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I remember you as you once were,
The girl with the blonde hair like straw
And the big blue eyes like summer.

Our first meeting, now hazy with the fog time brings,
Two little girls,
Both put together by following the wrong recipe:
A dash of shyness –
A spoonful of happiness –
And more sisterly love than the world could hold,
Despite our blood having not one cell in common.

You were the sister I always wanted,
The girl with the blonde hair like straw
And the big blue eyes like summer.

We laughed together and lied together.
We stayed up all night together,
Popcorn in our laps instead of the bowl,
Secretly watching movies we were too young for
And ones we were too old for.
We were inseparable,
Nearly literally one heart in two bodies.

I knew I would always be with you,
The girl with the blonde hair like straw
And the big blue eyes like summer.

Fights and misunderstandings happened all at once
As you followed a treasure map
And found boys at the X.
And I?
I was left behind –
Or maybe I turned at the first red light –
I saw the black pavement you were driving on,
With the sheer cliff at the end.

I started fearing you would never press the brakes, you,
The girl with the blonde hair like straw
And the big blue eyes like summer.

-

"I'm pregnant."

I know. I have for awhile now.
"He promises he'll stay out of jail now."

He'll leave you, heartbroken and damaged goods –
"The doctor says it's a boy."

– And you'll have to raise your son alone.
"You know LYLAS, girlie."

Love you like a sister. I've heard that so many times.
"I always will."

Oh god.

Why?
-

You're a shadow in the back of my mind,
The childhood I will always miss.

But I remember you as you once were,
The girl with the blonde hair like straw,
And the big blue eyes like summer.

Description
I remember you as you once were,
The girl with the blonde hair like straw
And the big blue eyes like summer.

Our first meeting, now hazy with the fog time brings,
Two little girls,
Both put together by following the wrong recipe:
A dash of shyness –
A spoonful of happiness –
And more sisterly love than the world could hold,
Despite our blood having not one cell in common.

You were the sister I always wanted,
The girl with the blonde hair like straw
And the big blue eyes like summer.

We laughed together and lied together.
We stayed up all night together,
Popcorn in our laps instead of the bowl,
Secretly watching movies we were too young for
And ones we were too old for.
We were inseparable,
Nearly literally one heart in two bodies.

I knew I would always be with you,
The girl with the blonde hair like straw
And the big blue eyes like summer.

Fights and misunderstandings happened all at once
As you followed a treasure map
And found boys at the X.
And I?
I was left behind –
Or maybe I turned at the first red light –
I saw the black pavement you were driving on,
With the sheer cliff at the end.

I started fearing you would never press the brakes, you,
The girl with the blonde hair like straw
And the big blue eyes like summer.

-

"I'm pregnant."

I know. I have for awhile now.
"He promises he'll stay out of jail now."

He'll leave you, heartbroken and damaged goods –
"The doctor says it's a boy."

– And you'll have to raise your son alone.
"You know LYLAS, girlie."

Love you like a sister. I've heard that so many times.
"I always will."

Oh god.

Why?
-

You're a shadow in the back of my mind,
The childhood I will always miss.

But I remember you as you once were,
The girl with the blonde hair like straw,
And the big blue eyes like summer.