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Description "I'll see you soon, my love." - Fergus Cousland


We're heading into Cousland spoiler territory… if you haven't played Dragon Age Origins and you still need to do the human noble origin, stop reading.


I remember reading the Diary of Anne Frank a while ago, and relating to my husband how sad it was that the entire family perished in the concentration camps except for the father. His comment to me was something along the lines of, "That is the worst thing that can happen to a man. To fail his family, to outlive his wife and daughters... I can't imagine anything more horrible."

Fergus may have the saddest story in the whole Cousland origin for just that reason. He is prepared to leave and fight and possibly die to defend the land where, presumably, his wife (and the rest of his family) would still raise his son. He couldn't possibly be prepared to learn what he did later on, and live with that.

A note on the art, I was watching the origin for costume references and I realized I drew Oren much shorter and younger looking than how he is portrayed in the game. I feel like his voice actor plays him much younger, though, so I don't think this is too inaccurate. I think it's more likely that they have a "one size fits all" child model and no matter how old the character is, you get that size child. He is roughly the height of a ten or twelve year old, I think, but sounds to me like a five or six year old boy. So that's how I drew him.

Also drawing a little boy looking straight up like that is hella hard.
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Comments: 68

TwilightsInferno [2016-05-10 18:25:38 +0000 UTC]

Agh...this hurts...beautiful job...I need a minute...

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RanmaCMH In reply to TwilightsInferno [2016-05-28 21:47:43 +0000 UTC]

Aw thanks!  This is one of those ones I might redraw some day.  There are things I like and things that don't serve the pose or the emotion.... but it's still a powerful moment.

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LadySephiroth86 [2015-08-26 15:13:11 +0000 UTC]

I remember if you talk to Oren he talks about wanting to learn sword fighting and Fergus replies "Don't worry, you'll see a sword up close soon enough." Or something like that.
Ouch.

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RanmaCMH In reply to LadySephiroth86 [2016-03-19 08:19:51 +0000 UTC]

I knoooow, I didn't catch that connection when I played through but others have pointed it out.  It's a horrible foreshadowing.

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Tamarandom [2015-03-31 19:21:11 +0000 UTC]

Yeaaah, this broke my face because it turns out our little boy has the same name as the boy in the game (T_T)  Made extra rough

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RanmaCMH In reply to Tamarandom [2015-04-02 03:01:49 +0000 UTC]

That would have killed me.  I can't handle anything sad with kids anymore anyway, but that would have made it extra awful.

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Noraye92 In reply to RanmaCMH [2019-04-04 00:55:26 +0000 UTC]

My male Cousland's name is Aaron (my name), so I feel like Fergus named his son after his little brother.  

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Tamarandom In reply to RanmaCMH [2015-04-02 04:44:17 +0000 UTC]

Yeah it was really rough! I'm the same, anything with kids nooooo

I had to call my husband and be sad about it :-/

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HoneyThistle [2015-01-15 00:56:53 +0000 UTC]

GAH ONIONS

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DarthHawk32 [2015-01-02 23:36:20 +0000 UTC]

Fergus surviving where his family dies makes the whole rest of the human noble origin so much more tragic. I like to imagine that your player character feels the grief of losing their family, and it's made all the worse when they realize that Fergus's grief is infinitely compounded by the loss of his wife and son, and the player character feeling the guilt of being unable to spare their brother that guilt. Their reunion would be such a mess of emotions. Or if the player does the sacrifice, that adds that one last bit of grief on top of it all for Fergus, knowing that his sibling had survived, and that he could have been reunited with that one last remaining family member only for the Warden to sacrifice themselves without ever knowing Fergus was still alive. 

Pardon me I think I need to go have a cry. 

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RanmaCMH In reply to DarthHawk32 [2015-01-03 01:18:02 +0000 UTC]

Oh man, it's so true though.  I think I had a genuine sit and cry moment when I was trying to imagine the mess of emotions of wanting to make sure your brother is alive, but at the same time not wanting to see him because that would mean you would have to deliver the news; thinking how much he loved his wife and his little boy.  I might be trying to draw Arlana going through that at some point.  BECAUSE I HAVEN'T DRAWN ENOUGH SADNESS.

