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"Someone told me once, that she believed we make life hard for ourselves by keeping things bottled up inside. Whether it be due to shame, embarrassment, fear, pride or some other emotion we don't share the things that are on our hearts like we should. We wallow in them and never realize that everyone else feels the same way. Our conflicts, our dreams, and the things that make us who we are should be free to be spoken out loud." -Group:
Original Shout It Out: [link]
God, this turned out depressing. And sloppy. It was really... liberating to make, though. It's one of those things that I think everyone should do, even if you don't post them.
Please ignore the picture in the corner (I don't draw much... >.>; ), except to note that it was gorgeously colored by , a friend of mine who also made my avatar.
(Feel free to ask about anything mentioned in this picture, or to point out if something's illegible or difficult to understand. There are about fifty "he/she/they/it"s up there, and they're all talking about different people...)
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Religion isn't bad. My church is totally open to everything. You just hate it because you think we're all homophobes. We support it, we're a hate-free zone. And we don't shove our beliefs down other people's throats, either.
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...I should probably do one of these.
From reading this though it's like I wrote it...Most parts anyway.
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Oh Lordeh, I keep forgetting I haven't moved this to scraps with my other awkward stuff.
Thank you, though. It was an interesting picture to make- everyone should do one. You don't even have to post it- just draw it and burn it. What else are vent pieces for, right?xD
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Tehe, I think I'd still roam through scraps
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I feel like I can relate to a vast majority of the stuff up there. (I'm totally not exaggerating.) I hope making this helped you feel better. It really inspired me with the amount of emotion and honesty in it. ^^
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Awww, thank you, honey. ;3;
I'm sorry you can relate to so much of it.
It really was a liberating project to make...
You should do one!
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No problem.
Yeahhh... Well I deal with it. xD
I would but I 'm afraid to. ._. A lot of my IRL friends have dA's.
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Pfft, mine do, too. You'd be surprised at the amount of serious, important arguments that sprung up because of this picture.
MAKE ONE ANYWAY. You don't have to post it. It's good just to... eh, get it all down. You down?
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Weeeeelllll... Fine. Maybe I'll send it to you instead of posting it.
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God, this is the best writer-empowering piece I've ever seen. I'm a writer myself and I got rendered speechless by the amount of emotion this has inspired in me. It's like, all the words we could never say. It's amazing, and morbid, and beautifully wrong. Bravo. Bra-vo. 
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Wow, thank you so much, man, that means a lot to me.
I made if for this amazing project called Shout-It-Out... there's a link in the artist's comments. You should totally make one.
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Really? Oh God, I gotta try that. Like, I'm sure you can relate - it's frustrating when words are your art, but you can't seem to properly express how you feel inside. And yeah, I'm an insomniac, too. Just noticed that.
You're welcome.
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WHOA! THIS IS SO COOL! I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE POSTING STUFF!!
...so, I hope you don't mind my asking, but who is she? Or is that a story best to be untold?
Okay, since this is spectacular, this might be a long response.
I absolutely adore the blatant sense of honesty, partially of 'this is how I feel' and of 'this is how I am', if that makes sense. I love the simplicity of each line, how it seems stream of thought but short and simple, like it's okay if perhaps not all the details are known. I love how some of the lines slip down into eachother, how the spacing defines some of the lines more so than the precise wording.
And also, I found some of the lines particularly moving, and though I won't re-quote all of the ones I liked, because that would take for-absolutely-ever, I'll mention "sometimes I feel like all my friends are all just pretending", "what if being happy is more important than being right," {{TRUE!!!}}, "I am never going to matter", and many many others...
I wonder if the compliments or statements of respect for the strength of a work here is somehow feeling like a triviality compared to the fact that the emotion you've mentioned is very real. Should I, too, be saying how I feel?
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Darrien... this was posted over two months ago... xD
But thanks, man, comments from you make my day so much better. <3
And of course I don't mind you asking. The point of the project (which you should totally do, by the way) is complete and utter honesty.
There are about ten different "she"s in this, man (the majority of my friends are male; the majority of my close friends are female), and some of the lines (like "I don't deserve her") refer to anyone and everyone. Which one in particular do you mean? There aren't a lot of people that you know in this... I'm pretty sure I was talking about Sarah with "I literally cannot imagine life without her", though. We were talking about it at camp... we did the math and figured out she's been my best friend for the majority of both of our lives. She's the only friend I've kept that long, and we've kind of grown up leaning on each other... does that make sense? I was trying to figure out what I'd be like if I'd never met her, and I honestly couldn't. AND YEAH. THAT.
I haven't looked at this picture in ages... o.0 I was so obsessed with religion back then. Guess I still am. A lot of this has to do with that-- like the line you mentioned, the one about being happy and being right and all. I was talking about how if someone's belief honestly makes their life happier, I don't have any sort of right or duty to waltz in and tell them all the ways they're wrong.
