De3pBl4ck [2012-10-21 20:04:01 +0000 UTC]
I understand that on some level.
This is a little hard to admit most times, but I have down it before, so let me get this out: my father is a convicted pedophile.
And while most people my age are having or have already had children, on some disturbing level, I keep thinking whatever degree of perversion my father had in him, may pass onto me and/or my offspring.
I'll have no part in raising little predators or becoming one myself.
I've recognized various signs of that manner corruption in my own thoughts and feelings, and while for the most part I've either suppressed them or squashed them, there is some small part of me that fears I may be still become my worst nightmare: MY OWN FATHER.
While I wouldn't having a family, I do wonder if those aspects of my upbringing may influence my role as a father.
In a way, I envy your logical and reasonable excuse for bowing out of the procreation game.
Seeing as mine is more irrational and fear based, it could very well be possible that I am "much ado about nothing."
Albeit, it is a very powerful and fact based phobia…
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