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Published: 2014-02-26 10:47:59 +0000 UTC; Views: 14581; Favourites: 230; Downloads: 14
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Description I'm extremely sorry on the delay in responding to messages >_<

I work all the time now.

Now I'm forfeiting sleep for comics lol.


Doesn't matter how stressed I am. I don't show up to work or school with personal problems revealed on my face. Unless it's final weeks. No one gives a shiet anymore during that time. ^^' Lol when the manager asked why I smile all the time...that's the same moment/ day I found out Mikey (my lil brother from another mother and father) passed away. I think my pillow was drowned in tears that night. I didn't think it'd hit me so hard.


Can't believe I showed up to work the next day like I didn't cry the eff outta my eyes I might have gone blind the night prior.


I'm like a cat when it comes to stranger. Polite but distance.

Once I like someone, I'm loyal as a dog. It doesn't matter how long it's been since I saw them last. The bond will always be there.


That's why I hate welcoming too many people into my life. I can only grieve over loss so many times. (Sometimes loss by drifting apart or life leads us to different places. I'm always miles away from people I love the most. It sucks. It's like I'd miss them profusely but the distance.)


I blame whoremones for the sappy arts. Sorry. lolz


On a random note, my manager looks like the type that would die young...like Mikey. Like their life force is so low, it's almost flickering. I don't know how to explain it. Last time I saw Mikey. I told Arnold (best friend) that Mikey looked like he was going to die.


He did a few months later. (Which is now.)



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Comments: 118

Superinsanewolf [2014-10-20 01:44:29 +0000 UTC]

I barely cry anymore, even when I'm feeling completely shitty. Hell i've even tried crying in front of my friends or just by myself so I can finally let it out.

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BellatorMortis99 In reply to Superinsanewolf [2016-05-30 17:02:41 +0000 UTC]

Lucky I cry way too much, for example, I practically sob every time I see the ending to the Steven Universe episode, "Coach Steven". Which is kinda emotional and meaningful, if you don't watch that show.
Fml

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Superinsanewolf In reply to BellatorMortis99 [2016-06-03 04:18:31 +0000 UTC]

I wouldn't count myself lucky. It hurts really bad not being able to cry. Like you feel it right under your eyelids but your body refuses to let it out.

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BellatorMortis99 In reply to Superinsanewolf [2016-06-04 01:24:38 +0000 UTC]

;-; shit I messed up

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Superinsanewolf In reply to BellatorMortis99 [2016-06-05 01:57:59 +0000 UTC]

It's ok dear. No harm done. :3

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BellatorMortis99 In reply to Superinsanewolf [2016-06-05 04:56:11 +0000 UTC]

*slowly removes armor*
*puts it back on because paranoia*

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Joachim-Berger [2014-09-20 14:19:36 +0000 UTC]

I like your comics.
They have more realism in them than what I'm used to see on the Internet. You're human in them.
I don't know how else to say it.
I'm going to read more.

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otakulena [2014-08-08 17:28:05 +0000 UTC]

same here ;-; and no-one ever knows..

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Nnoki [2014-08-01 03:12:06 +0000 UTC]

I have a question. Is that the symbol for scorpio? I have just recently started looking through your gallery and I noticed it.

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Cupcakequeen16 [2014-06-15 22:11:01 +0000 UTC]

I can relate so much, I always smile too. Mostly because I like to smile.

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AJInu-Okami [2014-05-12 22:11:59 +0000 UTC]

I can relate.

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TinyandHuge [2014-03-07 15:43:25 +0000 UTC]

Everyone can relate. EVERYONE

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SnaiLords In reply to TinyandHuge [2014-03-07 20:24:33 +0000 UTC]

Hahah GOOD! XD

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Night-Shadow-13 [2014-03-04 18:31:07 +0000 UTC]

I know the feeling all too well,
It's much easier to show real emotions when no-one is watching.

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SnaiLords In reply to Night-Shadow-13 [2014-03-04 20:41:32 +0000 UTC]

Definitely! You are safer that way

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MinadoriDenise In reply to SnaiLords [2014-08-29 16:17:25 +0000 UTC]

so true

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Eib0n [2014-03-03 18:02:58 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry for your loss...

*isn't good at that kind of thing*


on another note

my boss also tells me often how great it is how nice and friendly I am to our customers

I'm trying not to tell him that it's because I enjoy lying to them with smiles

"why yes! I so love talking to random people, because I'm so interested in their lifes "

he wouldn't talk to me that often if he knew, I thinkΒ 

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SnaiLords In reply to Eib0n [2014-03-04 10:19:45 +0000 UTC]

HAhahahahahhahahahahahahahahahaha! I hand you an Oscar for epic everyday acting skills!

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Eib0n In reply to SnaiLords [2014-03-04 19:27:35 +0000 UTC]

ehehehehe
why, thank you!
I thank all the morons who test me everyday and force me to stife for bigger smiles.
I also thank my playstation for always being there, even in my mind.
and last but not least I thank my mouth for all the stretching done in the past years!

May the smiles be ever in your favor!

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salmonandcapers [2014-03-02 22:40:32 +0000 UTC]

are you hoping that your manager will die?

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SnaiLords In reply to salmonandcapers [2014-03-04 10:20:05 +0000 UTC]

Lol not at all! He's a very nice guy!