As for the one about never mattering... I've got to be honest, I think about that too much. It's true, though, even if it does sound a bit angsty. It's just that I'm not particularly smart, talented, or attractive. I mean, I'm going to age and die, probably just sitting here in small town Tennessee, and no matter how many times people tell me that I can "matter in small ways"... honestly, that's never going to be good enough. And even if I do something insane and change the world and cure AIDs or whatever, I'm still going to be one more old woman wishing I'd actually done something important.
...That was depressing. Sorry.
It was an interesting project to do, though. Liberating, y'know. There's a link in the artist's comments- you should make one.
(Oh my god, this is such a long-winded, rather self-serving response. xD)
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ACH DU BIST 'NE LIEBES PIEFKE where shall I start?
I think mattering is a thing of relativity, honestly. First off, just to say, you are have a very happy smily that fits your appearance very well, you are really quite an intellectual thinker and are a very great all-around person. Also, to me, you are very important. But that's a relativity, very true, and I understand what you mean there. It used to bother me until I settled into a philosophy of the relativity of happiness. Going into the next thing.
First on that. It made me think of this great song lyric [von Herrenmagazin! ...i promise I listen to other musicians, Herrenmagazin's just the only one that matters]: "Sie haben die Bibel nur erfunden um selber Gott zu sein." OR, they only established the bible to be god themselves. I totally agree with your statement, in that there's definitely no duty to tell someone their joy is not okay since there is no right to do that in the first place. I mean, I figure one can do what they may so long as it's not hurting me or persecuting me. Also, though, I found myself thinking of another thing in reading the statement, though I definitely get your meaning and thoroughly agree. It got me thinking of the thing I said before, about a relative happiness. See, 'cause a thing about a lot of moralities and Christianity, surely, probably many other religions as well, is that other things get put before you. God and your "neighbor" is more important than how you feel, or other people's well being or society or duty, true. But for me, I honestly feel that the only person's happiness I need to pursue would be my own, because I am not God, nor my neighbor, and I only reap what I sow. Like, I don't mean I hate other people or that I think that I can be an ass or anything, but I just like to think that as long as I'm not being an ass, making other people happy is something that I choose genuinely to try to do, if that makes sense....eh, this is a strange thing to be thinking of, heh. It's a bit hard to explain without sounding selfish, or mean, or like I'm making excuses. But that's part of my rationalization about life that I try to follow in order to get over feeling small, or pressured to know everything and follow set moral guidelines.
Hmm, for the "her" one, any more info about "I think I'm losing her"? Because that one dinged a little bell for me because I know that feeling and I've written like, too many poems about it. Heh heh. And deed, perhaps I will do one. 0.0
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Pfft, I'm so bad at compliments. You made me blush across the internet. Not fair. >///> (D'awww, you're very important to me, too.)
As for the relativity thing... yeah, I know that, logically. It's just that I'm a fundamentally greedy person... I think the best way to describe it is that I'm not doomed to never be happy, I'm doomed to never be satisfied.
OHMYFUCKINGGOD, DARRIEN, YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I LOVE THAT LINE. It reminds of something a man named Sir Richard Francis Burton said: "The more I study religions, the more I am convinced that man never worshipped anything but himself."
Which is true. Very, very true.
And yeah, that's what I mean. I'm a confident atheist (though I occasionally wish I was not), but if I went around rubbing my opinion in the face of anyone who has the gall to disagree, I'd be as bad as they are. It's like in Animal Farm, that Orwell book, where the animals take over the farm with such good intentions, but eventually become indistinguishable from the "wicked" humans they overthrew.
I think I know what you're talking about, in that Christianity is most certainly a religion of subtraction. There's this idea running throughout the Bible, this repeated commandment of "if you like something, stop doing it." There are actually religions devoted to the very opposite- "if you like it, it's good". Satanism is the one that springs to mind. (Not that I'm calling you a Satanist, and not that if I was, it'd be a bad thing).
Oh, that was another line that referred to multiple people. xD It was mostly for a few friends of mine from my old school, that, without the forced proximity of education, I've started to loose contact with. In fact, I guess it was about everyone I used to be close to, and now don't see often enough. I know too many people like that... >.>
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This is seriously amazing. It's all the thought so people walks around with every day .. and i'm one of them. Damn. Thank you.
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Thank you, though I suppose this is one of those things that I'm sorry so many people can identify with.
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Well, don't be.
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Aww, I'm sorry. We'll all be okay eventually, though.
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Oh, the Westboro Baptists... When I was 17, I got to see George Carlin live in Topeka, Kansas, all of two weeks (or so) after 9/11. Naturally, being in their backyard, Fred Phelps and his merry band of Bible-thumping morons came out in full force to protest, well, everything. That urge you had to slap someone? I still don't know how a few hundred obvious liberals managed to avoid jail time that night.
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I love this.
It describes a lot of me, personally.
<3
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Gah, I know how you feel with a lot of these. You matter to people, whether or not you realise it. I feel like I'm meaningless to the world as a whole, like I don't have a purpose. I hate that. Sex scares me, too. :/ I'm also really paranoid. I HATE when people joke about self-harm or suicide. 
