToeyPeepa [2016-05-27 14:38:01 +0000 UTC]
I wish you all the best.
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Laugh-Butts [2016-05-23 17:33:13 +0000 UTC]
Love those lips!
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MadxCorpse [2016-05-22 16:44:18 +0000 UTC]
So beautiful ♡
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SophiaDahlen [2016-05-21 23:52:25 +0000 UTC]
Please get well soon💙💜💚
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AbiThePerson [2016-05-21 19:16:38 +0000 UTC]
Much love for you, my dear. We're all here for you! ♥♥♥♥♥♥
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Maja-ll [2016-05-20 19:35:42 +0000 UTC]
I'm glad you're doing better now ^^ just keep up the good work, and take one step at a time
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SparrowCrowHQ [2016-05-20 18:39:29 +0000 UTC]
Wow !! im sorry to hear that i just found you so beautiful. i love your artwork and your mind seems beautiful regardless! Keep doing you and goodluck!
I suppose i can relate in some ways no doctors involved but i have alot of physicall health,ive been down and broken through that hole many times hardcore. (wont get into it) and know how it feels to be there and how great it is to come out. Myself,i prefer darkness. haha. But all in all good job.
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xiiith [2016-05-15 19:34:45 +0000 UTC]
So simple yet so beautiful
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xBloodyBlossom [2016-05-15 17:37:54 +0000 UTC]
first of all, this and actually, each single one of your drawings, are totally awesome. i adore them and they've helped me through tough times, you helped me through tough times. i already watched you on my old account here but i forgot to watch you on my new account and sadly didnt even notice.
but then a friend mentioned a pic that you drew and I recognised you immediately and was very happy, to have found you again.
but as I read, that you're going through so tough times yourself, I got really sad because you look like a very lovely person to me and I'm really sorry for you that you have to struggle with depression, anxiety and worse, with psychosis. I'm so glad you get better and I really hope for you, that you one day can finally fully get through this, so that this dark rabbit hole you fell into is as far away as another galaxy.
and last of all, i want to thank you for your kindness, for the fact that you're strong enough to accept help and that you're still here and helping others with your beautiful paintings. thank you. it really means the most to me.<3
~Lil
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iixAdopts [2016-05-15 16:36:24 +0000 UTC]
very pretty!!
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MandarinSwift [2016-05-14 11:48:23 +0000 UTC]
I've had dark times in my life like these, too... Thank God I'm finally through them and it sounds like you're getting there, too. I hope you continue to recover well. *hugs*
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