I haven't been able to do a play through yet where I can sacrifice my warden.  I would be too emotionally compromised.  And then when people asked why I was so sad I would have to make something up. lol.

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wilder41 [2014-05-03 15:52:30 +0000 UTC]

*Kirk Pose* HOOOOOOOWE! HOOOOOOOOOWE!

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RanmaCMH In reply to wilder41 [2014-05-03 19:20:44 +0000 UTC]

Not lying, this made me laugh.

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Uthenera3692 [2014-03-27 05:39:16 +0000 UTC]

Aauww! The pic along with the description... Tears in the eyes ; n ;

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RanmaCMH In reply to Uthenera3692 [2014-03-29 09:39:04 +0000 UTC]

I promise this story eventually gets less depressing ;___;

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DefinitionOfDestiny [2014-03-04 17:41:08 +0000 UTC]

Oh, this hits so close to my heart! I love your work.
Back to stalking the rest of your gallery.

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RanmaCMH In reply to DefinitionOfDestiny [2014-03-06 22:55:32 +0000 UTC]

Oh man, wait till the next page….

I'm glad you're enjoying the work though!  Thank you!

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DefinitionOfDestiny In reply to RanmaCMH [2014-03-07 20:51:10 +0000 UTC]

Now I'm not sure I want to see the next page, will it break my heart?

Haha you're welcome. Your works are awesome indeed.

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RanmaCMH In reply to DefinitionOfDestiny [2014-03-10 21:45:03 +0000 UTC]

If I do it right it will!

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DefinitionOfDestiny In reply to RanmaCMH [2014-03-10 21:47:33 +0000 UTC]

There's no way you won't do it right, as I've seen through your gallery I'll keep an eye on it, then!

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VampKate95 [2014-02-14 15:43:50 +0000 UTC]

WOW

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hgn1 [2014-02-07 00:36:25 +0000 UTC]

In my imagination, Howe suffered so much more than he did when my Cousland killed him.
So. Much.
ALL OF THESE FEELS THOUGH. I JUST... I JUST CAN'T EVEN. ;-;

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RanmaCMH In reply to hgn1 [2014-02-09 08:47:29 +0000 UTC]

Oh man, I haven't even started to properly imagine that scene with my Cousland yet.  That is such an emotionally intense moment, and even though I've seen it in the game I don't quite know how Arlana would carry it out.  The hardest part about trying to get these pictures right is going through the feels to figure out the correct gestures and facial expressions.  I am not looking forward to the next couple pages to be honest.  So, SO sad. -__-

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hgn1 In reply to RanmaCMH [2014-02-09 14:06:59 +0000 UTC]

I imagined my Cousland would just snap and continuously hit Howe with her sword, even after he was dead, and the others would try to drag her away. Alistair would be yelling something along the lines of, "Enough, my love! He's dead!"
Oh man. I'm glad you're the one drawing these things... Well, I'm going to go watch some cat videos now. Try to drag myself out of this emotional mess called "The Cousland Origin".

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Dolly-Belladonna [2014-01-07 00:02:59 +0000 UTC]

Heartbreaking

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daytriper23 [2013-10-08 21:37:31 +0000 UTC]

Incredibly beautiful, this always makes me tear up.  As a parent myself I can think of nothing worse than to lose my family.

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RanmaCMH In reply to daytriper23 [2013-10-09 01:11:08 +0000 UTC]

Thank you for the compliment.  I think while you are playing its easy to get wrapped up in the fast paced action and not get the full effect of how tragic this story is.  Just trying to do it justice. 

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aelis-the-cat [2013-10-03 21:33:20 +0000 UTC]

Oh, sweet Maker, no.  Considering that I'm living in Fergus's head for fanfiction writing purposes, this hurts.  Beautifully drawn.

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RanmaCMH In reply to aelis-the-cat [2013-10-03 23:55:36 +0000 UTC]

Ohh nooo that's a sad place to live for writing purposes.  Keep the box of tissues nearby.

