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Paranoid-Duckkie — For Haku: Loss of a friend

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Description I finished it after I don't even WANT to know how many hours... over 40 for sure... I've been working on it almost none stop since I started. I am allowing people to download this, because I drew it for Haku, and everyone who cares about her.

As some of you know, we had been discussing the idea of holding a final Rurouni Kenshin contest in Hakubaikou's name. We are setting it up now, and you will find everything you need to know about it here -->

Loss of a Friend

You were always two steps ahead of me
And I was happy to follow
But now your footprints have vanished before me
For you now walk where I cannot

Now I stand where your path ends
And as I look forward I wonder
Is this where you wanted to go
Or were you planning to go much farther

In my heart I know I will head toward the horizon
As I'm sure you planned to do
I will carry your memory with me forever
And I will walk where you could not

I am pretty sure that every Kenshin fan on dA knows Hakubaikou.
. for her amazing Kenshin fan art, her fan site, and the annual Kenshin contest. I am sure a large percentage of fantasy art lovers know her as well for her breathtaking landscapes and fantasy characters painted in her gallery... so I am sure that a great many of us will feel the same sadness I feel to learn of her death.

She died in a car crash Jan 27, 2009. We are told it was instant and that she felt no pain... no, it is us who feel the pain.

Haku was an inspiration to me for so many reasons. When I first got on dA, I was just an anime fan artist... but Haku showed me that I could take my skills further by drawing realism that still looked like the anime, and because of her beautiful fanart, I was inspired to do the same. Then she started doing other, non-fanart related works, which showed me again that there is more to dA than sharing the love of existing anime. I started working on my own original stuff in part because of her example, and in a way, Manic-goose may not have been with out her. Her annual contests showed me that by doing something every year, it can get big, I hold my coloring contests because I wanted to give colorists something like what Haku gave Kenshin fan artists. In a lot of ways, she inspired me to become the artist I am today, and now she is gone from this world forever. The saddest thing is that I know that I will never have the chance to tell her how much her work helped me to grow now. I was always too embarrassed to tell her so, but now I wish I had, because now I will never have another chance to.

I needed to do something for her, to honor and remember her, and I couldn't think of anything more fitting than a realistic fanart of Kenshin, expressing the sadness I'm sure he would feel to learn of her passing. She was a good friend to Kenshin because she helped keep the fandom alive. The poem is also a way to honor her, for I wrote it immediately after I found out.

Please take a moment of silence now to remember her, and all that she has given us.

links to my favorite Kenshin fanart of hers
[link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link]

links to favorite fantasy art of hers (prints bought go to funding a scholarship in her name)
[link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link]

Here is the reference I used for the face... so everyone go fave that picture please! Because it helped me a lot Not just with this picture but with improving my technique. --> [link]
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Comments: 304

ArtsyVana [2013-07-18 15:36:06 +0000 UTC]

My god.


Very nice picture though. 

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Abyss-Valkyrie [2013-05-07 12:12:56 +0000 UTC]

!!OOOHH!!!This is such a beautiful work and has so much emotion in it!!

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ObsidianFangirl [2013-05-03 08:46:06 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry you and other fans of Haku (and her family and friends) had to go through loosing her. I'm sure she would have been very touched to see this. I've only seen a few of her works but I didn't realize it until I clicked into her Kenshin folder. It makes me sad that such an amazing artist is gone.
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And this makes me fall for Kenshin all over again, so gorgeous!

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to ObsidianFangirl [2014-01-18 19:00:01 +0000 UTC]

It is so sad, but at least Haku inspired so many before she passed. I think that matters a great deal.

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Deilantha [2012-12-28 16:57:54 +0000 UTC]

Your work is so beautiful and so perfect!

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to Deilantha [2013-01-22 19:09:31 +0000 UTC]

Thanks.

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rosetheflower [2012-01-06 02:59:25 +0000 UTC]

aw it's very sad but it's perfect work .

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Twins413 [2011-11-19 18:30:25 +0000 UTC]

Great way of expressing ur sorrow and sadness. I 2 lost a friend. She died exactly 4 months and 1 day ago. I loved her so much. I was her friend in real life and we meet over some blogs and destiny took us 2 the same school where we were sitting in the same bench for 4 years. I miss her so much. I drew a lot of pictures of her and us. I still can't belive she's gone. Every time I go to listen 2 some songs I end up crying.

