Description
This was a very personal piece for myself for my illustration class. unfortunately my prof thought I didn't nail the concept of being ashamed since she wanted it to be extremely clear and I got a lousy mark. Nor did she understand a lot of why I made it as subtle vs making it super clear it was full out my intention to make it subtle.
Because of all the negativity I got back from the prof I wasn't going to upload it here but after 2 months of reflecting on it, I really do like the final end of it so I'm going to upload it.
The Idea
This gets super personal for me. so bare with me
This is for my Illustration class and it has a deep meaning behind it. Our project was an editorial piece that resembles what people could be ashamed of. Well clearly no one would be ashamed of being a mermaid RIGHT?
Behind this is not mermaid's or fairy tales it's being ashamed of who you are. As a person. We all hide who we are and at some point in your life you might of been ashamed of who you were so we change. We fall to the ground we feel like the world is fallen but it's as if we are drowning. Your pretending to be a human to hide it to the world when really your this mythical creature in your heart. We allow ourselves to be consumed by hiding behind who we are and eventually drown.
Another view for myself is that I'm an Otaku and growing up I've been ashamed of being an Otaku at one time. When I can't find a common ground when talking to someone I revert to anime and cartoons. But when people walk into my apartment I get self conscious I've always been like this cuz of friends picking through my stuff back home finding something that they would make fun of (like a simple poster ect.) and it would just make me feel embarrassed, So I never really embraced the full blown Otaku that I am today. But as for this image it was embracing the mermaid as a cosplayer and pretending your normal but reality your obsessed with what people would classify as "childrens genre" and It just gets under your skin eventually you bottle it up and try your damn hardest to not talk about it. But when it comes out it's always about Tentacles...
Simple form: You pretend your someone that your not and eventually you end up drowning in the persona you've created vs the real you; that your absolutely disgusted about yourself.
note: The person drawn isn't a self portrait I just ended up drawing a long hair blondy. i had blond hair but it was uberly short. I just seem to always go to this blond figure a lot.
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