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FFXIV:ARR Heavensward patch 3.2.

I actually think Thancred came out fairly well, considering that I suck at drawing adults. That's my little lalafell machanist in the back, there.
Might ink and color it (or shade it B&W); haven't decided yet.

SPOILERS AHEAD FOR FFXIV:ARR HEAVENSWARD PATCH 3.2!!

SPOILERS
SPOILERS
SPOILERS
SPOILERS
SPOILERS!!!

There are...

...spoilers ahead...

...just in case...

...you missed it...

...the first time.

So, yea. Today, I just finished up the msq of the 3.2 patch for FFXIV:ARR Heavensward (after starting it yesterday).

Like most of the happenings, the patch is divided up into two parts:
Part One is the search for the rest of the missing Scions (Minfilia, specifically);
Part Two is more with Aymeric and the Dragonsong War.

Part One, I completed yesterday...and it had me bawling almost as much as when Haurchefant died.

Though, only part of that was because Minfilia died (though, the characters say conflicting things at the very end, but I'm pretty sure that was an on-screen death). I didn't dislike her character despite the hate she oddly seems to get from some fans.
When she burst into crystal pieces, I was stunned more than anything else. Kinda like "that did not just happen" sort of thing.

But then, when the cutscene triggered the Hero's return to Matoya's cave, alone...and the expressions everyone had...

Now, I started off as a conjurer, so Thancred was not the scion who I saw from the start. However, he was much highlighted in 1.0 cutscenes and the plot there (I didn't play 1.0; I have a friend who did, and I watched cutscenes from it to understand some of the history coming into FFXIV:ARR).
Then, there was him feeling he let everyone down with Ifrit, which led to getting possessed...

Especially after seeing the 1.0 stuff, and then the cutscenes which lead up to the Hero entering the Antitower and trying to bring Minfilia back cementing just how much he cares about Minfilia...

When everything was explained, and he stood there, silent, around that table while everyone had sad expressions and tried to figure out where to go from there, I lost it and burst into tears.

I get attached to the characters if they're done correctly. WoW...don't ask me, I don't remember the name of a single NPC. But FFXIV:ARR? Okay, yea, I had to doublecheck the spelling on some of the names, but I know who they are and have grown fond of many of them.

You work with the same NPCs from the start for long enough, through this journey of a story-driven MMO, and I doubt it's just my hyperfocus which got me attached.

Thancred, though...it's like the writers love to torture the poor guy. He even states later on how he feels guilty for failing to save someone "once again" (referring to Minfilia this time) when (literally) knocking some sense into another NPC.

All I could think about during the cutscene after the Antitower was that Thancred, after all he went through (in 1.0, in the second version and dealing with the guilt of betraying his friends even though he was possessed, having his magick stolen from him and his aether flow messed up, etc), once again got the short end of the stick and was not only unable to save the person he cared most about, but was helpless throughout the entire thing.

I cried, because I know how that feels.

My best friend, Jen, passed away from cancer in 2010. The only thing I could do was keep in touch, make cheerful drawings, and try to stay positive (as we lived in different states).

I lost my cat, Tiger, in early February of 2015 after he ingested huge chunk of a nylon loofa. While the vets were partially to blame in that case for their ineptitude of letting it go on for about two weeks before doing exploratory surgery, there was, even up till recently, guilt which ate at me that I should have thrown the damn loofa out the first time I saw Tiger licking at it since it was falling apart.

In both cases, I was helpless; there was nothing I could do once it reached critical...once things were set in motion. I couldn't save either of them, and I lost them both. I was helpless.

There are also the failures. Thancred blames himself for not moving faster when the Goobbue broke free during the parade (1.0 FFXIV) and said creature wound up crushing Minfilia's father to death. He states later on that he failed many times; even before this event, he wanted to be stronger so he wouldn't fail everyone again...and uses the word "again" often.

I don't have the best success track record, myself. I know what it feels like to think you've done nothing but fail at things; to feel like you're not strong enough; to lose someone important to you without being able to save them.

And that's why that scene caused me to burst into tears. Thancred said nothing in the entire cutscene, but I was still crying.

I think this is the fifth time the game has made me cry. Noraxia was the first, and the scene with Thancred is the most recent...and I doubt it'll be the last before the storyline is complete.

If you like this artwork and wish to help support me in doing them, please take a look at my patreon page at www.patreon.com/mdchan

Description
FFXIV:ARR Heavensward patch 3.2.