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to Twins413 [2011-11-19 19:12:54 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry for your loss, and yes, it is very hard to find closure. Thank you, and best wishes

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Knight-Dawn [2011-10-12 02:14:04 +0000 UTC]

So pretty, and so, so sad.
I swear, I found out about Haku not even a month ago, but her art is just... wow. It makes me want to become that good, makes me even more determined than ever to get my own work out there. I mean, I'm a fan of a lot of things (Kenshin included)... But I want to achieve something of my own.
Knowing how I am, I know Hakubaikou had a lot more to give the world. Rest in peace, Haku.
...

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Sascha90 [2011-10-03 09:06:41 +0000 UTC]

I first found out about Hakubaikou when I was thirteen by stumbling across her fansite back in 2003. Her RK art was so beautiful, so realistic, and I aspired to one day be able to draw and color my work just like her.
Six years later, I found out about her death, and I became sad, knowing that I had never told her how much she had inspired me to become a better artist.
Now I spend my time trying to improve my style and work still, hoping to get better. It's been two years, and I feel like I haven't gotten any progress done. I won't stop though.

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to Sascha90 [2011-10-07 15:57:01 +0000 UTC]

I think that she knew how inspiring she was to artists like you and me, as people had told her that all the time. I think that she will always be remembered and loved by the dA community.

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Jackfellouttahizbox [2011-01-22 07:02:39 +0000 UTC]

Haku...

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TanoshiiGirl [2010-09-28 20:43:21 +0000 UTC]

Wow! Its a beautiful picture. And what it's all for is soo sad. I just became dA member this year so I have never seen her art or heard of her. I wish I had though.

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to TanoshiiGirl [2010-09-29 01:55:33 +0000 UTC]

Well you can still see her work.

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TanoshiiGirl In reply to Paranoid-Duckkie [2010-10-01 19:32:59 +0000 UTC]

I did check her work out it is awesome. I can see why she inspired you.

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to TanoshiiGirl [2010-10-02 19:24:57 +0000 UTC]

^^ She inspired a lot of people

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colorhyper [2010-05-04 02:15:32 +0000 UTC]

haku?
my friend told me about her...
she was really sad, but i didnt know what she was talking about... this is amazing! Really pretty!! U have talent!

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to colorhyper [2010-05-04 15:57:02 +0000 UTC]

Thank you. Well Haku died in a car crash, and she was an inspiration to a lot of artists here on dA. A lot of people miss her

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colorhyper In reply to Paranoid-Duckkie [2010-05-04 18:42:43 +0000 UTC]

Oh no, thats so sad... Ur picture would have made her proud, im sure of it <3

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to colorhyper [2010-05-05 03:09:03 +0000 UTC]

Thanks.

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DavidSusana [2010-04-28 21:54:57 +0000 UTC]

thank you so much for this stunning piece of art

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hidemycookies [2010-02-21 18:32:24 +0000 UTC]

OH. MY. GOD.

just...just.

oh my god.

ill come back when someone wakes me.

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to hidemycookies [2010-02-21 19:31:08 +0000 UTC]

ha ha, thank you

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maggot216 [2010-02-17 04:34:37 +0000 UTC]


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randomanimeLUVER [2010-02-16 21:48:01 +0000 UTC]

This is gorgeous! It's so smooth and the detail comes together so perfectly! You've really captured the mood and the flower is a very delicate and nice touch.
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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to randomanimeLUVER [2010-02-17 01:09:32 +0000 UTC]

THank you.

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randomanimeLUVER In reply to Paranoid-Duckkie [2010-02-17 02:24:04 +0000 UTC]

You're very welcome.

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Thoru-Megumi [2010-01-27 20:20:03 +0000 UTC]

Beautiful! *o* We can really feel what he feel!!!.... Love it!

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to Thoru-Megumi [2010-01-28 02:38:20 +0000 UTC]

Thank you.

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ECVcm [2010-01-26 07:23:16 +0000 UTC]

Beautiful I like a lily it's my favourite flower

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to ECVcm [2010-01-27 01:11:23 +0000 UTC]

One of mine too, that and orchids

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Faded-System [2010-01-23 20:06:04 +0000 UTC]

such a beautiful piece!
I'm sorry for your loss...

may she rest in piece...