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salmonandcapers In reply to SnaiLords [2014-03-04 17:26:13 +0000 UTC]

I thought he was flirting with you tho?? Death to flirters! (haha jk)

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Engiru [2014-03-02 19:27:36 +0000 UTC]

gaah....lol same here...and its better to be loved, then watch that love burst than to be never loved at all. (well for me)

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SnaiLords In reply to Engiru [2014-03-04 10:20:47 +0000 UTC]

I agree XD

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waj317 [2014-03-01 19:04:06 +0000 UTC]

*waj*: I'm alway smiling... Β  and I don't cry Β 

*ghost*: I just don't care...

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SnaiLords In reply to waj317 [2014-03-04 10:21:11 +0000 UTC]

Lolz ok Joker.

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LSD3 [2014-02-27 23:57:46 +0000 UTC]

I offer you ALL the hugs

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SnaiLords In reply to LSD3 [2014-03-04 10:21:48 +0000 UTC]

Are they free??? Or discounted at least???

I'll take 4 hugs to-go please!

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mainehawk [2014-02-27 20:36:51 +0000 UTC]

I am sending you an infinity's worth of electronic hugs right now. Β Stay strong! I know I speak for everyone when I say we will always be there for you! Β  Β 

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SnaiLords In reply to mainehawk [2014-02-27 20:57:39 +0000 UTC]

Thank you Mainehawk XD


I'm ok now. No worries. I haven't been in contact with him for 2 years. Just shocked by the news at that moment.


lol Plus, I've drowned enough of pillows in tears to feel better now

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mainehawk In reply to SnaiLords [2014-03-02 04:07:22 +0000 UTC]

Tears always do seem to help stressful situations. Β  Β 

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in-no-hurry2grow [2014-02-27 18:38:19 +0000 UTC]

Whenever I watch sad movies, I cry for the rest of my life.

Whenever I get frustrated or depressed, I cry, eat a lot, sleep, and in the morning:


I forget why I was crying.

Everything seems better in the morning

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SnaiLords In reply to in-no-hurry2grow [2014-02-27 20:38:43 +0000 UTC]

hahahahah that depends.


If the crying did released all tense up emotions or if the problem is fixed or not.


Or I'd just feel like throwing up in the morning loll

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in-no-hurry2grow In reply to SnaiLords [2014-02-27 23:58:27 +0000 UTC]

you might need to sleep with a bucket next to your bed or something. Sometimes crying too much gives you hiccups. But then, hiccups might make you cry more.

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Mousenibbles [2014-02-27 08:24:47 +0000 UTC]

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SnaiLords In reply to Mousenibbles [2014-02-27 15:25:12 +0000 UTC]

Them feels

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naviman [2014-02-27 02:29:03 +0000 UTC]

being able to split your personal life from your social one is a gift, but is also a curse, not expressing to someone your emotions can end up with you exploding with stress and a emotional mess.


take care, please

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SnaiLords In reply to naviman [2014-02-27 15:26:15 +0000 UTC]

It's ok, I kill people at night to relieve stress. So I can smile in the morning.


Hahahah

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naviman In reply to SnaiLords [2014-02-27 22:36:28 +0000 UTC]

not the technique I prefer, but meh


just remember what I told you

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Nikoru-chi [2014-02-27 02:17:54 +0000 UTC]

Funny how Imouto-chan and I have these conversations about our smiles being out masks...never thought someone else shared the same theory welcome to the club...we share food

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SnaiLords In reply to Nikoru-chi [2014-02-27 15:26:50 +0000 UTC]

There's food?


*runs away* lol Back on diet for summer!

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Nikoru-chi In reply to SnaiLords [2014-03-09 04:07:53 +0000 UTC]

XD what if it was fat free yogurt, would you come back? XD

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Sorasubject01 [2014-02-27 02:10:39 +0000 UTC]

I completely understand this. One minute I'll be freaking out in class and the next I'll be laughing with my friends. I'm surprised they're so easy to to hide. I guess my blackened soul helps with that lmao

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SnaiLords In reply to Sorasubject01 [2014-02-27 15:27:27 +0000 UTC]

Hahah we've trained ourselves in the art of masking emotions.

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Sorasubject01 In reply to SnaiLords [2014-02-28 01:43:54 +0000 UTC]

Come young padwan and we shall train you in the art of not feeling lol

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Shell19 [2014-02-27 00:01:10 +0000 UTC]

I know what you mean about being emotional in private but
wow, you're so strong to be able to go to work the next day.
Don't push yourself too hard.
We're here for you <3

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SnaiLords In reply to Shell19 [2014-02-27 15:27:55 +0000 UTC]

Thank you sweetie.


The thoughts of you guys being there with me mentally keep me going ^^

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Koi-Winters [2014-02-26 23:40:31 +0000 UTC]

I'm the same way. Β I don't deal with emotions the best way, and usually hold them in. Β I'm usually a pretty happy person, but when it comes to loss, or a depressing topic, I'm a bawler. Β I'll cry until I can't anymore and usually have a major headache afterward.


A good cry helps. Β Hands down.

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SnaiLords In reply to Koi-Winters [2014-02-27 15:28:29 +0000 UTC]

lol it definitely does release all the emotions/feels so you can move on.


Like a detox/cleansing lol

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Koi-Winters In reply to SnaiLords [2014-02-27 22:50:18 +0000 UTC]

A very refreshing detox/cleansing xD

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