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Published: 2011-11-04 03:33:03 +0000 UTC; Views: 36; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 0
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Description A monster, I thought I alone had one deep inside. One who's words seep through my viens like poison, slowly tearing me apart. His eyes pierce my soul, make me scream into the night, my madness, I thought I alone had that. I fight him with all my might, my blade swallowed un by the shadows I hold inside, I alone.

My monster kills me slowly, destroying my sanity. You too have a monster, I cannot see yours, I do not now if yours has bleeding eyes like mine, I do not know if yours taunts you like mine does.

I do know that yours may not be visible like mine, but it's there, destroying you. I can't help you, no matter how much I try.

His chains hold me back. "You can't do anything you pathetic waste of space!" He laughs, the echoing sound of his laughter rings throughout the air. It won't leave me alone.

"I can try!" I pull at the chains, unable to break free. "Because I know the pain."

"Don't try!" He grabs my throat. "Give up already!" His grip grows stronger. I choke. He kicks me in the stomach as soon as I start to fade away, he lets go, taunting me with death.

"There's something that makes me stronger than you." I say.

"What would that be? Love? How cliché. You've already lost that." His face in mine. The blood on his mask drips onto my face, dripping from my eyes downward.

"No. What makes me different from you is the fact that I'm human. Sure, we're imperfect creatures, we fuck up all the time. I can feel, I learn, I may not be perfect, but I'm just a simple human."

He kicks me again, I double over in pain.

"Learn your place "Human". You're below me."

"How can I just give up? I can't do that, I have to try. And I'm not trying for myself, I'm trying for another."

"How noble, but that's just a waste of air, but I guess it doesn't matter to a waste of space." His blade is lifted from it's sheath.

The cold metal enters my heart. My eyes grow wide, blood flies out of my mouth. His eyes meet mine. Those eyes, they've driven me insane, they are the cause of my madness. That smile stretches from invisible ear to invisible ear. The mask gives me a terrifying glare, if the eyes holes didn't completely cover his eyes in shadow I could swear I saw a small light in there.

I won't die, I can't. He won't let me, he wants me to feel this pain. His manic laugh pierces me more than his sword.

"I-I can't give up." My eyes fade. Death is close again. "I-I love..."

"Let me cut you off there." He holds my mouth closed. "Even if you manage to defeat me for a little while, you're not the only one with a beast inside."

He reaches for the blade, but he suddenly lets go and pulls away. His arm is bloody, he breathes heavily. He doesn't scream.

"Fuck you!" I cry as my right arm breaks through it's chains. Sparks fly from my chest. My glasses begin to glow due to the current flying through them. "Fuck you! I'm not going to lose to you. You may have my past, but you sure as hell won't have my future!"

I Pull the blade from my chest. I shudder from the pain.

"H-How can you?" He stutters in disbelief.

"I told you." His blade lays in my hand, still covered in black ribbons. "I'm stronger than you are, and I will kill you."

He laughs. The chains disappear. He prepares himself.

"STRIKE ME DOWN THEN! KILL ME!"
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LittleKidsin [2011-11-04 07:23:06 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much Essiy, I know I shouldn't beat myself up, but it's hard you know?
maybe I have something inside, but it's probably just the negative me.

I really appreciate you posting this up to make me feel better, it makes me happy that you care enough to do that
Thanks again ^.^

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essiy In reply to LittleKidsin [2011-11-04 07:35:12 +0000 UTC]

Don't worry, you've done this for me when I've felt down, and I thought I should return the favour. Just please, don't beat yourself up so much, it's hard to read that. I know what it's like to beat myself up, it's not fun.

You're welcome again, that's what friends do for each other, and since I can't be there to help you in person, this is the only way I can. Cheer up kid, life is too long for you to feel like shit all the time, keep your chin up and smile.

-Essiy.

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