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to Faded-System [2010-01-24 22:27:44 +0000 UTC]

Thank you

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SiriusFan13 [2010-01-01 05:29:16 +0000 UTC]

This is absolutely gorgeous. Great work

Sirius
*who is in complete awe*

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to SiriusFan13 [2010-01-01 22:33:28 +0000 UTC]

for all the comments and faves.

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Serenity12778 [2009-11-05 19:25:46 +0000 UTC]

Wow it's amazing..I'm sorry for your loss.
I'm pretty sure your friend would have loved your painting
What did you use to make it?

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to Serenity12778 [2009-11-06 23:58:21 +0000 UTC]

I used photoshop to paint it. I use the smudge tool to smooth everything out after the rough sketch and then go over again with more details using a fine detail brush. Thank you.

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Serenity12778 In reply to Paranoid-Duckkie [2009-11-07 00:30:00 +0000 UTC]

Nice
It came out wonderfully beautiful

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brukaoru [2009-08-14 00:13:26 +0000 UTC]

Is there are words to describe how awesome this looks? Amazing work! Very beautiful.

A wonderful piece to commemorate a great person. A great artist who unfortunately is no longer with us. I hope she at peace now.

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to brukaoru [2009-08-14 00:50:46 +0000 UTC]

I know what you mean, she was truely amazing, and it is sad that we won't be seeing any more of her lovely works.

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PhoenixFury666 [2009-07-30 01:49:26 +0000 UTC]

BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to PhoenixFury666 [2009-07-30 02:29:13 +0000 UTC]

Thank you. ^__^

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PhoenixFury666 In reply to Paranoid-Duckkie [2009-07-30 04:29:38 +0000 UTC]

np

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zaradei [2009-07-13 01:34:27 +0000 UTC]

Lovely!!

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Nisshoku-art [2009-06-30 13:13:23 +0000 UTC]

Lovely work and a feature, for sure. Check my journal to see it and really, I browsed through her gallery, she made beautiful artwork.

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to Nisshoku-art [2009-06-30 15:23:37 +0000 UTC]

Yes she really did. Thank you.

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Nisshoku-art In reply to Paranoid-Duckkie [2009-06-30 16:41:33 +0000 UTC]

You are welcome.

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jbramx2 [2009-06-28 07:04:21 +0000 UTC]

I had been in an artist rut for more than a year. What finally shook me out of it...was the news of Hakubaiko's passing. I met her at anime expo one year and thought she was the sweetest coolest artist around. I looked up to her and wanted to be just as good as her and I thought...one of these years, I'm gonna get a table at artist alley too and I'll give her a print of my pictures just like she gave me one of hers.

Needless to say I was heartbroken when I found out the news of her passing. Even now it still brings tears to my eyes. She loved my RK fanarts and always encouraged me to join the contest and I really wanted to one of these years, but I just never had time.

Well, I decided enough was enough. I have to make time. I'll get nowhere not even trying. We'll never get to see any more new works from her, so I will work harder to produce works on my end, because I know she enjoyed my work. So that's what I've been doing. Drawing till my hand cramped up and my right arm would hurt for a week. But I kept at it, till my body got used to it again. Heh, I hadn't done that in two years! I've finally finished some works that I had left hanging around for two to four years on my computer. That was a big accomplishment for me. I'm just so sad she didn't get to see them. And I've started new works that show how much I've improved my style.
Currently, things are on hold due to my mother breaking her ankle and me taking up all her house duties and taking care of her and my elderly father, but when I get back, I'll make sure to do something that will honor Haku. She was an inspiration in life and will continue to be so from now on.

That said, this is gorgeous. I love the different tones on his skin and hair. It makes it so real and magical at the same time. That flower is gorgeous too. My goodness, you are so talented! *bows* And oh, it just breaks my heart. Haku would've loved this! ;_;

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Paranoid-Duckkie In reply to jbramx2 [2009-06-28 17:21:58 +0000 UTC]

I know what you mean completely. It is so sad, but I think she would be happy that she still helped you even in passing by getting you drawing again. You know about the tribute contest for haku? [link] It is for people like you who want to honor her in a way, and to find closure as much as it is for her.

I'm glad you like the picture... I know, it is sad that we need to loos something sometimes to find the creative spark that really brings out our potential...

Thank you for sharing you little story with me. I'm going to go see if this new art is up to look at in your account now. ^^

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