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I know what you mean about being meaningless- I feel like I'm going to wake up one day and be eighty years old and realize I haven't really done anything, that I've used too much time and now I don't have any left. You know?
I've been in the same situation, with the self-harm and the suicidal friends and all- and then some people think it's just the stupidest thing in the world, and just can't stop cracking jokes about it. Gah... I hope you feel better, too.
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Yeah, I just feel so small compared to the world, y'know?
Yeah, they're really stupid and heartless.
Thank you, it means a lot.
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you're not alone with this and there's no need you have to feel awkward about yourself, because you're just as normal as everybody else and so is your life, so don't worry about being different or abnormal ^^ you are you and that's good
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Told you it would end up being uber depressing. xD
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WE NEED TO HANG OUT MAN BEFORE YOU GOES TO CAMPPPP. D:
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I remember making one of these several years ago. My life was (even more) boring then. This is awesome, and the doodle in the corner is really good. I wish I could draw cartoons! /despair/ xD
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WE DO. WE REALLY, REALLY DO. D: WE HAVE NINE DAYS, MAN.
You should do another one, dude, it'd be interesting. o3o And I'd rather draw in your style- it's so unique, not this generic cartoon anime stuff that everyone else uses.
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K. I HAVE A SERIOUS TENDENCY TO WITHDRAW DURING THE SUMMER AND LOCK MYSELF IN MY ROOM WITH BOOKS AND MUSIC (I've already gotten through... four or five books? I can't remember. And I'm halfway through, like, six more. O___o). Occasionally I leave my hideaway for food and showers every few days. xD
haha, thanks, if by that you mean my awkward semi-realism. xD I struggle with cartoon people--I can do cartoon (but not realistic!) dogs, but people are so intricate it's hard for me not to make them "realistic"... I need more anatomy practice... x.x
SO I'LL CALL YOU OR SOMETHING EVENTUALLY?
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I ACTUALLY TEND TO DO THE SAME SORT OF THING. And then people are like, "So I'm coming over k" and I'm like, "I'm... busy." See, the mistake was letting me buy a laptop. I WILL BE BUSY FOREVER.
Dude, you draw really well. I still have that picture of me and the Jolteon on my bulletin board. It's epic. xD Besides, your dogs are gorgeous- I can't draw animals anymore. I actually don't draw much of anything anymore (it comes from having super talented friends), I just had to do something for this project. But yeah- remember you drawing a random picture of Snape and the stack of money with eyes from that car insurance commercial on the bus last year? Because I just found that, and it's good, too. Tad creepy, but good. o3o
IF BY "EVENTUALLY" YOU MEAN IN THE NEXT NINE DAYS. And sorry, luv, but I can't bike over there again. It's 95 degrees outside. ;~;
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I feel really bad sometimes actually, that I am so reclusive and selfish that way. D: But I can't help it.
Thanks<333 I need to draw you something better, and more current. xD THE MONEY IS WATCHING YOU.
No, in the name of FSM don't bike hear. Pasta, it's way to hot. I HAVE A CAR MAN. WITH AC AND STUFF. *does technology dance* And we can listen to the Symphony of Science on my ipod, haha.
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So many of these are me, more often than I'd like to admit. I just caught myself in the last few days saying that my friends are important to me, and then shutting them out cause I was having a couple bad days. So I admit I'm a hypocrite, and at some point have been guilty of all these statements myself. 
You ARE beautiful. And worth more, at least to me, than you give yourself credit for. Your encouragement and friendship mean a lot to me. I don't know when the last time I said that was, and I'm sorry. But... you ARE beautiful, and cared deeply for. I speak for myself, and I'm sure there are others who think so too.
If you ever need to talk, note me. I'm on Skype and MSN if you're interested in either.
You are beautiful! Even if you don't see it in yourself
- Matt
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I do that a lot- claim friends are important and then shut them out. Actually, what I tend to do is get upset for no real reason and start ignoring texts/phone calls/facebook messages/etc, then wonder why no one's texted me in a while. >.>
And thank you so much for saying that, even though I've never posted a picture online. xD Your encouragement and friendship mean a lot to me, too.
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and by all, I mean more like 90% realistically
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Eh, it feels like it, but I probably make it sound a lot worse than it is.
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Oh, thank God. I thought that was a /negative/ disapproving "I say". I was picturing an old British guy with a monocle and a mustache shaking his head disapprovingly. o3o;
Thank you so much.
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welcome your drawing i realt with
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This is everything I'm feeling right now.
Amazing <3
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Awww, thank you. It's so relieving to hear I'm not the only one- to be honest, I was a bit afraid that this would come off as ridiculously cheesy.
Good luck, man. I hope we both feel better soon.
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Nope, not cheesy. Raw, emotional, TRUE, but not cheesy. :]
Damn, I hope we do too
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That means a lot to me, man, and I'm sure we will someday, right? And thanks for the watch, as well.
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Someday <3
Welcomes ^^
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