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Dyemelikeasunset — Body Of A Lover
Published: 2016-03-14 21:07:57 +0000 UTC; Views: 11007; Favourites: 565; Downloads: 74
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Another loud-colors-with-lyrics piece, hah. This one was inspired by Josef Salvat's song Hustler , which caiterprince sent meI was in the middle of working on Ellie's timeline when I heard it, and it just rEALLY HURT because of her background. Lately I've been exploring the effects of hypersexuality as a result of sexual abuse and trauma, reading about how it effects people and, well, myself. I've gotten quite a few comments and messages on Tumblr thanking me about the way I'm approaching Elliel's history and recovery so I guess I wanted to express some of those themes with more visceral, jarring imagery
The lyrics might be a bit hard to read since I was experimenting, so if you want to see the lyrics for the song please click here: genius.com/Josef-salvat-hustle…
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your ability to mix music and art, i know i mentioned it in another comment or maybe a few comments i don't even know but it stuns me. this piece is just so raw it's one of those we talked about that just like. i feel like i'm seeing too much or intruding. it's so fucking good though and i'm so glad you made this. the color choices are awesome especially with the switch between that sky blue and that green with the text and lighting.
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yeah, this piece was a little hard to draw, but I'm happy I did. I guess the pieces that are the most important are always the hardest to get out
Thank you :')
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No words describe what I'm feeling right now. SHE'S SHO FINE!! x3
There has to be a limit to how beautiful fiction can be but DAMN you do dis stuff justice, mm-mm >
The song is killer too! I'm so giddy that we have the same taste
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.... now I understand why I like her so much, maybe we share similar mind and memories *sigh* it's bad to encounter such things when I am in the middle of a cure fail
Beautiful art though, I want to hug her so much
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I'm really sorry if this dug up any unresolved or painful feelings for you, but if you ever need someone to talk to I'm more than willing (even if it's just to listen)
Thank you for your continued support! Lots of love to you
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ohh no no, sorry if I worried you... I am better now though, with hopes it will last much longer from now on!
I have luck to have these few great friends who know me and care, I should talk with them first (it's still not done : ( probably that's why it was taking so long to get up, oh my, I am still so stupid and such a turtle with my felings haha... )
My pleasure, lots of love to you!! 
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I don't even know what to say, but this is awesome asf.
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Your image's of Elliel are so damn beautiful. Guh!! I love it.
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Omg!!!!!!!! I am in love with Josef Salvat! I started reading the lyrics on the painting and got excited because yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hustler is my favorite song by him, and then Open Season
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I haven't heard Open Season but I'll definitely check it out!
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(This is ShaeFael on Tumblr~!) Aaaaah!!! The message in this is just so real and it makes my heart hurt but I love it all the same. Forever thanking you for expressing her the way that you do, and I'm so looking forward to seeing what you come to show further with your research.
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the responses to her and her story have been so encouraging, and they've honestly been a source of healing for me too 
Thank you so much!
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I really admire how you're able to take your experiences and healing and bring it out in your art, it's powerful and strong and it really shows when you do. Congratulations on your research and further understanding of it and yourself in doing so even though I'm sure it was really hard, I don't even know you properly and I'm proud of you. And, you really are using that research of that trauma to approach Elliel's history/behaviors accurately and realistically, that's one of the biggest things that makes me really respect a creator. Well done, and thankyou for sharing this with us! <3
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ahh sorry for the late reply but thank you so much :')
I've always felt that even fantasy settings these things need to be well-researched and realistic. The unifying element between scifi/fantasy and the reader is the emotional aspect, and that includes traumas and pain that's sometimes really hard to face. It was hard but it was worth it.
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It's quite alright! And you're so very welcome, I can tell how worth it was, well done ad congratulations C':
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This one is very striking. Thank you for sharing
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Thank you for looking!
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It's interesting for me to think about hypersexuality as a consequence of sexual trauma.
I've experienced such trauma myself, and have actually begun to struggle with an almost total loss of my sexual self as a result. It is a massive difference from who I was in the past, and I miss that person and want to be that way again, and frequently struggle with the frustration of the current issue, not to mention guilt from dragging my partner along the way.
Not to totally get super personal and shove forward a bunch of info no one wants. This piece just hit a bunch of nerves (not at ALL in a harmful way, so please don't worry there) and I felt the need to share.
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Thank you so much for sharing your experiences with me. I was a bit unsure bout posting it, but I'm glad I did it in the end
I don't know if you were particularly looking for an explanation, but I actually didn't understand hypersexuality for the longest time either; the past year researching and working on it has helped me realize how much it effects people (as well as myself). It's strange because I experience both sex repulsion AND hypersexuality at different times, sometimes hating the act and also putting too much of my value in my ability to perform, thinking my relationship will fail if I don't do it a lot and satisfy my partner, etc., and sometimes feeling "the urge" without it ever feeling good or excited. It's really messy and painful and tbh, sometimes I still have trouble understanding it
I think it's the result of imprinting and more common among people who experienced it at younger/developmental ages
Again, thank you for trusting me with this kind of knowledge, I hope you didn't mind me sharing some of my experiences back! Please let me know if I made you uncomfortable at all, it won't hurt my feelings and I want you to feel like you can talk about these things in a safe environment
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Ahh I have a lot of feels and don't know how to express them. It really means a lot to me that you responded and shared some of your experience as well. I think one of the biggest things that can get in the way of those trying to heal is the lack of a place to be open about things without fear, so thank you so so much for giving me this little moment to connect. It's so easy to feel isolated and guilty and ashamed, and dialogues like this one do a lot of good to combat those illusions. Truly, thank you.
I wish us both love, patience, and healing, most importantly from ourselves. <3
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I really like this style!
I also love to get inspired by songs/lyrics to drawing pictures
In case you're still into sexual themes for drawings... this sound might be fitting, even though it's a completely different genre
www.youtube.com/watch?v=d9R8OA… Adrenalize by In This Moment
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ahh yeah I know that song! Glad you like the style of my picture though
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Awesome 
Yup, I'm totally into this style
Have you ever heard of Rupert Everton/Alexis Flower?
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Your love makes me happy haha!
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ok this one just. here's my heart, you can have it. i can't handle all these feelings anymore anyways.
why you gotta play me like a fiddle man why you so cruel. this poor fucking puppy i'm honestly a little distressed. i hope this doesn't trigger anybody because the implications are so blatant?? 
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ahh yeah I hope it doesn't trigger anyone either, I didn't think of that ://(
I wasn't expecting this one to turn out so well honestly, but I think the raw and unrefined quality is what makes it...honest?
Thank you though sweetie, you've been so supportive of me exploring these themes!
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