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she clutched her best friend's hand tight as they walked down the drug store aisle."i'm not sure i can do this..."
he squeezed her hand back and gave her a hug.
"you can. you'll be ok. and i'm right here...it'll be alright."
she took a deep breath and grabbed the nearest box of pregnancy tests on the shelf. then she shoved it into his hands and ran out to the car while he paid.
--
three hours later she's pacing in front of the bathroom mirror, the box of pregnancy tests staring her down from the counter.
"i still can't do this."
he's waiting for her outside the bathroom; has been for the whole three hours.
"no matter what happens, you'll be ok - i promise."
she opens the door and looks at him.
"you're not even the father...why are you here?"
he reaches for one of the test sticks and starts to unwrap it.
"because you're my best friend and i'm here for you."
he hands the stick to her then steps out and closes the door.
--
twenty minutes later she opens the bathroom door and falls into his arms, crying inconsolably.
"is it positive? what happened"
she showed him the test. NEGATIVE.
all she could do was hold onto him and cry.
--
one year and seven months later.
"happy birthday, precious baby girl...i miss you so much."
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I understood it up until the last two lines.
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it's remembering when her birthday should have been
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DDDDDDD:
you do not know how much this mirrors one of my memories. i can almost cry.
yes, this needed to be written.
and i'm glad you did.
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i'm so sorry that you have this memory...it's painful and terribly sad. but you're not alone <3
thank you for your kind words and love
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i know and neither are you<3
you're welcome
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thank you <3
people need to remind each other that they aren't alone far more often than they do
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sometimes you don't want something, but then you think you might get it anyway and you start to be happy that you have it. but then it turns out you either never had it or you lost it and then you're devastated.
does that make sense?
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I understand. I was wondering about the particular circumstances. Does it apply to you or someone else?
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There's nothing to say but you have all my warmth and cuddles.
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thanks - you're so sweet <3
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i got everything except for the last part. but it's very emotional. i love it.
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gah. thanks.
the last part is just...remembering when her birthday SHOULD have been i guess.
<3
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<3
missing things you never had is weird, you know?
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i can't say i know from experience, but i understand what you mean. maybe because i tuned into this piece so much i understand a little more than i would have though. it was really easy to follow the emotional pattern. you worded it perfectly for an outsider to be able to sympathize.
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awww thank you so much - that means a lot!
i'm really glad that you can't relate from experience though :] that's a good thing!
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