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embyreternity [2013-10-01 06:57:20 +0000 UTC]

"Don't worry Oren. You'll get your chance to see a sword up close soon."

love this picture though. Straight to the feels.

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RanmaCMH In reply to embyreternity [2013-10-02 00:19:06 +0000 UTC]

Saddest foreshadowing ever. ;___;


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Myridd [2013-09-30 04:33:19 +0000 UTC]

T-T Gah, right in the feels! DAMN YOU HOWE!

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queen-scribbles [2013-09-11 23:02:25 +0000 UTC]

Ugh, Maker, MY HEARTTTTTT.

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RanmaCMH In reply to queen-scribbles [2013-09-12 20:51:54 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry. -___-  It's going to be sad for a little while before it gets better.  My heart too. 

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queen-scribbles In reply to RanmaCMH [2013-09-13 10:34:07 +0000 UTC]

Don't apologize, your art is gorgeous and moving(great job with the poses). I've always thought the Cousland origin was one of the saddest in the game(tied with Mahariel). The fact it can get so much emotion out of me is why it's one of my favorites, and you did a great job translating that into your art. (I also agree with you about Oren. He definitely sounds like he's 5 or 6. Which makes things even sadder TT_TT)

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RanmaCMH In reply to queen-scribbles [2013-09-14 03:30:55 +0000 UTC]

Thank you very much.  I always try to make art that is moving in some way.  So that is a wonderful compliment.

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queen-scribbles In reply to RanmaCMH [2013-09-14 22:59:34 +0000 UTC]

You are most welcome. C:

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icyhugs [2013-09-11 12:44:33 +0000 UTC]

Oh no.................................................................................... T^T

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RanmaCMH In reply to icyhugs [2013-09-12 20:52:00 +0000 UTC]

I knooooow

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MerlindaDragon [2013-09-10 22:46:10 +0000 UTC]

I always thought he was more like 5/6 as well.  And yes, I always feel so bad for Fergus, too.  What happens to him in terms of his family is really horrible.

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RanmaCMH In reply to MerlindaDragon [2013-09-10 23:54:44 +0000 UTC]

I'm glad it's not just me who feels like he's pretty young.  I love his little voice actor though.  Especially when he says, "Wots a wench?"

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MerlindaDragon In reply to RanmaCMH [2013-09-11 00:20:34 +0000 UTC]

"Take that, dire bunny!  Beware my sword of truthiness!!"

No ten-year-old would say 'truthiness'.  A ten-year-old has a better grasp of the language than that.  So, yup... I'm with ya!! 

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apples-ishness [2013-09-10 08:30:12 +0000 UTC]

the artwork is such a great example of "a moment captured in time". Sad stories make great art. I really like the monotonous colour palette, it just fits so well with the idea of "we never expect things to go so wrong, we believe things will never change"

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RanmaCMH In reply to apples-ishness [2013-09-10 19:51:00 +0000 UTC]

I never really thought of it that way.  Like an old photograph of a moment remembered.  I love it.  Thank you for the compliment!

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apples-ishness In reply to RanmaCMH [2013-09-11 17:35:38 +0000 UTC]

you're very welcome. You deserve it!

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gothicskittles93 [2013-09-10 00:44:29 +0000 UTC]

All of the Origin stories are sad, but this one is easily the saddest. Watching the wife and son's dead bodies nearly killed me and then watching Teryn Cousland die before you is just so...


I love what you did with the goodbye moment. I feel like the game should've had more hugs.

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RanmaCMH In reply to gothicskittles93 [2013-09-10 06:32:02 +0000 UTC]

There should have been more hugs.  I'M GOING TO DRAW THEM ALL!!

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Protahtoh [2013-09-09 19:14:56 +0000 UTC]

I'm just gonna

sit in a corner

and sob violently

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RanmaCMH In reply to Protahtoh [2013-09-09 22:39:27 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, pretty much. ;__;  Have to get through the origin to get back to fun times.

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Protahtoh In reply to RanmaCMH [2013-09-09 22:44:13 +0000 UTC]

Everything is tragic with this game I swear I spent half the time sobbing and the other half wanting to hug companions

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