I actually think Thancred came out fairly well, considering that I suck at drawing adults. That's my little lalafell machanist in the back, there.
Might ink and color it (or shade it B&W); haven't decided yet.

SPOILERS AHEAD FOR FFXIV:ARR HEAVENSWARD PATCH 3.2!!

SPOILERS
SPOILERS
SPOILERS
SPOILERS
SPOILERS!!!

There are...

...spoilers ahead...

...just in case...

...you missed it...

...the first time.

So, yea. Today, I just finished up the msq of the 3.2 patch for FFXIV:ARR Heavensward (after starting it yesterday).

Like most of the happenings, the patch is divided up into two parts:
Part One is the search for the rest of the missing Scions (Minfilia, specifically);
Part Two is more with Aymeric and the Dragonsong War.

Part One, I completed yesterday...and it had me bawling almost as much as when Haurchefant died.

Though, only part of that was because Minfilia died (though, the characters say conflicting things at the very end, but I'm pretty sure that was an on-screen death). I didn't dislike her character despite the hate she oddly seems to get from some fans.
When she burst into crystal pieces, I was stunned more than anything else. Kinda like "that did not just happen" sort of thing.

But then, when the cutscene triggered the Hero's return to Matoya's cave, alone...and the expressions everyone had...

Now, I started off as a conjurer, so Thancred was not the scion who I saw from the start. However, he was much highlighted in 1.0 cutscenes and the plot there (I didn't play 1.0; I have a friend who did, and I watched cutscenes from it to understand some of the history coming into FFXIV:ARR).
Then, there was him feeling he let everyone down with Ifrit, which led to getting possessed...

Especially after seeing the 1.0 stuff, and then the cutscenes which lead up to the Hero entering the Antitower and trying to bring Minfilia back cementing just how much he cares about Minfilia...

When everything was explained, and he stood there, silent, around that table while everyone had sad expressions and tried to figure out where to go from there, I lost it and burst into tears.

I get attached to the characters if they're done correctly. WoW...don't ask me, I don't remember the name of a single NPC. But FFXIV:ARR? Okay, yea, I had to doublecheck the spelling on some of the names, but I know who they are and have grown fond of many of them.

You work with the same NPCs from the start for long enough, through this journey of a story-driven MMO, and I doubt it's just my hyperfocus which got me attached.

Thancred, though...it's like the writers love to torture the poor guy. He even states later on how he feels guilty for failing to save someone "once again" (referring to Minfilia this time) when (literally) knocking some sense into another NPC.

All I could think about during the cutscene after the Antitower was that Thancred, after all he went through (in 1.0, in the second version and dealing with the guilt of betraying his friends even though he was possessed, having his magick stolen from him and his aether flow messed up, etc), once again got the short end of the stick and was not only unable to save the person he cared most about, but was helpless throughout the entire thing.

I cried, because I know how that feels.

My best friend, Jen, passed away from cancer in 2010. The only thing I could do was keep in touch, make cheerful drawings, and try to stay positive (as we lived in different states).

I lost my cat, Tiger, in early February of 2015 after he ingested huge chunk of a nylon loofa. While the vets were partially to blame in that case for their ineptitude of letting it go on for about two weeks before doing exploratory surgery, there was, even up till recently, guilt which ate at me that I should have thrown the damn loofa out the first time I saw Tiger licking at it since it was falling apart.

In both cases, I was helpless; there was nothing I could do once it reached critical...once things were set in motion. I couldn't save either of them, and I lost them both. I was helpless.

There are also the failures. Thancred blames himself for not moving faster when the Goobbue broke free during the parade (1.0 FFXIV) and said creature wound up crushing Minfilia's father to death. He states later on that he failed many times; even before this event, he wanted to be stronger so he wouldn't fail everyone again...and uses the word "again" often.

I don't have the best success track record, myself. I know what it feels like to think you've done nothing but fail at things; to feel like you're not strong enough; to lose someone important to you without being able to save them.

And that's why that scene caused me to burst into tears. Thancred said nothing in the entire cutscene, but I was still crying.

I think this is the fifth time the game has made me cry. Noraxia was the first, and the scene with Thancred is the most recent...and I doubt it'll be the last before the storyline is complete.

If you like this artwork and wish to help support me in doing them, please take a look at my patreon page at www.patreon.com/mdchan